18th day of waiting..

18th day of waiting..Wed
ntg much happened..
jux..
morning woke up..
no appetite..
half a packet of noodles din finiz..

de went school..
at 1st no mood..
do wad i usually do..
den slowly began to hav mood..
cuz did da chemistry experiment..
electrlysis..
gt magnesium ribbon agn..
haha..
kinda fun~
n happy..
den bek to class..
relief teac agn..
haiz..
den bi..
ntg..
bio..
jux funny..
den we do quiz..
all in malay..
==
how m i suppose to noe..@@
simply do..
den kinda high playing with dem..
bully my new pet~
Chan Yi Hui..
haha..

den bek home..
do ntg..
sleep..
lazyness~

2day a..
muz wish yang yang HAPPY BIRTHDAY oo!!
now become 16 year old de goat jor..
muz be more mature oo!!

n oso wish my parents happy anniversary~

den 1-7..
wish alson n kenneth chong..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

2day's post is kinda bored n lame..
cuz ntg happened..

when i look back at dose msg u sent me..
n da pic of 2 of us..
tears jux drop vigorously..
i nid u..

17th day of waiting.,

17th day of waiting..Tue
saddest day of waiting..
many things happened..

2day..
went school..
punctually..
den saw sailou oso..
wad a coincidence..

yesterday's mood is still in my heart..
bt i continued my life..
went up da stage..
for da 1st time..
ask dem to keep quiet..
which is a hard thing..
den read out my 1st pengumuman..
since is my 1st time..
i dunno how..
den Pn. Norli say..
muz let them quiet 1st only read..
(gain 1 more knowledge)
bt da prob is..
i cant make dem keep quiet..
so i rly dunno how,,
so let teac take over..
bt indeed is a good experience..

den continued..
1st 5 periods..
rly din study at all..
BM no come..
BC no come..
SJ no come..
wow..

bt..
in sejarah room..
i finally did wad i wanted to do..
for years..
even though da results r da same..
bt at least..
i talk to u..
face to face..
about our matter..
bt..
in da crowd..
i did it..
bt i dun think any1 noticed..
after i knew ur answer..
i dunno wad to say anymore..
all i can do is silent..
n stare at my book..
thinking.
dried tears dripping..
having da urge to cry..
bt..
jux ntg..
so kept on..
doing wad im suppose to do..
den..

recess..
saw pn lee..
st mary skul gt gathering..
invite us..
bt clashes with our skul carnival..
dunno how now..
still deciding..

pm..
wrote a few pantun..
weird ones..

Pak Lah menunggang kudanya,
pergi ke Penang makan laksa;
Pembuangan sampah merata-rata,
Tercemarnya alam negara kita.

Ingin pergi tengok wayang,
Malangnya hujan turun lebat;
Sumber hutan semakin kurang,
Peliharakannya sebelum terlambat.

my pantun-s..
lame..

den physic..
we do da eureka experiment..
Archimedes' principle if nt mistaken..
den we go find stone..
nice..
everytime physic oso can go out play de..
laz time go measure things..
now go pick up stone..
den do lo..
bt feel sry..
all i keep doing..
din giv dou kk & shi wei do..
so laz 1 let them do..
den do 1 extra de..
extra large size~
lame..

den go bek..
meet dou sailou agn..
in dat few minutes..
told him wad happened..

we rly gt destiny with da gate..
everytime oso meet dere..
zd..

den..
go home..
sleep..
den wake up..
very tired..
woke up a while..
den rmb wad happened agn..
haiz..
woke up v disappointment agn..

den go tuition..
dis time add math teacher absent..
yesterday mr.moi..
now him..
heard dat he caught in an accident..
bt nt sure how..
den do add math exercise..
jux do do do..
din say a single word in da 1 n a half hour..
jux keep on doing..

den bek..
msn agn..
den..
chat..
told him my deepest darkest secret..
now feel alil embarrassed..
...
dunno how now..

den sms..
da results..
still da same..
by dat time..
tears..
going to fall..
bt..
luckily..
sailou is dere to comfort me..
bt..

i rly cant take it..
im sick of it..
haiz..
flashbacks!
stop striking me!!
will da memories between u n me..
jux fade away dis easily??

y..

den jux now..
catherine found me..
told me dat Teacher Square..
unfortunately has passed away today..
so sad when i heard dat..
TT
such a tragedy..
to me..
u r a funny geography teacher..
rly..
haiz..
R.I.P.
...

14th, 15th & 16th day of waiting..

14th day of waiting.. sat
ntg much..
early in da morning..
prepare for wushu..
den suddenly..
stomach ache..
@@
1 week jor..
so absent..

den went for organ class..
teac keep telling bout my future studies..
chat till 3.15..
wow!! my class shud end at 2.30..
imagine dat..
den rush to bio tuition..
luckily managed to reach..
nt late~

den after dat went for dinner..
Sg. Buloh~

den bek jor mahjong agn..
ntg much for da whole day la..

