Ever since dat day..

ever since dat day..
many leaved me..

ever since dat day..
i lost my power..

ever since dat day..
i hav no confidence in me..

ever since dat day..
...

i rly dunno wad is happening..
lik i said..
u guys treat me warmly..
bt all on a sudden..
every1 is giving me a cold shoulder..
nt every1..
bt mostly..
even the 'non-prefects'..

bt ntg much i can do..
jux be my best..
1 thing dunno is happy or sad..
i think i can accept da fact..
so wad if im nt it..
i will still do my best..
maybe for me or da teac who put hope in me..
even though she dun even rmb my name..
bt at least i tried my best..

if u dunno me..
u might noe wad im saying..
if u noe..
den ntg much..
jux to say..
i will try to be happy..
even though i feel lik giving up..

somehow i feel myself annoying..
sry to da ppl whom i've annoyed ^^
hahaXD

18-19

very tired..
hurt myself..
TT
start from yesterday..
during Pj period..
annie was sick again..
n again..
carry her down..
i rly old le..
after carrying..
my back started to pain..
for a while..
den ntg much happened..
until 2.15..
school finally end..
bt yet..
rumah sukan start at 3..
omg..

went out for food..
den siew wei ate da spags..
den da chicken skin she did nt eat..
den she start playing with food..
chili campur tomato campur apa saja~
den end up she saw a dog..
throw da skin dere..
den dog did nt react..
YET!!
when i was near da dog..
da dog only walk close to da skin..
den it ate it..
omg!!
so gross..
n dirty..
if sumthin happened to da dog..
wei is da 1 to blame..
haha.. XD

den during sports time..
omg..
high jump..
i jumped to fast..
haven reach da pole oredi jump..
bt 1 thing is..
i can jump so far..
over two mattresses..
until my knee knocked on da floor..
as if im jumping for da long jump..
maybe participated in wrong event..
XP
kidding~

end up i think i sprained my legs..
my right knee hurts(knocked on da floor)..
n my left leg jux hurt unexpectedly..
i think is da nerve..
den my back hurts badly..
as if im old..
TT

bt now i think im feeling better..
finally can rest..
laz nite..
i spent whole night doing hw..
moral den sejarah..
omg..
my sejarah rly..
did my notes for lik hours..
n tec use only seconds to finish marking my notes..
wad for doing it..
bt im doing for myself..
nt for dat BIATCH~
yes i purposely add an A in dat..
no spelling mistakes.. XD

den..
2day ntg much happen..
hard to walk..
den experiment for da cells..
unfortunately our group cant c a thing..
boo~~

den ntg much dy..
oh ya..
still gt 1 free apple from cik mang~
cuz gt A in BC(PMR)..
to da form3s..
if u lik apples..
gt A in BC or go to da market n buy 1..
hahaha XD

im trying to be happy dese days..
still kinda hard..
bt trying..
bt when u r happy..
u hav to care abt dose who r nt..
or wadeva..
so hard..
bt i dun c dem doing it for me..
so wad for i shud go n bother so much..
waste of time..

1 more thing..
today we hav caligraphy competition..
is compulsory for every1 to participate now..
using BC lesson..
im quite satisfied with mine..
even though is nt nice at all..
bt i m..
since im nt gud at it..
i can rite oredi gud lo.. ^^

den i rly duno wad is happening now..
kinda complicated..
somehow u guys like me..
bt sumtimes..
u guys jux giv me a cold shoulder..
i dunno whether i shud be hot or cold to u guys..
tell me wad u wan la!!
i noe im nt da head nor assistant anymore..
bt u dun hav to do dat..
haha!!
true frens who abandon when one hs no power anymore..
dis might be a misunderstanding..
bt ish~~

speechless..

n for dose who commented on my previos post..
thx ya all~~ love ya~~

...

dis few weeks r tough..
very hard..

laz friday we had prefects meeting..
now is official..
da thing dat many ppl awaits happen..
suan le ba..
only ppl who understand me noe wad im talking about..
it happened jux as i imagined..

den monday n tuesday..
i dun rmb anything happened..

wednesday..
dis is hard..
i hate it..
i started school happily..
actually not..
after choosing da clubs..
nt rly in mood dy..
den??
Mrs Lee wanted some1 to help her out..
so ying xin saw me coincidently at da bilik guru..
so i went to help..
teac wanted da name list of da top students..
she suggested dat i can either find teac or go class by class ask..
dis is nt da bad part..
so i started my 'journey'..
went up n down of da block..
finding "a teacher"..
den i tried to go to da canteen..
YES!! found her..
bt Pn pauline wanted me to help her with sumthin..
so i went up again..
talked to a guy..
run back down..
went to da canteen..
luckily pn pauline still noe wad to do..
she help me tell 'da teac'..

