27/5 - 30/5

Fri:
school celebrating teachers' day..
do alot of script for da event..
bt who cares..
who noes..
do till late night agn..

went to skul..
bla bla bla..
raining..
lol!!
so many event changed..
bt kinda success it din go wrong..
den prefects gt performance..
it went quite well oso~
so is ok~

dunno y legs damn tired..
as if i sprained my ankle..

after dat celebrate v mrs lee~

den go home sleep..
till very late..
tuition..
organ..
tired..

Sat:
tuition..
den suddenly say tauhan sick..
class cancelled..
sad..
bt damn tired..
go home sleep agn..
den till time jor..
wake up prepare go out..
hav dinner v frenz..
wad a coincidence..
mom hav wedding dinner v colleague..
bro hav dunno wad gathering..
i gt dinner v fren..
leave dad alone saje..
zd..

den reach dere..
nearly jadi da earliest..
even though im oredi late for few minutes..
bt still early..
den dad go buy some pau 1st..
so mh n jy reach dere 1st..
or else i'll be da 1st..
lucky lo..
den go find seat..
w8 for others..
latest 730 only arrive..
GENG!

den eat eat eat..
talk talk talk..
den we change venue..
go to k gallery dere..
dunno wad name la..
sit dere n eat cake..
every1 eat str8 from da cake..
so ugly..
bt 1st time experience..

den around 10..
mom ngam ngam pass by..
so go home..

Sun:
tuition agn..
ken n mark's 5 min rly..
take 30 min de..
zd..

den go home..
sleep agn..
damn..
my time rly upside down..
ppl sleep i awake..
i sleep ppl awake..
den had dinner v grandparents..

den bek home..
chat v form 1 de ppl make me feel so old @@

den suddenly gt a news dat sum1 from our school passed away..
sumhow i feel sad..
even though im nt sure wad is rly da cause of it..
bt it is sad..
it makes me realized..
life is fragile..
we can jux 'go' anytime..
no sign..
no nothing..
i might jux accidentally gt choke to death..
gt knocked by a car..
starve..
thirst..
or even suffocate..
who knows..
bt 1 question lingers in my mind..
who will care if dis happen..
will u??
or u??

Mon:
woke up early agn..
cant sleep agn..
den go hav breakfast v my mom n grandpa..
heard a lot of stories..
actually im abit angry of it..
cuz is so damn unfair..
pity our family..
suffer so much end up having ntg..
bt nvm..
maybe god noes..
at least rite now..
all of us r living happily..

bt for me..
dunno y..
i feel depressed..
i cant rly confirm wad is da main cause..
bt i jux feel..
sad..
i feel lik crying all da time..
bt y..
i rly gt tired of everything..
tears all always around da corner of my eye..
admiration everywhere..

u may say i think too much..
bt i jux cant stop thinking..
y is life so unfair..
y..
perhaps..
dis is nt da place..

i dunno wad to say anymore..
im rly tired...

23/5 - 26/5

Mon:
exam phy 3 n pjk..
ntg much..

Tues:
morning no go school..
go c optician..
cuz dere's sumthn growing on my eye balls..
so horrible..
bt no itch no pain..
dat makes me wonder more..
den ntg much..

cant wear lens for weeks...
haiz..

den is xh bday..
so planned to go to his hse..
for a surprise of cuz..
indeed kinda worked out..

by then i start to think..
i will nvr hav any surprise at all..
no1 noe wher i live..
no1 will meet me on my bday..
so how m i suppose to hav any surprise..
nt on dat day..
i totally admire the others..

Wed:
bek to school..
bz bz bz..
den exam chinese..
crazy..
alot of da passage reminds me of sumthin..

nite...
i start to think a lot..

Thurs:
morning go school very early..
cuz mom nid to be early to her skul..
den nvm..

kinda luan v hari guru stuff..

honestly..
who out there knows how i feel?
which of u actually noe im sad when im smiling..
sumtimes i might act lik happy or sleepy..
bt actually im nt..
i jux wan to giv myself some reason to feel better..
i admire u guys..
totally..

i seriously nid sum1 to talk with..
bt which of u is dere for me..
at least listen to wad i say..
or at least show dat u care..
bt i guess with or without me..
it'll all be da same..

i've been keeping alot of things in my heart..
智者不言···
does it make me clever to keep quiet?
everytime when i heard sumthin..
i would jux act lik im bz..
y??
so dat i can act lik i cant hear it..
to let me feel better..

im acting lik i dun k..
bt u noe..
in my heart..
i do..
i smile bcuz my heart is crushing..
i smile bcuz i dunno wad to do else than dat..

i do not nid a fren dat laugh at me when im sharing sumthin..
i do not nid a fren dat will ignore wad i say..
i do not nid a fren dat doesnt respect me at all..
bcuz it has no difference compared to a stranger..
or probably a passerby might show concern..
so y cant frens do it??

im rly rly rly tired..
i dunno long can i take it any longer..
521..
how i wish it is true...
bt as usual..
it let me down..

