26/7 - 31/7

Tues:
usual..

Wed:
2day pj..
bt no chance play..
cuz nid help pengawas thingy..
even im nt in charge..
bt is nt gud to let others do everything n i go play rite??

xue hai de laz page is lady gaga..
luv-ed it..
HAIR..
not many ppl heard dat song..
dat's y i luv it..
i hate songs dat lots of ppl like..
i hate wannabes..

Thurs:
another usual day..
bt dis is nt quite usual..
cuz 2day i released a lot of temper..
scolded lots of ppl..
some innocent 1 too..

seriously..
i tried speaking nicely..
trying to motivate..
bt i dun c it working..
to u im jux singing?
y cant u do things better?
all da juniors were dere n u left..
u din even bother to help them..
da 2nd time of my life i've scolded u..
u think i lik it?
u noe how much it hurts inside me??
u think i lik to scold ppl so much?
since talking to u wun work..
da only way i to scold u..
lik it worked laz time..

n some other ppl who was scolded by me..
pls..
when i say stop..
pls stop..
i mean it..
i will not hold back once i cant take it anymore..

n other..
pls dun annoy me when im angry..

n sum other more..
sry..
i was moody by then..

Fri:
dis is quite an interesting day..
a day full of..
weirdness==

morning rain heavily..
susahnya..
plan terpaksa batal..
haiz..
wasted..

den ntg much..
noisy ppl==!

so go bek class..
ntg much..
head abit mcm dizzy..
wan sleep bt cant..

so ntg much..
bt for once..
stomachache..
feeling hungry?
guess so..

recess buy sumthin to eat..

useless..
after recess..
still pain..

tahan..
after school den go bilik pengawas sleep 1st..
rly pain..
m i hungry??
bt nid w8 till 1..
cuz promised ppl..
so went out abt dat time..
dey rly came..
so faz faz go eat..
while eating..
i treat dem sum drinks only ma..
nid so bu shuang spill who glass on table anot oo XD
rly zd lo..
den when eating..
my stomach still aches..
jux finiz da noodles la..
others dun wan eat jor..
kinda unusual..

go bek..
listen to ppl sing with dem..
den suddenly nt feeling well..
end up go vomit==!
after dat start dizzy..
bek home worse..
headache..
end up sleep whole day..

Sat:
ntg much..
dare nt go out..
cuz stomach nt well..
can blow anytime..
evil..

den da urge starts to come agn..
i cant take it no more..
i noe my plan will be ruined once i did it..
bt i hav to..
or else i cant calm my heart from da urge..

Sun:
as predicted..
failed..
look on the bright side?
i dun und..
i dun und everything..

yes im jealous..
im jealous of everything..
y cant i hav wad every1 has..
ppl gt to be together v da 1 dey love..
ppl gt to share deir problems with others..
bt..
wher is my sum1..

when she's in depressed..
every1 asked..
every1 cared..
every1 tried to show concern..
bt when is my turn..
where r da every1?
who is dere to listen..?
to comfort??
all i gt is ignorance..
da kind dat makes u dun wanna speak anymore..
da kind dat makes u to choose to be silent..
all i can say is..
r u dere?
i rly hope for sum1 i can actually talk to..
bt i guess dere r alot of things dat r more important than a person lik me..

agn..
i tot u will be 'da 1'..
once agn im wrong..
y do u hav to care so much till u make me touched??
i was rly touched..
it may nt be concrete..
bt i noe u were working hard on it..
bt then..
i realise..
it was thought agn...
my imaginary 1..

ppl will only appreciate once dey lost sumthin...
as for me??
will ppl rmb my presence?
if im lost??
wad will ppl do?
will ppl care?
or it doesnt bug them at all?
i guess i oredi noe d ans..

16/7 - 25/7

Sat:
ntg special happened..
as usual lo..
abit disappointed though..

Sun:
while tuition..
wad i've waiting finally arrive..
bt it din turn up well..

Mon:
ntg much happened..
jux dat i felt lik a fool..

