110th day of waiting

110th day of waiting..Thur
2day morning..
rained heavily..
den tidy up da bilik pengawas b4 going bek to class..
once reached..
wow..
a new relief teac..
keep walking here n dere..
den at least still gt giv reaction when i bow..
smile sikit tak blh ke??
den suan..
do math..
den lekkhong ask me bout lines n planes..
try 2 explain lo..
class getting noisier..
den start chaos jor..
den teac scold..
ask us go bek own place..
den kept mumbling..
den scold yh n lekkhong..
haiz..
cannot say she is a bad teac..
she is doing da right thing..
bt sumhow..
things jux doesn't seem right..
perhaps immature thinking??
nvm..

den bio..
go lab..
very very faz..
dose who usually dun come reached da earliest..
e.g. weiyang..
cuz gonna dissect frog!
haha..
1st time in my life..
luv it..
ppl say our group is cruel..
cuz every organ oso take out..
bt i think we shud do dat..
let da frog die worthily..
den keep n tidy up lo..
rly excited, happy with dis exp...

den jux pj..
played a round..
den find mrs.lee..
den chat till after recess..
continue chat..
den do things..
go here n dere..
very bz xia..
den at bilik guru..
teac ask me move da table..
den cik zalina said many weird things..
u very handsome..
n in 3 years..
all girls will come stick to u..
den i was lik "wad???"
seriously??
i had a "wad??" appearance by dat time..

den ntg much..
jux walk up n down..
almost no in class..
den go bilik pengawas ask for name list..
den gt 1 normal student..
walk in in front of us..
den i purposely knock da door jor..
no choi me..
den suan..
he saw us..
wan leave jor..
den sook fen stopped him..
den scold him@@
fine..
i jux do wad im dere for..
2 take da list..

den went bek class..
dey wan take class pic..
take jor den bek to chaos~

den bek home..
upload pic..
sleep..
den tuition..

den bek home..
dinner..
den start to fan..
abt annual dinner..

1stly..
2molo's meeting is for da ketua biro only..
i din ask others to come..
jux wanna discuss sumthin for next year..
which HAVEN'T approve yet!!
jux nid some idea..
n is a faz meeting..
so din call so many ppl..

2ndly..
im rly tired of it..
y everytime come out..
i hav to plan..
i hav to call 1 by 1..
ask dis n dat..
den giv me dose dunno wad answer..
den dis say dunno..
dat say wad oso can..
den when i set a time..
dis say cant..
dat tell me bz..
den tell me when r all of u guys free!!!
i rly dunnon hw plan..

3rdly..
is troublesome enuf v it..
n now..
1 more to come..
i rly dunno hw to handle dis thing..
i dun wanna hurt ppl's feeling..
bt by doing wad im doing dese days..
i think i hurted a lot of ppl..
bt da truth is..
i rly cant care much..
is a prob enuf for me to handle with so few ppl..
now wan summore??

yea..
indeed i admit im a lil bit wrong..
bt u cant blame me for all dat..
cuz in ur mind..
u only trust her!
hav u ever find me via sms or msn??
no!
den hw u expect me to think of u whenever i plan sumthin??
u nvr even do dat to me..
in ur mind only hav her..
even though u noe i lik her!
u still do da same thing..
yea im jealous..
so wad??
den dis hw u treat me as a fren!
so y shud i bother!

!!stop pissing me off!!

109th day of waiting

109th day of waiting..Wed
morning..
went skul den try to prepare for assembly + persaraan..
many things as usual lik monday..
den start persaraan..
quite fast de..
den im da head prefect now..
dunno i can do a gud job anot..
cuz keep dunno y gt prob saying in front of public 2day..

den ntg much..
chemistry..
since no real teac teaching..
so went bio lab n see dedikasi de dissect frog..
damn cute!
den sy very 'wolf' de lo..
pull pull pull..
den recess..
sumthin sumhow spoilt my mood for da whole day..
so jux 'slept' dere..
actually i jux wanna hide myself from reality..