如果我真的变了···
也不必好奇···
因为那时真正的我···

15/5 - 22/5

Sun:
ntg much la..
whole nite studying..
experiment for chem n bio..
omg..
so many procedures to rmb..
bt i guess im jux gonna make it up..

Mon:
teachers' day~
lol..
wishin' all teac happy teac' day ya!
including mama~

exams..
experiments..
i was like omg?
chem exp..
i rly din read abt it..
bt luckily i still rmb..
yesh!

den ntg much..
go pejabat..
certify sumthin..
thx pn noraizan oso~
haha..

u will nvr work hard unless da eleventh hour..

Tues:
Wesak day~
so is a holiday..
den afternoon go setapak temple..
raining heavily..
water running down da slope..
we nid to walk up..
da water is as deep as dose in da shallow river..
as if i went to templer park..
my whole feet is submerged into da water..
until my slippers r spoilt..
hav to walk v barefoot..
lol..

den reach da temple..
pray~

den go bek..
muz go home..
wash mua feet..

nite wan study..
so very very late sleep..
+sms v sum1..
omg..
until 4 sumthin only sleep..

Wed:
chemistry..
bla bla bla..
alot of careless mistakes..
bt some i rly din read..
hav to make it up myself agn..

once agn..
study till 4 sumthin..
omg..
sendiri oso beh tahan..

Thurs:
lately oso very early reach school..
cuz damn tired..
very very fast den finiz prepared at home..

2day add math..
memorize every formula~
rmb hw to use dem..
omg..

while doing damn afraid man..
many nt sure how do..
bt simply do la..
at least no blank..
hope i can gt A+..
pls.............

den nite study for physics..
lol..
until 4 sumthin AGN!
im crazy~

Fri:
ntg much..
physics..
very @@
hope i did well..

yes..
mostly all subjects over..
2 more days!

afternoon sleep dao...
da sky fall oso dunno..
nite stilll hav to go for tuition n organ class..
tired..
tuition damn funny..
wore a green t shirt..
nt a wrong choice!
cuz xh n hsien wore yellow..
yan wore red..
so sit together mcm traffic lights!
bt too bad siuhou din wear red..
haiz..
or else gt 2 ei..
haha

Sat:
tuition..
nearly jadi crossroad..
1 white 1 black 1 white den suddenly pop 1 blue..
LOL!

den ntg much..
nite watch gaga's monster ball tour..
omg..
she rly geng lo..
sang n dance non stop..
she said a lot of things which gav me some inspiration..

"Even if the whole world turn their backs on you,
you always have yourself.."

it took me 2 hours to finiz it..
lol..

Sun:
went rawang for sum1's bday lunch..
y everytime we r so punctual..
n we live da furthest!
den saw a lot of relative who took care of me when i was young..
damn miss dem..
deir son n daughter all grown up jor..
haha..
gt 1 baby damn cute la wei..
eyes big big..
rly wanna hug him!
haha!

ate a lot..
full full~

den bek home..
sleep @@

lately rly mcm pig..
sleep sleep sleep..
haha..


now i realized..
i hav no1 to talk to when im facing anything..
honestly..
i hate it when i gt WEIRD responses..
when im telling..
i rly hope i can hav some advice..
even if it doesn't work..
at least show me dat u care..
bt all i noe is no1 cares..
sry if it hurts any of u..
bt dis is how i feel..
sry abt it..

8/5 - 14/5

Sun:
ntg much..

Mon:
yes!
finally gt da prizes for da comp.!
n i finally gt my 1st gold trophy!
nice man~

2day exam english..
paper 1..
wrote da 1st essay..
nt quite a prob..
bt maybe abit too long..
causing my 2nd essay to be short..
lack of time..
2nd section..
omg..
i jux had enuf time to write 1 full page..
shud i be worried??
my handwriting is small..
n i hav quite a lot paragraph..
n quite some words over dere..
end up passing up 1 paper saje..
so is kinda confused whether shud i be confident?
since..
i luv english @@

den paper 2..
abit @@
wad kind of questions r dose..
bt managed to do everything..

so monday is as usual..
ntg much~

Tues:
BM..
a nightmare..
bt acceptable..
paper 1 perpaduan~
USSH!
gt idea ^^

den paper 2..
siao ei........
dunno wad kind of question it asked..
how da sultan wad wad escape from merah silu==!
berundur, berundur n berundur==
how i write==!

Wed:
Math~
PROBABILITY!!!!
omg..
y everytime mcm wan fail on it @@
haiz..

afternoon slept alot..
nite start memorizing moral nilai definition..

Thurs:
quite successful as i can rmb nearly all of dem..
yesh!

bt gt many questions very @@
asking me to giv example..
i noe how read bt dunno hw spell deir names..
dat's da prob..

den bc..
thank god..
i noe hw to write..
another perpaduan..
another 1 piece of paper==
bt bc is normal...
since i used to pass up only 1 piece of paper..
n my marks is still acceptable..
so i dun think is much of a prob..