Tues:
another usual tuesday..
only gt stay bek to prepare for da drama..
kinda funny though..
bt still abit moody @@

Wed:
pj..
kinda fun..
play 2 vs 2..
me, hsien, kk, yan..
keep take turns change partner..
quite fun..
den suddenly dunno y gt lizard on da table..
terribly omg..

bi..
some presentation..
dey kinda funny lo..

den ntg much..

Thurs:
ntg much special happened..
finally..
our group to present Claudia's story..
quite satisfy la.
bt other groups quite funny..

den ntg much..

Fri:
ntg much happened..
went library during eng period..
saw a book..
quite interesting..
abt camouflages..

den stayed bek cuz wan take sumthin from pn tay..
in the end..
w8-ed outside for 30 min==!
i was rly frustrated..
cuz so coincidentally..
i hav no money!
borrowed from sum1 to call dad..
end up voicemail..
argh==!
how long shud i wait..
i rly feel lik walking home..
cuz is frustrating under dat kind of weather..

intend watch movie de..
bt actually i hav no more mood to watch..
so dun wan go jor..

bro bday..
he came bek from dinner..
talked alot abt it..
dat makes me quite jealous..
n sumhw..
i start to hate cakes..

all i can say is..
life is quite unfair..

Sat:
another boring saturday~

Sun:
usual sunday..
noe jor sum things agn..
ish..
y dis kind of ppl..
rly..
self keep telling ppl abt deir secret..
in the end wan blame me??
i defended u B*TCH!!
bt u keep on blaming me!
wtf is wrong v u??
fine!
since u wan me to be blamed so desperately..
I'll do as u wish!
I wont let u cause anymore harm to others..
dun say i nvr treat u as a fren!

Mon:
2day rly..
haiz..
sj..
rly i dun und..
i followed da instructions..
in the end..
im oso to be blamed..
so wad for i study dat chap?
haiz..
tired dy..

once agn..
another teac cry..
dunno wad to do..

haiz..

den ntg much..

den after school..
whie w8ing dad bek..
kena 'attacked' by lots of kids!
lol..
suddenly so 'famous' huh..

den ntg much..

sum1 actually called me n look for sum1 who i dunno..
n say i haven pay my housing loan thingy..
den will sue me at court..
lol??
i said wrong no..
den he said..
nvm..
we'll meet at da court==?!

u noe..
da words actually hurt me..
dey tell me dat im jux a fool to u..
i've been doing dese all bcuz i value our friendship..
n i rly treasure u as a fren..
bt in the end..
u make me feel lik im ur toy..
wad do u wan from me?
i've been tolerating..
so much..
i blame myself for ur fault..
in the end..
u nvr cared..
wad m i to u??

sumhw..
i rly cant stop my feelings for u..
it's getting heavier n heavier..
im afraid i cant hold it much longer..
i wanna hug u n tell u..
I LOVE YOU!

10/7 - 15/7

Sun:
as usual..
bt nite hav a bit hair cut..
woo~

Mon:
haiz..
physics period c teac scold 3G==
pity weii oso kena..
haiz..
dun care too much la..
cheer up~

den ntg much..
stay bek buat a lil things..

Tues:
exam start jor..
BM rly @@
chemistry masih ok..
bt still haiz..

Wed:
BI ntg much..
den physics rly..
ngam ngam finish den recess..
who knows..
after finish recess den teac giv us bek our paper..
lol!!!

Thurs:
Bc quite hard xia lo..
addmath worse!!!
not enuf time for me!!!
argh!!!
y i so stubborn dun wan choose linear or trigo??!!
easier ei!!!
now so many careless!!!
argh!!!!
no mood..

den moral..
haiz..

P.S. Happy birthday..

