105th, 106th day of waiting

105th day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
dunno wan go wushu anot..
cuz late sleep..
den end up go jor..
no regrets..
den do sit-ups n many abs exercise..
tired dao..

den organ..
ntg much..
den bio..
1 thing made laugh lik hell..
hav u ever wonder a pig swimming free style??
haha..
i rly cant imagine..

den bek home..
eat dinner..
den mahjong~
won 3 big rounds..
2nd round still 'dai sei hei'!!
woohoo~
bt no money de..
dun gamble..
haha..
happy jiu hao~~

btw..
pernahkkah anda dengar..
"sudah jatuh ditimpa mahjong"??
haha..
bro caught a mosquito..
den throw on table..
den da mahjong accidentally hit on it..
pitynya..

den ntg much..
sleep~

106th day of waiting..Sun
omg..
start jor..
my abs start paining..
argh..
laugh den pain..
T.T

tuition..
ntg much..
"Damn Brilliant"~
nt bad nt bad..

after tuition..
bek home..
go dinner..
den mom force me go a neighbour de hse..
cuz rumah terbuka..
eat malay food..
haiz..
nt suit me oso..
when i drink a spoon of soup..
dunno y..
mcm ada dejavu..
den kinda wan faint de feel..
weird..
conclusion..
nt my style..
bt da person is very friendly..
n looks a lil lik cikgu aidah..
even da voice oso..
im afraid later rly is..
den c dou her..
omg!!
luckily no..
den sit dere..
dunno w8 wad..
till 9 sumthin..
walk bek home..
refreshingnya~

den on9..
do hw..
ntg much..
mom's colleague gav her a plant..
very nice xia lo~
free den i will take pic jor..

thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

104th day of waiting

104th day of waiting..Fri
morning ntg much..
jux dey queue up at da tarmac agn..
den go bek class..
bored dao..
no teac..
no chair..
den go 4D discuss things v dem...
den time past..
moral time..
went bek class..
den when teac leave..
discuss agn..
dey say wan hav a band..
nt bad nt bad~!

den ntg much..
recess lo..
chat v sum 'juniors'..
abt deir 'sam xi'..
haha..
shhh~
secret~!

den went bek class..
dey take pic..
play xia v dem..
den saw sumthin..
which hurted my heart..
bt i continue my actions n expressions..
dun wanna show a thing..
looking at u is all i can do..

den keep w8ing until bek home lo..
ntg much de..

after dat go bilik pengawas..
do da raptai..
speechless..
shiying..
i und wad u say..
bt..
i oso feel da same way..
jux let it be..

den after end jor.
sumthin happened..
i dun rly noe y..
bt sumhow sum1 is sad..
i did nt noe whether im involved..
bt nt dat i dun care..
is jux dat..
i dun wanna bother u 1st..
since every1 is around u..
n u dun rly nid me too..
n dis oso caused weii n mh to 'cry'..
nt serious..
bt..
haiz..

den u guys went bek..
she went out to eat..
dun feel lik going..
so stay alone at skul..
den while wanna walk away..
da afternoon sessions ppl called me..
in my heart i thought..
dun hav to be alone..
bt i was wrong..
all dey wanna noe is wad happened..
den i was jux sitting dere..
ntg..
all of them only care him..
so if im nt sad..
den nobody will care la??
even i sad oso no1 will care..
fine..
go in bilik ketua..
feeling kinda frustrated..
den c sum data..
abt everything..
discovered sum pics..
quite cute de..

den bek home..
play game..
den tuition..
haiz..
at least u talked to me..
means im nt involved..

den go eat dinner..
saw jeeseng..
at 1st saw from bek..
bt more n more familiar..
end up rly is..
da meal nt bad..

den bek home..
ntg much..

i dunno wad will happen next..
n i dunno wad post i'll gt..
bt..
i wad oso dunno de la..
i rly dunno!!!
wad i wan actually..
wad??
can sum1 lead me..

form 3s..
1 more week..
till u guys big day..
JIAYOU!!
(if nt wrong.. only 1 F3 can read my blog..)
haha..
oso jiayou la!!!