Fri:
dis is 1 crazy sub..
BIO!!!!
omg..
ask mai dose kind of questions..
hw to ans oo..
TT
dis time rly die lo..
do dou i will keep laugh non stop geh..
laugh of terror!!
@@

1 word to describe..
crazy~

haiz..
damn tired..

even doing paper 1..
feel lik sleeping jor..
bt suan la..
force myself to check 1st..
while checking..
da eyes feel lik closing..
abit dizzy jor..
den look up..
omg..
SHE came in==
standing beside ys..
since he was sleeping..
SHE used a book to hit him..
omg..
make me dare nt sleep jor..
even though im so tired.....

den nite gt organ..
wad oso no prac..
ish!!!
slept too much..

Sat:
omg..
sleep jor so long still tired..

tuition..
lol..
bio new chapter..
many ppl seems excited..
especially da 1 beside me..
hahaha..

y every chap 4 oso reproduction de??
f3 oso lik dat..
i wonder..

1/5 - 7/5

Sun:
Labour day~
hoho~
whole day no nid go anywher..
for once~
my life is free..
den gt da news of da osama person gt killed..
lol~
dunno wad to talk abt it..

Mon:
replacement of labour day..
so rest agn~
lol lol lol..
ntg much..

Tues:
anxious anxious anxious..
competition on da next day..
omg..

went to skul..
as usual..
bla bla bla..

Wed:
our big day finally arrived..
Pertandingan melukis kain rentang peringkat negeri..
omg..
1st time ever participated in peringkat negeri comp.
damn gan jiong..
excited oso..
morning went to SK Taman Melati..
reach dere early..
can choose table ^^
we chose da big 1...
even though size nt big enuf..
bt at least bigger than zon sentul dat 1..

den stomach ache..
damn da chili...
i luv chili..
bt y hav to treat me lik dis!!
TT

den eat med..
hope be better b4 start..
bt nt rly working..
start jor..
keep doing da wordings..
dis time gt ton oso..
do do do..
3 hours jor..
we r close to complete..
bt still gt 1 hour..
so every1 very slow jor..
haha..
still look at scenery..

den finiz~
woohoo..


den go hang..
n w8 for result..
makan nasi..
da ayam goreng nt bad~

den w8 for result..
while w8ing..
dere's a mini barn over dere..
i call it a barn..
cuz dere r chickens, cockerel,
TURKEY!!!
n a white birdie..
dunno wad lai geh..
lik chicken..
bt dunno wad @@

den w8 result..
w8 w8 w8..
damn gan jiong..
den dey ask teac to go dere..
c jor..
OMG!!!
1st!!!
woohoo~~~
getting to 1st prize in jux 2 weeks..
broke my own record!

weee~
damn happy~
den go bek skul for rumah sukan..
gt 3 marks for each category..
quite satisfy..

den i gt da news my group's hse gt a prize..
quite happy for it..
bt too bad i wasn't dere to gt it myself..
bt anyway..
is a gud news..

Thurs:
morning class as usual..
still gt sivik exam..
wow..
abit @@

den collect money from dose who din came for sukantara..
haiz..
susahnya..
thx annie for helping!

den after dat go SK Taman Melati agn..
dis time to participate de closing ceremony..
cuz getting our prize!!

den eating..
da sambal chicken make me feel appetizing..
damn feel lik having KFC~

den i saw a lil girl pass by..
she caught my attention..
y??
SJK(C) CHONG HWA!
da skul badge..
god..
cant bliv i can c ppl from dere..
den i saw da teac from far..
i tot is a new teac..

den i went to da dewan..
dis time..
dey came in agn~
i can look closely..
omg..
my std 1 teac who only taught me for 5 months~!
lol..
den when she passed by..
i quickly ask her..
does she still rmb me.
she looked at my name tag..
den said out my chinese name..
n talked abt an incident dat happened dat time..
an incident dat i'll nvr 4gt..
haha..
damn happy she recognize me..
bt cant talk much..
bt im so happy ^^

den bla bla bla..
take prize!
bt end up..
all da prize oso belong to skul..
cuz only 1..
cant divide..
lets jux hope gt medal or trophy for each of us..

damn happy la 2day~
1st~~~
weehee..

den went for mamak..
ate roti telur bawang n maggi goreng..
hungry man~

den go tuition..
tired..

Fri:
haiz..
going to skul even no exam..
y?
oral!
haiz..
going dere for oral..
missing my tv program..

den omg..
b4 recess..
2 periods..
had physics v 5D..
den b4 going bek home..
another 2 periods of physics..
omg..

den nite..
keep study sj..
still hav to go to organ lesson..
managed to play a lil..
bt tired..

read till around 2/3..

Sat:
skul replacement..
sj..
siao ei..

read read read..
damn tired...
haiz..
paper 2 still gt 5 min..
teac say times up..
every1 oso shock dao~~~~

den ntg much special..