15th day of waiting.. Sun
din make it for jogging n tuition..
cuz gt lunch for da association..
in rawang..
nt bad..
kinda bored..
bt suddenly receive dou msg..
say dat he's at my hse area..
den i sms v sailou to relief boredom~

den da harmonica performance..
terribl...LY YENG!!
so long..
wow..

den bek jor..
very tired..

den sudenly jn told me..
xh told me i will be at sy's..
@@
all i noe is..
im shocked~~
den nvm..
den do 3 animal data..
den sleep..

16th day of waiting..Mon
early in da morning..
ntg much..
jux feel lik vomiting..
i only noe..
he kept smiling/laughing sneakily..
ish..
i scold ppl sila senyap..
he go n laugh dere..
zd..
say nvr c me so serious..
==
next time u will c dou de la..
haha

den go bek class..
noe jor result..
i no.4..
bt dis time follow grade..
bt if din..
most probably..
no.4..(v/out PJ,PSK)

den nt rly in mood..

so..
recess over..
stomach is still so bad..
keep gt vomiting feel..
den c jor some marmite pork..
omg..
is either too fatty or too skinny..
nt 1 moderate de..
i think only sum ppl noe wad i mean^^

den lagi worse jor da feeling..
XP

Bm..
no teac..
so went to talk..

rly feel lik saying to u when we were alone..
or maybe another way..
bt u din giv me dat chance for da 2nd plan..
n i dun dare to say it out..
so..
wrote something somewhere..
bt i dun think u will be able to c it..
is da matter of fate..
i wont mention it to u where..
let fate decide..
i noe dat we dun hav any chance anymore..
bt..
y..
y shud i keep thinking abt it..
den my mood..
haiz..
jux hate it when i c..
...

go hav lunch..
at kepong area..
saw weii's car..
222
den saw a police..
dunno doing wad..
dad say is sum1 who is having da intention to rob..
bt let them caught..
den dey ran..
dunno la..

den nap..
woke up..
chat alil..
den rush to tuition..
den say Mr. moi no come..
so do math questions..
den..
din sms dou..
bt time flies..
suddenly 7.30..
as usual change sitting spot..
den..
...
everytime..
it muz happen..
i cant be happy..

so change class..
den sat dere..
cant stand it..
w8 till 9..
ask cheecheng can sit beside her anot..
den go lo..
den reach..
suddenly feel lik sitting behind..
so sit behind alone..
sry ya..
left u alone too..

all i did during dat time..
is wondering around..
thinking of lots of things..
hate it..
my heart..
rly hurting by then..
y..
argh!!
end jor..
bek home..
on9..
find sailou..
chat..
say out everything which i hate..
thx ya..
at least i feel better..

u promised liao de a..
after PMR i w8 u..

12th, 13th day of waiting..