den duty..
and so on..
bek..
do english..
den bio..
ntg much..
teac teaching dat time.
rly getting tired..
den i lay down on table..
eyes on da screen..
bt slowly closing..
haha..
yan n hui oso..
wan sleep jor..
bt hui very obvious lo..
so no giv face meh..
haha..
den hsien come jor..
nt so sleepy jor..
haha..
den ntg much..
went out for lunch..
eat pasta..
nt rly satisfy..
even dou da taste nt bad..
bt 1st..
duno y took so long..
since we ordered 1st...
bt..
den 2nd is..
i dun lik tomato sauce..

den bek skul..
prepare for dance..
did a lil dis n dat..
den mh seems rather excited after noe-ing wad we gonna dance..
since she was nt rly wanting to dance at 1st..
bt now dunno hw she feels..
hope everything will be alright..

den bek home..
jux nap..
den wake up..
eat..

den open my chinese essay book..
thinking of how to rite..
wanna pass up 2molo jor..
den 1 or 2 hours jor..
only wrote da title..
@@

finally finiz..
half a page only..
4 paragraph..
505 words..
==
finally!!
argh~!

hope ntg will gt in my way!!
here i come!!

107th, 108th day of waiting

107 day of waiting..Mon
assembly..
tried to prepare..
bt end up..
postponed to wed..
clash with ur persaraan..
so nid to prepare it..
cut short..
so dat wun use too much time..
kinda hard..

omg..
in bilik pengawas..
when wan go bek class..
my bag..
SNAP!
torn jor..
suan..
carry 1 side..

chem no teac agn..
add math teac damn funny de..

den..
recess..
after recess..
went to bilik guru v sy..
found a lot of teac..
walked almost da whole skul v her..
din attend sivik class..
bt as expected..
teac din teach..

den bi..
do paper..
ish..
den dat yenji hor..
wad oso dun play..
play v my loooong ruler..
den SNAP! agn..
torn a lil..
ish!!

sleep a while after doing..
den sy woke me up..
ask wan find pn lee anot..
since is laz period n bm teac din come..
so went lo..
den rush bek..

bek home dat time..
heard jor many things dat is nt so happy for me..

bek home after tuition den sew bag lo..

very unlucky 2day..
1st..
bag torn..

2nd..
my left hand keep hitting things..
till now still hurt..

3rd..
ruler break jor..

4th..
heard da kittens all died..
haiz..
T.T

5th..
sumthin dat i cant n wont tell..
bt is troubling me..
argh~!

rly rly rly unlucky..
dunno shud happy or sad..
happy can......
bt with dese around..
cant happy much la..

108th day of waiting..Tue
morning..
went skul..
den raptai..
roughly..
den go dewan duty as usual lo..
saw da bears..
quite cute~!

den da raquel..
make me speechless..
total OMG..

den no teac til sj..
den do presentation..
nt me..

den recess..

den bek class..
ntg agn..
heard yj n carmen say de things..
rly..
@@

den..
physics..
teac check hw..
den hit dose who din do many..

den skul end..
go out eat..
ate char kuey teow..

den bek skul..
prepare for dance..
den roughly dance..
den choose partner..
lucky draw..
i choose dou 1..
den c..
haha..
sweayan oo~!

den jux sit dere..
dey discuss abt clothes..
den bek home lo..
bek jor..
ntg much..
go tuition..
den do differentiation..
do dou 1..
many cant do de..
finally can do dou de feel rly..
SYOK!
bt gt 1 rly dunno wad it ngap!

den shukoon damn funny de..
suddenly look bek..
say y ur hand so many fur jor de..
den wan touch it..
den he touched..
actually dat was my pencil box..
nt my hand!
my hand was behind da pencil box..
damn funny..

den go hav dinner..
since eat dim sum..
char kuey teow agn!
omg..

den bek home..

im afraid sooner or later will bcum kueyteow-phobic..

den ntg much..
jux chat..

rly hope everything can run smoothly..
bt..
hope wun happen anything dat will crush my dream la..
pls..