103rd day of waiting

103rd day of waiting..Thur
morning go skul..
ntg much..
assist xh agn..

den bek bilik pengawas..
ponteng bm class..
discuss annual dinner de things..
den..
bio den go lab lo..
after dat pj ply ping pong..
haha..
play for fun de..
dun so serious..
haha..

den recess..
mission consider accomplished..
den ntg much..

after recess bek class..
go library..
noisy..
saw a cockroach..
haha..

den math no teac..
play police & killer..
took police many times..
bt seldom gt killer..
2 times only..
1st time..
kill da police den lose jor..
den 2nd time..
teac wan us go back own seat..
cant play jor..
ish..
nande..

den after skul..
go bilik pengawas..
interview khai chuen..
haiz..
i tried my bez to help..
bt..
hard to make ppl satisfy..
hope u can la..
after dat dey gt a lil meeting v afternoon session..
many bushuang de things din say la..
since dun wan interrupt deir 'system' 1st..
next year if dey do da same thing den dey will noe..

den bek home..
sleep..
tuition damn sleepy..
when wan go up stairs..
let a stupid boy step dou..
ish..
i baru wake..
no mood yet..
ish!!
den while w8ing in class..
den saw many kids..
rly rly fan de..

den ntg much,,
w8 till end jor..
mom call..
telling me wher she parked..
bt giv wrong direction..
haha..

den go eat..
da cheese baked rice nt bad..
bt hor..
rly no luck v lil kids..
jux now let a kid step on me jor..
while eating dat time..
12nd thing happened..
suddenly i felt sumthin hit me..
on my back..
den i look bek..
da lil girl from next table sitting beside me..
den i noe she 'accidentally' hit me v da menu..
kinda hurt..
den i stared at her..
not even apologizing..
fine..
continue eating..
if 1 more time den i will scold de..
since kinda bad tempered..

den bek home watch amazing race asia..
hehez..
den ntg much..

i dunno wad i wan from u..
u to be happy??
bt sumtimes i fantasizes me holding ur hand.
sitting beside u..
will dis ever happen??

102nd day of waiting

102nd day of waiting..Wed
ntg much in the morning..
weii's turn to go up stage..

den go up class..
moral gt hw..@@
den chem no teac yet..
den math pn noran came in..
quite 'cute' xia..==
i put d duster dere..
she rly put bek..
dunno is coincidence or wad..
i put so high..
she still wan put bek same place de..

den bm ntg..
recess..
den my 'mission' started..
considered accomplished..

den bi..
ntg much..
bio oso..
bt teac say thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

den go bek home..
on da way bek..
as a companion..
im satisfy enuf..

even though i rly hope dat i can..
bt seeing u smile is worth..

bek home..
parents went genting..
since wanna send bro dere..
so home alone for whole day..

no tuition no ntg..
whole day passed boringly..
dis is da worst mid-autumn festival ever..
ppl say 2day shud be together v family or frenz..
bt me??
alone..
frenz??
bz..

funny thing is..
i wrote a status..
after i fed da cats..
i saw da moon..
den i wrote da status after havin inspiration..
bt cant bliv sum1 copied it..
n post as his status oso..
is a funny thing to 2 same status 'side-by-side'..
bt im proud..
dat my words r appreciated..

at nite..
i took bek out my kh books..
for sum reason..
dunno can help anot..
hope can la..
2molo 2nd mission agn~



2day..
we chatted..
as expected..
ur reply will be dat..
bt i insisted in asking..
cuz i rly hope i can gt a chance from u..
bt..
in ur heart..
u only lik him..

y 2 who lik each other..
dun wanna be together??
yes..
i dun rly lik it..
bt..
as long as u're happy..
i hav no choice..

一支笔没墨了就是没墨了··
再怎样勉强写下去··
只会写破那张纸··
倒不如丢掉··
买一支新的··
但是有时却不舍得···
矛盾···

dis is my 2nd status..
inspiration when i throwing away my blue pens..
dey hav no ink left..
hw i rite..
hw i force..
oso won work well..
if i use more energy..
all it will happen is da paper will be spoiled..
is lik our love..
u dun hav love towards me anymore..
no matter hw i force..
ntg will come out in a gud way..
however..
it will only worsen things up..
y dont jux 4gt abt it???
bt da main prob is..

CAN I??

2nite has been a rly rly sad nite..
i dunno wad to do..
i dunno hw to deal with it..
i dunno who to talk to..

perhaps..
i'm rly 'invisible'..
i live 'alone'..