so 'da teac' came out holding her plates..
i said dat i nid da name list..
den she said she giv it later..
so i said i nid it now..
den she show me da 'im a teacher,listen to me' look..
she wan to put back her stuff 1st..
WT*!!
im working for dis school..
sacrificed my time jux to do ntg dat benefits me..
now i still hav to fake my smile in front of u?!!
so wad if u r a teacher..
manners much?!!!
i might be wrong..
bt logic la!!
"NOW" doesn't mean literally now at the spot..
i mean dat i wan da thing ASAP..
how would i noe wad u still wan to do..
Mrs lee wans it urgently..
n u still slow slow..
OMG!!
spoil my mood for whole day..
yes..
i cried..
bt nobody cares..
perhaps nobody saw it..
yea..
im dat kind of person..
if i gt scolded..
i will cry easily..
bt i try to resist myself from crying..
bt i da lab..
i cried..
so coincidently..
sumthin happened to Annie..
so every1 focus on her..

speaking of which..
dat time was kinda unforgettable..
sumhow..
sumthin is wrong..
annie felt sick..
den using a chair..
3 guys carried it down..
me as a backup..
carry her to da bilik guru..
nt long after..
her mom came..
den again..
carry her down to da car..
dis time gt 1 person is nt dere..
so i carried..
feel kinda dangerous for her..
den reach d car..
carry her in..
when every1 is in serious mood..
suddenly..
1 teacher spoiled da car door..
da handle is spoilt..
den every1 try nt to laugh..
until da car is gone..
indeed it is hilarious..
den 2nd day annie is back..
lucky ntg bad happen..

den thursday..
ntg much happen...
jux choose unit beruniform..
den stomch ache..
n HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my mom..
ate steamboat at desapark city..
dis may be da reason dat im having stomach ache on FRIDAY..
whole day nt feeling well..
dun feel lik going to school bt went..
den many ppl found me..
bt i rly no mood smile to them..
sry..
dun misunderstand anything..

haiz..
frenz..
i rly dunno wad to say abt it..
nt once bt twice..
2 times u guys abandon me to another group..
da 1st time u guys din even tell me which club u guys r choosing..
so i go n campur with yu zhen dem..
go SPBT..
den da 2nd time..
dis time at least gt tell me..
bt so how??
u guys go so early..
din even book a place for me..
until i reach dere oredi full..
ya dis is wad ppl call frens..
den again..
join yu zhen dem go le catur..
actually being with them is happier than being with my 'fren'..
a lil..

den lastly..
i rly dunno y..
keep feeling dat many ppl dislike me..
especially da form 5's..
i hav no idea wad i did..
bt sry if i did sumthin wrong..

n to sum ppl..
i dunno how to say dis..
hating sum1 is nt easy..
da only 1 who will suffer is me..
so i've decided since is a new year..
y don i giv it a new try..
put down everything bad..
go it a new try..
it might be better..
yea..
i might lost..
bt i won lose my dignity..
i will work hard for my future..
i nid to become mature..
no more childish thinking..
is L-A-M-E , LAME!!!

1st day of school..

school is lik shit!!
d@mn frustrated on da 1st day..
school nt systematic at all..
wad oso haven arrange..
till laz minute only say everything..
think we r gods??
wadeva..
whole day of frustration & boredom!!

whole day..
sit dere..
do nothing..
think nothing..
talk nothing..
no1 to talk with..
ntg to talk abt..
wad were we doing in da holidays??!!
until bek to skul oso ntg say..

cme to skul with a happy feeling..
came back moody..
ntg much to talk abt..
since is bored like he!!..

dunno how long can i stand dis..
i hate my class..
hate my sitting position..(dunno c wad)
i hate my sj teac..(even haven start teach..)
BT I HATE IT OREDI!!

argh!!
dunno will u c it anot..
i hereby wish u..
CHOY YIP SENG
&
LIM SIN HUI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

it's been a long time..

this will be a long long post i think..
maybe nt..
cuz ive 4gt many things..

1stly..
i gt str8 As in my PMR..
m rly happy..
n i would lik to thank my parents for giving me dis brand new laptop~
luv it so much..
bt i dun hav a pic of it..
^^

2ndly..
im rly anxious to see wad would da swimming pool at my aunt's hse after renovation..
dey r moving dere.. lazy to upload pics la..
><
bt i hope it would be nice..

3rd thing is..
a late merry christmas ti every1..
i thought i would hav a miracle dis time..
so i tried calling U..
as usual..
we talked..
about nonsense..
dis and dat..
my hands were trembling..
OMG..
at first i rly dare nt start..
bt den dis is da 1st time i said it to u..