105th, 106th day of waiting

105th day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
dunno wan go wushu anot..
cuz late sleep..
den end up go jor..
no regrets..
den do sit-ups n many abs exercise..
tired dao..

den organ..
ntg much..
den bio..
1 thing made laugh lik hell..
hav u ever wonder a pig swimming free style??
haha..
i rly cant imagine..

den bek home..
eat dinner..
den mahjong~
won 3 big rounds..
2nd round still 'dai sei hei'!!
woohoo~
bt no money de..
dun gamble..
haha..
happy jiu hao~~

btw..
pernahkkah anda dengar..
"sudah jatuh ditimpa mahjong"??
haha..
bro caught a mosquito..
den throw on table..
den da mahjong accidentally hit on it..
pitynya..

den ntg much..
sleep~

106th day of waiting..Sun
omg..
start jor..
my abs start paining..
argh..
laugh den pain..
T.T

tuition..
ntg much..
"Damn Brilliant"~
nt bad nt bad..

after tuition..
bek home..
go dinner..
den mom force me go a neighbour de hse..
cuz rumah terbuka..
eat malay food..
haiz..
nt suit me oso..
when i drink a spoon of soup..
dunno y..
mcm ada dejavu..
den kinda wan faint de feel..
weird..
conclusion..
nt my style..
bt da person is very friendly..
n looks a lil lik cikgu aidah..
even da voice oso..
im afraid later rly is..
den c dou her..
omg!!
luckily no..
den sit dere..
dunno w8 wad..
till 9 sumthin..
walk bek home..
refreshingnya~

den on9..
do hw..
ntg much..
mom's colleague gav her a plant..
very nice xia lo~
free den i will take pic jor..

thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

104th day of waiting

104th day of waiting..Fri
morning ntg much..
jux dey queue up at da tarmac agn..
den go bek class..
bored dao..
no teac..
no chair..
den go 4D discuss things v dem...
den time past..
moral time..
went bek class..
den when teac leave..
discuss agn..
dey say wan hav a band..
nt bad nt bad~!

den ntg much..
recess lo..
chat v sum 'juniors'..
abt deir 'sam xi'..
haha..
shhh~
secret~!

den went bek class..
dey take pic..
play xia v dem..
den saw sumthin..
which hurted my heart..
bt i continue my actions n expressions..
dun wanna show a thing..
looking at u is all i can do..

den keep w8ing until bek home lo..
ntg much de..

after dat go bilik pengawas..
do da raptai..
speechless..
shiying..
i und wad u say..
bt..
i oso feel da same way..
jux let it be..

den after end jor.
sumthin happened..
i dun rly noe y..
bt sumhow sum1 is sad..
i did nt noe whether im involved..
bt nt dat i dun care..
is jux dat..
i dun wanna bother u 1st..
since every1 is around u..
n u dun rly nid me too..
n dis oso caused weii n mh to 'cry'..
nt serious..
bt..
haiz..

den u guys went bek..
she went out to eat..
dun feel lik going..
so stay alone at skul..
den while wanna walk away..
da afternoon sessions ppl called me..
in my heart i thought..
dun hav to be alone..
bt i was wrong..
all dey wanna noe is wad happened..
den i was jux sitting dere..
ntg..
all of them only care him..
so if im nt sad..
den nobody will care la??
even i sad oso no1 will care..
fine..
go in bilik ketua..
feeling kinda frustrated..
den c sum data..
abt everything..
discovered sum pics..
quite cute de..

den bek home..
play game..
den tuition..
haiz..
at least u talked to me..
means im nt involved..

den go eat dinner..
saw jeeseng..
at 1st saw from bek..
bt more n more familiar..
end up rly is..
da meal nt bad..

den bek home..
ntg much..

i dunno wad will happen next..
n i dunno wad post i'll gt..
bt..
i wad oso dunno de la..
i rly dunno!!!
wad i wan actually..
wad??
can sum1 lead me..

form 3s..
1 more week..
till u guys big day..
JIAYOU!!
(if nt wrong.. only 1 F3 can read my blog..)
haha..
oso jiayou la!!!

