brief schedule for laz week..

1-3-10
dat day where everything starts to end..
haiz..
dun wanna talk abt it..
bt dat's my 1st day wearing a coat..
ppl kept complaining dat it is hot ^^
bt new experience..
exam..
bm,bi,ma,sj

2-3-10
dun rmb wad happen..
perhaps ntg..
exam pm,bc,psk,fz

3-3-10
agn i dun think anything happen..
laz day of exam
bio,che,am

4-3-10
ntg much i guess..

5-2-10
meeting after school..
kinda funny xia..
is lik "ppl who committed a crime reported to da police"
da more u say..
da funnier u r..
we won feel offended..
since u were da 1 who were making a fool or urself..
hilarious..


WE respect ppl who respect US..

6-2-10
wushu in da morning.
kinda refreshing..
den rush for organ lesson..
ntg much..
den rush for bio tuition..
oso ntg much..
sailou no go anymore TT
nite go eat at a steamboat restaurant..
"restoran MoMo Paradise"at menjalara..
(if nt mistaken)
some relatives treated us..
^^
if nt mistaken 20++ per person..
da food dere nt bad..
my bro n i kept eating beef slices..
ate dunno how many plate..
(1 plate 2 slice)
den eat eat eat..
full le abit..
den go eat ice-cream..
eat le..
after dat..
my bro n i both ate a total of 10 plates agn..
omg..
rly many xia..
hahaXD
nt bad..
eat till full full..
for ppl who can eat..
worthy~

den bek le..
passed by many shops..
many steamboat shops..
omg..
rly full house..
is lik all never eat steamboat b4..
den passed by a kopitiam..
empty..
den my bro n i said dat it shud sell steamboat..
hahahaXD

7-2-10
ntg much..
woke up eat..
go for tuition..
den b4 going down..
my legs hurted..
scratched by da seat i guess..
den started bleeding..
==
now a bit hurt..TT

after knowing everything dat had happened..
it jux made me more n more sad..
from now on..
i wun wanna ask abt it anymore..
nobody cares anyway..

Nvr da PSYCHO anymore..

失败···

依然的···
感到很无奈···
觉得有点伤心···
也许这次真的可以放下了···
···
···
···
失败就是失败···
以为多关心···
问候下···
结果···
所得到的也等于0···
还以为他们会觉得我在关心···
可是···
相反的···
他们只记得其他人···
证明了我在他们心中是没有地位的···

所付出的···
也是没用的···
都是自己傻···
为什么要那么八卦···
别人的事也要理···
以为我不知道什么事吗？？
我只是想问候下···
让你们知道我会支持你们···
可是···
算了···
自己笨！
别人不要我也不能勉强···
以为能让你们开心···
结果···
我的存在对你们来说也没意义···

算了···
以后不再干涉你们事情了···
理这么多···
最后还是一样···
我的心···
死了···

i like it when it rains..
Im only happy when i see rain..
feeling rain drops on my skin..
da only way to release my anger..
I hope it rains..

1-3-2010

你还记得今天吗？？
两年前的今天···
也许已经没有印象了···
虽然不是说什么大日子···
可是却是我最开心的一天···
第一次知道喜欢的人尽然也喜欢我···
确实很开心···
虽然没有在一起···
可是我还是很开心···

可是···
随着时间漂流···
也许你对我的感觉也淡了···
我也无法挽回···
也许我给不到你安全感···
也许我还不够好···

你也渐渐对他又感觉了···
我·········

等了又等···
你们分了又复合···
可是我依然没成功···
记得你说过你要的1000句吗？？
很遗憾的···
我只写到了763句···
可是你现在已经也不要了啦···

我不会爱···
我不知道该做什么···
不该做什么···
还记得上次···
你们分了···
你很伤心···
这也是我第一次听见你哭···
我不知所措···
自己的眼泪也情不自禁留了下来···
他们说女孩哭了···
代表她真的爱了···
可是你哭的是为他···
不是为我···
我也知道你心里已没有我了···

当年所发生的事···
只能当作回忆···
美丽的···
伤心的···
一切已没有挽回的机会···
一切已成定局···

我们也许真的不可能了···
我也没他那么本事···
···········
全部都是注定的···
明明可以的···
却···
············
如果可以时间倒流···
我一定会尽我能力去把握···
但···
太迟了···