...

sudden silence jux came..
for a few secs..
den U tell me our relation right now is ok..
dat's awkward..
feel kinda embarassing..
><

i noe it all along..
u wun lik me anymore..
i dun hav da looks..
im nt as 'handsome' as xh..
im nt as 'smart' as him..
im nt as 'outgoing' as him..
im nt as 'brave' as him..
im nt as 'cool' as him..
im nt as 'wadeva' he is..
all he gt is compliments..
even from my mom..
OMG..
does my mom praise me lik dat..?
wad ppl do she praise..
when i did da same thing laz time..
she nvr cared at all..
wadeva..

bek to da topic..
i noe wad da answer is..
bt i stil wan to propose 1 more time..
at least dis time using my mouth..
even is da same answer bt at least i wun regret..
at least i said it to U..
one laz time..
i love you..
n maybe i can finally get over it..
maybe..
maybe..
im having tears now..
bt maybe next time..
it will be a smile..
it might be hard..
i hope it will..

argh..

even though santa din giv me dis present..
bt at least it gav me 3 gud frenz..
wanna noe who??
ask me XD
n of cuz my PMR result..
thx santa 4 giving me even im nt a christian~
...

thx mama,weii..
thx tc..
thx zy~
for making me smile when im sad..
maybe nt..
bt at least u guys can comfort me..
or maybe nt..
maybe at least u guys can accompany me..
n of cuz jiah xin la..
dun think too much oo..
i was busy so no reply dou u..
sumtimes i no on msn de..
jux facebook..
dun worry..
i din hate u la~
jiayou in PMR to all form 3 students,2010~

anywayz..
gudbye to all form 5s..
wingwing~
dickshen..
i will miss u guys!!

gud luck in everything..

to my readers..
thx oso for supporting my blog..
i'll appreciate it..
anywayz, can u guys leave a comment so dat i noe who read??

anywayz..
thx..
i will try my bez to get over it..
hope for a better tomolo..

lastly..
thx to u..
at least u likeD me b4..
i will always keep dose times in my memory..

kena tag~

被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷

(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了

1. xiaowei
2. minghui
3. cheeyong
4. karwoon
5. siaowei
6. bebezai
7. k3w1n
8. tatcheng
9. chenhsien
10. karmeng


01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ] : maybe~
02-[ 10号是男还是女? ] : male
03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ] : dis is a hard 1...@@ gaming?
04-[ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ] : yea.. both bro n sis
05-[ 7号姓氏? ] : mun
06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ] : kinda~
O7-[ 4号有人追吗? ] : of cuz~^^
08-[ 承上2号呢? ] : ??
09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: no idea.. yellow??
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ] : maybe.. yes
11-[ 8号的生日是? ] : 23-7
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ] : SMK Sinar Bintang
13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ] : same school??
14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ] : about 5??
15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ] : yea.. 1 time i think..
16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ] : definately bt i dunno wad she thinks XD
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ] : no idea..yes as in frenz??
18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ] : ok~
19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ] : emotional.. bt caring sumtimes~
20-[ 你爱5号吗? ] :as a fren.. of cuz~

1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的 :cynthia,shirui~
2. 你们认识多久呢 :芷晴两年，cynthia-3 years,shirui-2
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗 :-yea
4. 你与他(她)的关系是 :frenz
5. 你覺得他(她）的個性如何 : too many indescribable
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是 : on9??

問 : 當你在更衣室沖水,门忽然被打开了你会-- depends.. XD

問 : 海中忽然大浪來襲后你发现比基尼小姐上身泳裝被沖掉了你会--no idea..

問 : 去海边玩会使用咩交通工具--bike?

問 : 你突然发现沒帶泳裝泳衣你会買吗--maybe..

問 : 回去时发现有其他遊客手机沒拿你会觉得是哪牌子的--SONY ERICSSON

問 : 海边对你來说是--romantic n relaxing.. bt very scary in da nite..

問 : 看到镜子会不由自主的向前吗--mostly yea..

問 : 经常用洗面乳吗 --yea..

問 : 说到自恋会想到谁--xionghui..><>

問 : 有人说该減肥了你会--i think no1 wan me 2 become thin now..

問 : 自恋適合你吗--maybe.. bt dun hav dat kind of face to be lik dat..

fated..

moody..
fate..
dis is my fate..
nvr success in any organization of any trips or gathering..
since...
EVER!!
yes im disappointed..
bt im nt blaming any1..
i understand ur situation..
jux feeling sad..
n i dunno how..
blame myself with dis kind of fate..
wadeva..

btw, im angry nt bcuz of dis..
im angry bcuz of da other thing dat happened..
is happening n usually happens..
u 'sacrifices' alot rite??
say wad wad wad..
den wad u r doing..
nt same v wad u say..
i gt da chance is bcuz i earn it..
nt bcuz u tolerate..
so dun act lik u r sacrificing for me..

i rly wan to leave..
i will only gt mad soon..

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