12th day of waiting..Thur
is a normal day..
a day with jealousy n sadness..
dunno is sadness or happiness..
~~~
bio..
teac let us saw da vids of mother giving birth..
it was an total OMG moment..
every1 is lik wow..
wooo..
aww!!
ewww~
den ask dem next time wan "ikut pintu or tingkap"..
luckily i wasnt dat sick..
or else i wud be vomiting already..
bt..
after watching it..
hav da urge already..
==
den went for PJ..
jux play 1 round..
for fun~
den jux walked around n chatted v cy..
long time no chat jor..
haha

den recess..
BI..
went to library..
den finally paper 1 results..
149/160 for both papers..
caleb gt 150/160..
omg..
den convert to 100%
mine 93.125..
his 93.75..
so he gt 94..
i gt 93..
all cuz of 1 mark..
he gt no.1 in BI..
TT
bt i lose in a happy way..
cuz i seldom read..
bt he does..
is normal for him to be better..
jux..
a lil disappointed..
bt is ok..
den continue my day..
somehow..
kinda lonesome..
n feel dat my life has become dull agn..
i think...
haiz..

bek home..
after bath..
den start to copy files to pendrive for him..
due to my CPU is 'under construction'..
da file i've prepared in dere is gone..
den i hav to use my laptop file..
to modify agn..
den move here move dere..
check here check dere..
den on my bro's com oso 2 check..
susah betul..
tapi nvm..
time flie when u're bz..
suddenly no time jor..
so only slept for a while..
@@
den go tuition

den mr.SaiMun knew i gt highest in physics..
^^
bt kinda weird to take it..
feeling lik it shudn't belong to me..
haiz..
dunno wad im thinking anyway..
jux do wad nature asks..

den i was actually shocked when i saw dat essay..
indeed i was kinda touched..
even though dere r some fiction stories abt me..
bt..
i rly appreciate it..
thx..
YES.. u noe im talking abt u..^^

13th day of waiting..Fri
sejarah was..
haiz..
sad..
cuz my result..
65 only..
actually dey calculated wrongly..
dey counted till 66..
==
den nvm..
1 mark..
den i saw y suzie's answer same with mine bt she was correct..
so i ask teac..
den teac say 1 can 1 cannot..
den end up suzie minus 1 mark..
den nvm..
i add jor 1 mark...
add in total..
oso 65..
damn!!
add jor = no add..
bt made suzie lose 1 mark..
haiz..
bt dis time de total marks..
i lose to them A LOT!!
i dun think i can manage to reach top 5 anymore..
maybe nt even 10..
haiz..
let god do wad it wanna do..

addmath class kinda funny..
bt ntg much..
bt nt as funny as physics..
cik zulaili very funny..
keep saying stories..
bt in a funny way..
even she's teaching seriously..
bt i feel funny..
den laz 5 minutes..
teacher opened a slide show of cats..
so cute!!
(some la)
den she said many jokes oso..
haha..
physics kinda fun...

den after skul..
stay back..
kinda bored..
since ntg much to do..
sitting around..
walking around..
alone~
maybe gt ppl..
bt i jux cant mix into deir conversation..

m i being too friendly??
until nobody pays respect to me anymore..
to them..
im more lik a fren..
perhaps is a gud thing..
bt is nt when next year arrives..
shud i change..?

indeed i started to put down a lot of things..
such as da stapler thingy..
ya..
is jux a stapler..
bt all i care is ethics..
fine..
jux let it be..
at least i did wad i promised..
to let my hatred towards others leave me..

bt dere r 2 things that i cant put down..
1st is...
2nd is...
if u truly understand me..
u might noe..

r u here to fill my heart with colours??
or miseries??
somehow i jux feel annoyed by it..
everytime..
same thing happens over n over agn..
y cant it jux end..
it might..
perhaps years later..
decades or centuries..

Jealousy
Anger
Sadness
Miseries
Ignorance
Negligence
Envy

dey will all be kept in my heart..
i cant show it out..
even though i wanna tell..
i cant..
is a kind of suffer to do dat..
i wish i can leave dese miseries..
A.S.A.P.
haiz..

Life Brief Candle..

11th day of waiting

11th day of waiting..Wed
2day..
as usual..
went to school..
damn uncomfortable..
den go stage dere prepare..
den all i can say is sila masuk barisan..
den let teac call to go do things..
damn..
everytime spoil my moment..
bt i learned sumthin..
dis job aint as easy as it looks..
u must noe how to change from time to time..
kailin did it very well..
im afraid i cant do it..
den is teacher's photo session..
prefects were asked to go duty..
so far still ok..
jux used a friendly way to communicate v dem..
(i think)
den..
walk here n dere..
up n down..
haiz..
feeling more sick..
keep feel lik vomiting..
omg..
da urge..
d@mn..
bt dis time duty..
im satisfy..

den go bek class den do things as usual..
erm..
boring~
no new results..
bt gt 1 more ceramah..
about teeth..
haiz..
da students..
keep making noise..
i dun hav da energy to stand up oso..
den..
nobody helped to ask them keep quiet..
only a few..
bt jux dese few cant do anything..
haiz..
feel embarassed with dis kind of attitude..
SMK SB..
haiz..

den..
recess~
eat..
den flashbacks came into my mind..
sick of it..
ish..
still feel lik vomiting..
bt better la..
den carmen n yj came..
dey asked a question..
i dunno how answer oso..
so jux..
react dunno~
seriously..
dunno wad to do..
bt..
...
humans r unpredictable..
even me myself..

time is moving slower n slower..
when will everything be over..
...

9th,10th day of waiting..