两年了···
期待了两年···
但是···
都是我傻···
每天自己骗自己···
给自己机会···
明明没可能···
我依然自己骗自己···
我···
失败···
算了···
注定的也没什么好讲···

两年前的今天···
一切的开始···
要在两年后的今天结束??
我能吗？？
虽然我心很痛···
虽然流下了眼泪···
但是···
朋友们···
我答应你们···
不会让你们看见我伤心的一面···
无论如何···
我会尽量笑···
就算笑不出···
我也会尽我能力···
希望我能做到···

再过不久···
1-3 就快过了···
也代表我已没机会了···
1-3···
永在我心里···

1-3-2010
11：46PM

boredom~

at home dunno do wad..
lazyness is still striking me..
zzz

haiz..
2day..
dunno wad 2 say..
erm..
start from going to skul..
brought camer along..
XD
bt din play v it..
since is for serious matter..
(ok.. is only for pm project)

den gt dunno wad majlis..
din rly bother bout it..
bt sumthin about drugs..
ceramah~
din bother it..
den go bek to class..
cant find moral teac..
so decided to keep da camera by myself..

den sivik..
teac din teach..==
den pj..
changed into pj shirt n went for pingpong..
as usual..
waiting for my turn~
den dis is when my mood let ppl spoil it..
ever heard of queuing??
no~~
not 1 person..
2 oso..
it was my turn..
i may not be dat gud..
bt i deserve a try..
no~~
jux cut my line..
fine..
i giv u..
i dun wan to show faces..
bt i rly hate it..
ask urself..
if u r da 1 who were waiting..
den suddenly sum1 cut da queue..
i noe u surely scold n show faces..
FINE~
giv u..
at most cannot play only..
i wun lose anything..
bt guess wad..
whether u care anot..
u lost sumthing..
maybe u dun bother..
bt u lost it..

den when is another turn..
going to reach my turn..
WTF!!
teac ask me to do sumthin..
omg..
say im more responsible..
wan me to do..
==
apalah..
rly omg..
look on da bright side..
teac look up on me..
bt..
nvm..
past~

all i can say is..
from now on..
i wun tolerate anymore..
nt to u guys..
n..
i dun wan to go dere anymore..
waste my time..

den after PJ..
everything back to normal..
class~~

during physics..
when teac let us go..
wengkuat put da chair on da table(lab)..
den put till nt stable..
da chair fell..
i noticed dat..
afraid dat it'll make noise..
so i use my hand to stop it..
end up..
da chair hit on my hand..
hurt!!
till cant rly giv out power..
like no energy..
TT

den finally end of school..
went down to da 'taman' to do some kerja amal..
bt i feel kinda fake haha..
nt much rubbish oso let us make till more rubbish..
bt is jux for reference..
we did a lot of kerja amal...
bt no pictures only..
so is fair..
haha..
bt da pic some cant see face..
so dunno teacher accept anot..

den after school..
nap..
tuition..
den bek..
den i saw some1's blog..
rly..
1 word..
wannabe~
think dat u're cool or wadeva..
same word for u~
wannabe~~
dunno how den simply do..
end up??
haha
rly funny..
u guys r jux making a fool of urselves..
cant stop laughing..
XDXD

still complicated..
awaits..
4 days more..

Unbelievable..

My goodness..
today rly..
i din expect it..
both kailin n yingxin din come today..
nt sure y..
bt i think is cuz dey slept late..
since nid to pray..
bt wad oso din inform..
2day suddenly say we nid to go ikrar..
omg..
wad oso din prepare..
den we quickly prepare..
write da ikrar on a piece of paper..
den omg..
legs shaking..
den..
when asking da prefects to go duty..
i shouted..
bt my voice..
dunno y sounds so weird..
haven 'open' yet..
i think..
sounds weird..

den go out le..
omg..
more n more nervous..
bt lucky..
ntg went wrong..
haha..
end up..
feel very 'high'..
bt still nervous..
omg..
haha...
2day din feel bad..
kinda happy..
haha..
bt my heart is still complicated..
do i??
or do i not??
i rly dunno..

awaits..
6 more days..