Fri:
...
math,bio n sj 2geda..
how read..
math quite easy xia la..
scare careless only..
bt bio..
luckily gt read dou sum..

sj oso..
tembak saje..

den after school..
stayed bek..
support xh in the singing comp...
after dat..
w8 to go hav lunch..
while w8ing..
chat v fren..
den noe sum 'secret'!
HAHAHAHA!!
dis is wad real frens a..
i've defended for em by nt blowing out its secret..
bt nw..
im accused of backstabbing em..
wow?!
which means i shud do dat??
if i rly wan to..
i've done it long ago la..
y w8 till now?!
u urself spoil everything..
still wan blame on me?
wtf is dis?

den ngam ngam weii wan leave jor..
acc her go out lo..
1.40..
shun bian go makan..
tired of wating jor..
since long time no eat jor..
starving..
i choose to go alone..
bcuz i rly dun wanna act dat im happy...
i prefer to stay moody..
n i dun wan ppl to c da look on my face..
1 problem after another..
rly dunno how 'cheer up'..

yes i was being naive..
i rly tot u were dere..
bt actually..
i was da stupid 1..

haha..
i lost love, friendship & studies~
i lost everything!
haha~ XD

4/7 - 9/7

Mon:
monday holiday..
conclusion..
did nothing..

tetris battle agn..
lol..
higher rank agn..
long time no play jor..

Tues:
ntg to do..
bored..
after tuition..
dat 2 sozai rly come out c me bo..
lol~

2day took lots of pic of F4..
den make da undi paper..
abit funny xia..

Wed:
2day heard gt ceramah..
so many ppl end up din come..
pj..
4gt bring pj shirt..
suan..

den ntg much..
after recess gt ceramah..
bt end up din attend..
cuz handle sum things..

Thurs:
2day school ntg much..
bm, math, addmath no teac..
whole day only moral n english..

den after school gt ping pong..
dis time nicer..
cuz every1 take turns after 1 ball..
kinda funny..

bt at nite..
starts to feel..
LONELY..

tears start to fall..

agn..

Fri:
2day is a moody day..
whole day kira tak da mood..
den gt 1 period teac nt teaching..
so sleep lo..
den da stupid table gt dry silver paint..
even dry jor..
my hand oso stuck on it..
pull out jor hands pain pain..
even sum paint still stick on my hands..
wad r dose actually==
den ntg much..
sienz..
after school..

stayed bek 2 c da chinese competition..
bt no1 wanna eat..
so i went out alone..
eat alone..
bt end up..
cheeyong n his sis came..
n acc me..
thx..
at least it wont look weird being alone..

den go bek watch da competition..
some rly can sing..
bt end up nt chosen..
some..
no idea..

den wan go bek jor..
dad haven come..
so w8 in bilik pengawas lo..
bully wilson==!
den dat shunquan hamlou!
attack me still say i poke him==!
den sit on my lap n hug me..
treat me lik a tree==!
luckily he's nt heavy..

den dey went tugas..
being alone agn..
start to think of lots of thing..

suddenly..
irise came in..
n brought 2 ppl in..
i tot wad..
cuz din prepare photo for da biodata..
nvm la..
bagi amaran saja la..
+ moody dat time..
so hav da 'serious' mood..
nt joking==

den go home..
nite..
go for tuition..
den organ..
still moody all da way thru..

Sat:
go tuition..
den follow yan go KTM..
prepare go sookfen hse gib surprise..

after finishing da cake..
walk to jusco..
abit far..
1 group walk very fast..
my group in middle..
talking..
waihong rly yamlou==!
1 group walk very slow==

den reach jor..
cant decide wad to eat..
go up cinema c xia..
den decide go eat pizza..
lol..
den from dere walk to pizza hut agn..
2day rly marathon lo==!
den reach dere..
eat 1 set n lasagna v siuhou, xh n yan..
oomg..
i ngam ngam gt enuf of money to pay@@
thank god..
bt all cuz school took my 21..
n hsien haven return my money @@
bt luckily i had enuf..
den went bek..