101st day of waiting

101st day of waiting..Tue
2day..
went to skul extraordinarily early..

den assist xh up da stage..
from wad i can c..
he is indeed doing a better job..
1 voice..
den every1 silent..
for me..
dis seldom happen..

dis is another step down..

den in prefect's room..
dey wan arrange da place for da next persaraan..
so jux stood dere..

den went bek class..
ntg to do much...
recess..
ntg much oso..
bek to class..
no teac..
dey say wushu gt performance..
den since no routine..
no ppl..
no time..
so jux cancel..

den go bek class...
read newspaper..
den sleep..
when i woke up..
cramp..
den rly cant move..
took me minutes to recover..

even im physically recovered..
mentally..
im nt..
when i c u guys together..
my heart started to hurt..
u guys..
playin happily..
u guys r meant for each other..
a princess always belong to the prince..
nt a beggar from the streets..
im nt ur knight in shining armor all along..
i once thought i was..
bt..
fate..

when i c u guys..
my heart..
cant stop feeling sourish..
bt..
all i can do is..
SMILE..
fake 1..
at least ppl wun ask so much..
bt da harder i smile..
da worse my heart feels..
im afraid tears might come out..

shud i rly giv up..
most importantly..
can i giv up??
m i able to do dat??

as for da post..
yea..
is jux a post la..
no big deal rite..??
wrong!!
to me..
is nt jux a post..
without it..
im jux a nobody agn..
wher no1 will notice me at all..
no1 will recognize me at all..

now is either i hav dis post or ntg..
cuz i hav no experience in any other things..
bt i noe..
he has a higher advantage than me..
n i noe he wud be chosen with a higher rate..

i rly dunno how..
hw can anything help me??
i wanna be free!!

100th day of waiting

100th day of waiting..Mon
go to skul den prepare for assembly..
haiz..
sook fen keep saying wrong..
even i din say..
bt maybe dis is da la time for me on stage..
shud appreciate it..
rmb da moments..

den kailin told me..
2molo nid let xh go up stage jor..
as expected..

den jux go bek class..
everything as usual..
recess..
den bek to class..
den ntg much oso..
jux bored..

tuition..
ntg much too..
bek home no appetite..
jux eat rice + beans..
@@

da 100th day..
i rly wanna tell u..
when we're alone..
u jux looked away..
as if ignoring me..
den suddenly u looked here..
n tell me abt ur hw..
bt too bad..
soon dad arrived..
i cant say it..
den jux go back..
i noe ur phone no more credit..
bt dunno y i jux wanna sms u..
dat msg..
i dunno will i regret..
bt u din reply me..

den jux do my moral tugasan harian..
haiz..
very hard to do..
do until 2 o'clock..

97th, 98th, 99th day of waiting

97th day of waiting..Fri
ntg much happened..
jux woke up late..
on9..
den tuition..
haha..
me n cheecheng let ken gonna explode soon..
bt rly ma..
logically i dun understand..
theoretically i und..
bt..
haiz..
rly luan..
i hate shapes now..

den ntg much..

98th dy of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
go for wushu..
quite happy quite nice~

den organ practice..
wow..
more n more weird songs..

den bio..
hehez..
jux luv it~!!

den come bek..
prepare for dinner..
since my neighbourhood gt celebration..
for mid-autumn festival n hari raya de..
kinda nice..
gt 1 question..
who is da 1st khalifah..
omg..
i rmbed!!
bt sms yan for confirmation..
den did it..
i was rite..
bt..
din choose dou me..
choose dou other lucky ppl..
bt both oo chinese..
haha..
weird..

ntg much..
din go to da bbq..
since i promised to attend da dinner..
haiz..
nvm..
w8 for next time i guess..

99th day of waiting..
late wake up..
den go tuition..
ntg much..
~war started~

den jux go home n rush hw..
haiz..
argh!
crazy de..
physics rly dunno wad it says..
da stupid light..
den moral..
so many tugasan harian..
dunno hw to rite..
bt all due by tuesday..
so..
muz rush 2molo..
4 more tugasan harian!!
jiayou jiayou!!

so sudden..
2molo 100th day..
skkul reopen..
wad will happen??
will da result come out???
will it be my laz day of.....

anxious....