It Has Been A While..

it has been a while..
i dunno how..
ntg is better..
everything is the same..
how could dis happen..
we didn't talk for like..
A WEEK!!
omg..
y...
is da problem dat big??
y cant we like jux forget it??
or maybe..
u guys nvr wan me to be v u guys anymore..

friday le..
hari koko..
wad a relief..
dat i finally dun hav to bother about da wushu performance anymore..
it was an ok performance..
even though i din c my move..
bt at least ren ze's gt every1's applause..

bt..
wad can i still do..
i rly wan dem to my fren again..
y..
5 days oredi..
i saw u..
even though we walk past each other..
face to face..
i was looking at you..
bt u..
jux walk away..
din even bother to c me..
every1 is like dat..
both of u..
da same..
i jux wanna be frens again v u guys..
bt..
im jux afraid to go talk to u guys..

Thursday..
b4 going to da science lab..
i saw u..
standing alone at the corridor..
alone..

i was thinking..

"dis is my chance"

"go up n talk to u"

n den another part of me jux said..

"wad if he still hate u??"

"wad if he dun wan u to go bother him??"

omg..
struggle between CONFLICTS...
so..
sy n xh asked me to go lo..
since dey wan acc. me..
bt i used yj as an excuse..
i asked yj to go..
den while w8ing..
i dunno whether shud i go anot..
den i was standing at da door..
a few foots behind him..
nt far away..
dere u r..
alone..
standing dere..
dunno thinkin about wad..
here in my eyes..

bt i din noe wad to do..
until i saw jy..
standing at da stairs..
so..
i thought..
he might go dere..
den for sure he don need me..
so i ended up going to da lab..
bt for quite a while i din c u..
so i went bek to da class..
hoping to c u alone..
however..
i saw u at da stairs..
so i end up acting i hav stuff to do..
so coincidence annie din bring my science exercise..
so i went back to da class n take it..
why..
why cant the GOD jux giv me a chance..
all i wan is a chance to go talk v him..
n b 2geda lik laz time v him..

dat morning oso..
kailin announce da penolong for ketua's..
bt i was very very shocked..
when i was called da penolong ketua pengawas..
bt i noe is for temporary..
im sure some1 will be better bt i will do my bez..
dere r pros & cons..
sure gt ppl hate me..
bcuz of dis..
how can i please every1..
isit dat hard??
will u hate me bcuz of dis??
pls dont..

2day..
after da hari koko..
i did nt go home..
y??
nt dat i dun wan to go..
i wan to w8 for u 2 go..
so dat i can gt da chance to talk to u..
w8ed for hours..
i stil cant w8 for u to go..
until 11 sumthin..
u finally go home..
i was behind u..
following u..
bt u did nt go home str8 away..
u sat at da bus stop..
so i cont. my journey..
walking home..
walk walk walk..
walk back da paths we've been through together b4..
thinking back da times..
dose happy memories..
thinkin about many things..
until i finally went back home..
i went to da playground n listen to songs..
while swinging..
so..
i rly dunno how..
i wish we can be frens together..
like laz time..
frens..
can we??