9th day of waiting..monday
school reopen..
overall..
for me is a normal day..
bt my stomach starts to hurt..
i think i'll hav gastric..
early in the morning..
kailin asked me go up stage to ikrar..
omg..
my stomach not well jor..
now still wan nervous..
i feel lik vomiting when im nervous..
bt at last..
still managable..
only my 'disiplin' din com out rite..
tongue nt so active..

my exam results..
gt gud gt bad..

den during tuition..
suddenly receive a sms..
from sailou..
den we sms jor for hours..
den teacher call me go in front do da thing..
AGN..
laz laz week oso same bcuz i oso sms..
den dis time..
agn..
is either he call me u cuz i sms..
or da different way..
TT
bt nvm la..
sacrifice a lil..

sailou..
dun think so much le ba..
life isnt as perfect as u think..
we will face a lot of obstacles..
dat's da hard part in life..
jiayou oo.
I'll support u..


10th day of waiting..Tue
2day..
life as normal..
a lil gastric pain..
bt managable..
den assembly..
bored..
den saw sailou moody..
haiz..

den..
went up class..
noe results..
go sj..
she seemed different..
bt paper haven finiz marking..

den go ceramah..
bt form 3 used too much time..
so we recess 1st..
den form 3 oso recess..
so intended to find sailou..
walking walking walking..
found dou jor..
bt he's playin v his frenz..
so fine..
at least he's bek in mood..
so jux continue my journey..
to go nowhere..
walking alone..
thinking of things..
my problems..
dunno how to handle..
wad to do..
so..
jux walked away..
alone..
thinking..

(hate da word 'complement')

it has been a while since i did dat..
ever since im a prefect..
whenever dere's duty..
i dun feel so alone..
as im alone..
all i can think is..
life is harsh..
nt everything are as it seems..
...

den went for da ceramah..
da speaker is kinda hilarious..
bt da way of speaking was unexpected..
nt wad i've expected i guess..
kinda funny la..
bt in a rush..
wad i learned is..
i dunno..
perhaps laughter??

den went bek for class..
haiz..
ntg much..
jux results..
physics..
haiz n wow..
agn results..

slept..
tuition..
read da book agn..
rite blog..
dis is 2dy..

results:
BM-61
PM-65
Chem-80
A.M-97
MA-99
PSK-91
BIO-89
PHY-91

terribly satisfy with my bio n phy..
at least gt highest..
bt..
Bm n Pm..
terrible..
rly shit lo..
1 sub can lose ppl 20 marks..
how chase bek oo..
TT

sumhow..
feel moody..
mybe cuz of sum different factors..
haiz..
life is indeed unfair..
yes..
u arrived 1st..
bt it doesnt mean dat u gt it..
y is life dis unfair..
y..

sailou..
dun sad anymore!!
as u said..
STAND UP!!
GROW!!
i will be by ur side if u nid..
cheer up!!^^

5th,6th,7th,8th day of waiting..

5th day of waiting...Thurs
early in the morning..
went to xh hse 2 do research..
for sivik project..
den we almost copy most from da text book..
cuz no idea wad to do..

den we dunno wad to do..
den suggested to go to zoo..
den we dunno wad to do jor..
so we play cho dai di..
==
den when playing..
only finiz shuffle..
my dad came jor..
not even a call..
aiyo..
my cards..
i saw dai di..
den..
bek lo..
i asked bek dem..
dey say i gt three 2s..
den many nice cards..
haiz..
nvm..
dad fetch me jor den go "The Ship"..
with grandpa n grandma..
haha..
had lunch..
5 ppl..
RM100++
mother's day 4 ppl..
RM200++
haha..

late wishes agn from:
Auntie Felicia^^

6th day of waiting..Fri
as scheduled..
went to the ZOO!!
haha..
with
sy
xh
sw
jy
mh
ch

saw alot of animals..
cute~
happy^^
haha
lik a kid..
bt fun la..
cuz with them..
cant believe la..
prepare jor so long go genting..
end up mh din go..
dis 1 last minute gathering..
all turned up..
cute..
bt hor..
suzie n mama lagi cute lo..
at oldtown..
i reached xh's hse..
den dey haven reach..
intend to go fetch dem..
dey say no nid..
den w8ed for 30 minutes..
den end uo come jor..
we oso passed by oldtown..
funny..

jux had fun~~
yay^^
bt pic hard to upload..
keep fail..
nt even a pic..

at home..
had a surprised oso..
sailou..
thx ya..

7th day of waiting..Sat
morning go clinic..
gt da medical report..
nt as i wished..
dunno wad is it called..
nvm..
nt serious..
suspected only..
den high urea acid..
bt cholestrol normal..
^^
haha..
other than dat..
others perfect..
except for my blood..
TT
in a way..
im still healthy..
i think..

den went for wushu..
dat 3 gals very funny..
wan to use chinese idioms when dey r talking..
weird..

den around 11.30am..
coach n renze left..
da class is under my control..
wow..
1st time..
means i no nid do much..
bt nt fair to them..
so i kinda let them off a lil..
bt dey seem to nt care abt it..
rly dunno how to do..
fine..
jux once..

den organ practise..
heard ppl playing bad romance..
nice~
feel lik learning..
bt nid find da score..

nite went sin choi wah..
da kangkung very funny..
da stem terribly huge..

den i knew sumthin..
i rly dunno wad to do..
i've done everything i can..
n all i gt is..
y..
y..
i rly dunno..

8th day of waiting..Sun
early in the morning..
went to park..
den bek around 10..
slept..
den tuition..
den went suzie hse..
after completing project..
except for hasil..
played cho dai di agn..
den suddenly..
it reminds me of da piano dey had..
den i asked..
den we went beside to play it..
fun~
den went bek..
ntg much jor..
end of day..
2molo going bek to skul agn..
wish me luck...^^