3rd post of da day..

haiz..
dunno wad to say..
jux looked back at my previous blog(wretch)..
omg..
cant bliv i noe how to use some words..
even now i oso dun rmb..
reminded me of many sad things..
bt till now..
i still haven solve most of it..
some i've forgotten..
bt some..
still in my heart..
2 years..
le..
haven bt going..
1-3-2010..
dats da day..
i dunno how will it happen..
bt i hope it works..
for once..
even is a 0.0000001% chance..

frenz..
i still cant figure it out..
maybe dats me..
my fate..
or my attitude??
i think is both..
for no reason..
i dunno y..
i dun lik it when u interfere my relationships..
with fren i mean..
i dun lik it when u noe my frenz..
perhaps im jealous..
jealous dat u hav more frenz den me..
perhaps..
maybe cuz of dat..
i dun lik it..
whenever u meet my fren..
my relationshp v dem will reduce..
i dunno how..
i hate my selfish thinking..
cant i be more 'open'..
think outside da box?
y cant i jux control my emotions..
bt no matter how..
is deir choice of choosing frens..
i cant control so much..
i will control myself..
dun be so sensitive..
frenz r still frenz..
forever..

till now i still cant 4gt abt wad happen 2 years ago..
i rly do miss dat day..
da day wher u said u liked me..
will it happen agn..??
dun think so..
it will be in my memory..
wad can i do..
how??
complicated now..
in da middle of da nite..
me..
typing dese rubbish..
dunno for wad..

2.51am..

CNY schedule~

eve..
went for dinner..
sang a lot of songS..
nt me bt my family..
my voice still nt suitable to sing..
TT

day1..
went to uncles(dad's bro)'s hse..
ate kfc for lunch(our tradition)
den bek to da hse...
play chodaidi using mahjong cubes..
cool ei~
bt lost money..
den had dinner dere..
nice~

day 2..
went dad's boss hse..
ate breakfast dere..
which is ok~
bt i miss da food laz 2 years ago..
mee siam n many more..
now all catering..TT
bt da sate nt bad..
XD
den saw da lion dance..
which took a loooooooooooooong time..
no pics..==
sat at da living room heard da drums..
omg..
sooooo long..
hurt la~
den went to grandma's hse..
since mum n dad hav dinner tonite..
brought my laptop along..
play at grandma's~
gt wifi~
hehe..
dere were many aunties n uncles dere..
ntg much..
den at nite..
played black jack with rick~
din win din lose..
thx 2 da last round..
or else i'll lose..

day 3..
went sy's hse..
many pics bt lazy upload..
ntg special..
jux ate many tibbits..
den won some money..
ppl keep saying me lucky~
haha..
hope so..
bt i din win as much as kk..
i jux won 20 i guess..
nite go auntie(grandma's sis)'s hse..
ate dinner..
played with my 2 cousins..
which is still kinda small..
bt cute~
da younger 1 cuter..
haha
da elder 1 kinda notty..
==
haha

day4..
went dad's frens hse..
omg da fried chicken rly nice..
me n bro keep eating..
omg..
i think our chic. bones is da most on dat table..
den gambled..
won a few..
nice..
da dealer..
nt in gud condition..
dere were 2 gals..
maybe too rich..
dunno how save money..
very....
OMG
indescribable..
no go dou jy's hse tim~
nvm la..
next year..

day 5..
went jusco..
intended to watch 72sumthin..
bt full..
ended up watch "Percy Jackson-The Lighting Theif"..
NICE!!!
for me who was interested in greek myths..
lagi nice!!
gt connection with greek myths..
my favourite..
rly no regrets..
bt for dose who dunno anything about greek myths..
u wun understand da beginning bt it will oso b nice..
nice movie!!
like it!!
after movie..
had dinner with auntie n grandma..
omg..
ordered too much food..
bt still managed to finish le..
bt still gt few piece of chicken..
total 500++
speechless..

day 6..
stomachache..
missed all da fun at xh's hse..
argh..
y so..
ish~
TT
bt chatted with jn while doing sejarah..
for 4 hours..
omg..
i very 8 xia..
hahaha

day 7
lagi bored..
lik normal saturdays..
go organ lesson..
den tuition bio..
ntg much..

day 8
ntg much happen yet..
typing dese blogs in da middle of d nite..
2.41am~