103rd day of waiting

103rd day of waiting..Thur
morning go skul..
ntg much..
assist xh agn..

den bek bilik pengawas..
ponteng bm class..
discuss annual dinner de things..
den..
bio den go lab lo..
after dat pj ply ping pong..
haha..
play for fun de..
dun so serious..
haha..

den recess..
mission consider accomplished..
den ntg much..

after recess bek class..
go library..
noisy..
saw a cockroach..
haha..

den math no teac..
play police & killer..
took police many times..
bt seldom gt killer..
2 times only..
1st time..
kill da police den lose jor..
den 2nd time..
teac wan us go back own seat..
cant play jor..
ish..
nande..

den after skul..
go bilik pengawas..
interview khai chuen..
haiz..
i tried my bez to help..
bt..
hard to make ppl satisfy..
hope u can la..
after dat dey gt a lil meeting v afternoon session..
many bushuang de things din say la..
since dun wan interrupt deir 'system' 1st..
next year if dey do da same thing den dey will noe..

den bek home..
sleep..
tuition damn sleepy..
when wan go up stairs..
let a stupid boy step dou..
ish..
i baru wake..
no mood yet..
ish!!
den while w8ing in class..
den saw many kids..
rly rly fan de..

den ntg much,,
w8 till end jor..
mom call..
telling me wher she parked..
bt giv wrong direction..
haha..

den go eat..
da cheese baked rice nt bad..
bt hor..
rly no luck v lil kids..
jux now let a kid step on me jor..
while eating dat time..
12nd thing happened..
suddenly i felt sumthin hit me..
on my back..
den i look bek..
da lil girl from next table sitting beside me..
den i noe she 'accidentally' hit me v da menu..
kinda hurt..
den i stared at her..
not even apologizing..
fine..
continue eating..
if 1 more time den i will scold de..
since kinda bad tempered..

den bek home watch amazing race asia..
hehez..
den ntg much..

i dunno wad i wan from u..
u to be happy??
bt sumtimes i fantasizes me holding ur hand.
sitting beside u..
will dis ever happen??

102nd day of waiting

102nd day of waiting..Wed
ntg much in the morning..
weii's turn to go up stage..

den go up class..
moral gt hw..@@
den chem no teac yet..
den math pn noran came in..
quite 'cute' xia..==
i put d duster dere..
she rly put bek..
dunno is coincidence or wad..
i put so high..
she still wan put bek same place de..

den bm ntg..
recess..
den my 'mission' started..
considered accomplished..

den bi..
ntg much..
bio oso..
bt teac say thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

den go bek home..
on da way bek..
as a companion..
im satisfy enuf..

even though i rly hope dat i can..
bt seeing u smile is worth..

bek home..
parents went genting..
since wanna send bro dere..
so home alone for whole day..

no tuition no ntg..
whole day passed boringly..
dis is da worst mid-autumn festival ever..
ppl say 2day shud be together v family or frenz..
bt me??
alone..
frenz??
bz..

funny thing is..
i wrote a status..
after i fed da cats..
i saw da moon..
den i wrote da status after havin inspiration..
bt cant bliv sum1 copied it..
n post as his status oso..
is a funny thing to 2 same status 'side-by-side'..
bt im proud..
dat my words r appreciated..

at nite..
i took bek out my kh books..
for sum reason..
dunno can help anot..
hope can la..
2molo 2nd mission agn~



2day..
we chatted..
as expected..
ur reply will be dat..
bt i insisted in asking..
cuz i rly hope i can gt a chance from u..
bt..
in ur heart..
u only lik him..

y 2 who lik each other..
dun wanna be together??
yes..
i dun rly lik it..
bt..
as long as u're happy..
i hav no choice..

一支笔没墨了就是没墨了··
再怎样勉强写下去··
只会写破那张纸··
倒不如丢掉··
买一支新的··
但是有时却不舍得···
矛盾···

dis is my 2nd status..
inspiration when i throwing away my blue pens..
dey hav no ink left..
hw i rite..
hw i force..
oso won work well..
if i use more energy..
all it will happen is da paper will be spoiled..
is lik our love..
u dun hav love towards me anymore..
no matter hw i force..
ntg will come out in a gud way..
however..
it will only worsen things up..
y dont jux 4gt abt it???
bt da main prob is..

CAN I??

2nite has been a rly rly sad nite..
i dunno wad to do..
i dunno hw to deal with it..
i dunno who to talk to..

perhaps..
i'm rly 'invisible'..
i live 'alone'..