12h 34min 56sec 07-08-09

many things happen like usual..
jux wanna update..
since today is kinda a special day..
din rly notice it..
until dis morning..
bt when da clock ticks to dis time..
i was stil w8ing for my teac to collect da exam papers..
so i did nt notice da time TT
once in a lifetime man~
bt at least stil in my memory..

kinda bored..
exam has come..
trail..
bt i dun hav da mood to study..
+ addicted to games..
not at dis time~~

2day chinese paper..
nt hard..
bt nt easy at all..
for me is moderate..
i noe da essay is easy..
bt i jux cant rite it..
so is easy n hard..
(confused~)
bt so coincidence..
many things dat im involve is about..
FRIENDSHIP..
books, movies or wadeva..
bt now 2day's paper..
"I wanna appreciate__________(relationship,friendship,life)"
omg..
friendship again..
maybe dis is wad da god wans to remind me..
appreciate the friendship..
friendship..
den of course..
i choose dis topic..
since i hav things to rite about..
jux afraid dat i gt da wrong contents..
den no marks TT

time has passed..
forgiveness..
ive got it..
bt trust..
did i??
it seems like dere is still a wall between us..
all of us..
i mean among me n u all..
i dunno how to say..
is it u? me? he? or she?
who is da culprit??
no idea..
bt blaming is nt da solution..
wad is??
still figuring it out..
i miss da times..
wher we r close together..
as if buddies or wad so eva..
bt rite now is different..
if i dun find u..
u won find me..
n i ask 1 question..
den u answer 1..
is kinda lik u r still feeling annoyed..
bt at least u still talk to me..
now im at da border line..
is either crossing in da safe zone..
or drop out..

n yes..
im jealous..
jealous dat u can do da things dat i cant??
who wont??
now u r havin wad i wan..
>2 weeks won <2 years..
(fyi,im using a normal tone.. not a scolding tone.. dun be mistaken)
i feel kinda confuse though..
n kinda disappointed..
cuz im not sharing wad u guys hav..
i wan to bt i cant..

as wad i can c..
some ppl r more important..
so is life fair??
maybe..
ya..
i dun hav much other things..
bt so lucky i can pass da exam nicely..
unexpectedly..
so maybe god wanna trade my result v frens..
so which is a better choice..
bt y can dey hav both..
maybe dey r granted v fren..
bt dey worked hard so dey can gt both..

WAD M I TALKIN ABOUT~
even im confuse~

rite now..
im afraid to see ppl being alone..
if is some1 dat i noe..
i will try n go c whether does he/she nids help anot..
bt i dun think dey nid me..
bt a ask can make dem feel better i guess..
as for 'some1'..
i can c dat u r very selfish..
i don quite like da way u handle stuff..
self gt tips den who oso dun tell..
den other ppl's tips u muz gt it..
from another incident..
i can oso c dat..
(speaking of which,im talking bout a gal dat doesnt c my blog,so dun misunderstand)
bt as i promised myself..
dun hate any1..
hating dem jux make myself suffer~
wad my mom say is rite..
ill rmb..


im rly jealous..
jealous jealous jealous..
bt i can do ntg bt try to make things better..
make u happier..
bt i dun think u all nid my help..
fine~
as long as im living..
i will do my best in everything..
especially in pengawas..
i will try my bez to be da penolong..
try..
i might nt gt da chance..
bt i won giv up..

as for da transfering school problem..
i can see difference between me n 'some1'..
when she said she wanna transfer..
ur 1st reaction is ask her to stay..
as for me??
ntg..
ya.. im jealous..
very very..
(bdw, how many jealous had i mention??)
bt ntg..
i will still consider dis matter..
i wan or dun wan??
i dunno yet..

as for chen hsien..
if u see my blog..
i wanna say sry..
sometimes i might hav accidentally ignore u..
bt i was kinda bz dose time..
so im sry..
i cant ask ya to stay oso..
see da matter of luck..

n as for YEN JI!!
if u see my blog..
i wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YA..
even though still gt 40 min until den..
bt early regards~~
present.. hm..
lets w8 n see..
muahaha..
thx for being my fren~~
rly lov ya~

speaking of which..
y m i still jealous when i c u two..
1 year n 5 months dy..
so hard to forget??
or m i jux nt happy dat i cant gt it den u can??
do i??
again..
see da matter of luck..
hope i can jux live my life..
bt i somehow feel a lil weird..
dese days b4 going anywher i oso w8 for 'her'..
dun tell me..is...
omg..
impossible..

conclusion: CHI WING!! IF U C DIS!! IM STILL W8ING FOR UR ANSWER!!

muahaha~ take kz~
especially Carmen..
dun gt sick during exam day.. drink more water..
bt i dun think u can c dis oso~
jux take k~