I'm abit jealous..
diff ppl gt diff things..
as for mine..
i noe a few cared..
n worked hard..

bt as for the others..
i dunno y..
i actually bliv-ed..
da lies u said..
u nvr rly cared abt my presence..
i was naive..
bliv-ing dat u wud be dere..
when i nid..
bt sumhw i realized..
u dun care..

all of dose r jux excuses..
if is for others..
i dun think u will fail in preparing anything..

thx..
for making me happy once..
even though dey will only be present in my imaginations..
bt at least u told me a white lie..
giving me hope for once..
even though u crushed it in the end..

it rly hurts..
u noe??
where u can tell no1 abt it..
n even u can tell them..
dey wun care abt it..

hello out there..
do u hear me??
=X

3-7

Sun:
morning nid wake up early..
cuz suddenly bro wan go out..
so hav to follow..
scare late for tuition..

during tuition damn cold..
nearly cant breathe..
den bek home..
went out agn for lunch..

came bek not long after..
den go for dinner..
w8 quite long xia lo..

den bek jor..
watch ASQ..
dose kids rly quite geng xia lo..
bt if dey can keep dis voice till after puberty..
den gud lo~

den my mood starts to fall~
say wrong things..
kena marah..

bt maybe he was right..
who will actually think of me..
haha~
stop being naive!

I live alone in the darkness..
I can't see da light rays..
All I see is pitch black..
There I live..
For now and ever..
And at last..
I'll die there..
Where no one will realise..

28/6 - 2/7

Tues:
lately morning keep having stomachache probs..
morning gt assembly..
to replace monday de..
den class ntg much happened..

ntg much anyway..

Wed:
The happiest day??
haha~
2day whole class going KDU~
for dunno wad event actually..
every1 went there without aim..

den morning da bus said will be later..
so we go PJK!
woosh!
play volleyball~!
kinda fun..
bt kinda pain..

den go KDU~
once reached..
went to a hall..
listen to sum talk..
a bored 1??
cuz im nt interested in engineering..
buu~~
den almost sleep dere..
haha~

den went to a smaller hall..
da ppl in charge dere ask us to form 2 groups of 5 ppl each..
for egg drop n spaghetti bridge contest..

den 5 boys egg drop(including me)
5 girls spaghetti bridge~

den we were given 1 hour to finiz our task..
da stupid cellophane tape..
bully us at da last minute..
cant open at all..
n we nid it desperately..
so i used my way..
a new way..
cut da whole ring into half..
den use scissors to find da opening..
den take out n stick!
no choice..
bt then weiyang took 1 more for us..
times up~
den go test our design~!
WOOSH!
our design succeeded!
100% newspaper~!
Pro~!

hehe..
den go bek c girls de spaghetti bridge..
quite successful..
almost 1st..
bt end up 2nd..



bt our group 1st! ^^
YESH!



bt end up all result oso gud..
SB blh!
5B BOLEH!

den we hav our lunch..
chicken rice..
den da tupperware..
den some of them gt an idea..
seetho went infront n ask from other school for it to RECYCLE!
so brave of her..
or shud i say so funny of her!
haha~

den ntg much..
go bek school..
try our design agn..
few times oso gud..
da egg din break!
dis means our design is rly gud de!

den go home..
nite went mh hse dere de mamak..
discuss xia things..

Thurs:
wah deng..
sumthin wrong v me..
keep sick==!

during BM 2nd period..
went to da toilet to vomit..
eww...

den moral..
seetho so many ppl dun choose..
choose dou me 2 ans question..
such luck..

den ntg much special..
after school..
stay bek to promote our stall to the afternoon sessions~

wow..
kids nowadays rly..
different compared with last time..
sad..
den reach 1D n 1B..
dose ppl rly funny..
SEEWEISONG keep bully me!
listen to other ppl dun listen to me!
sad~ XD

den ntg much jor..
tuition..
d nose start gt prob..
very block..
when reach home worse..
nose keep dripping lik tap water..
total eww!!

eat med n sleep..

Fri:
dunno isit cuz of med..
morning very dizzy..
when dey tugas..
i was sleeping in bilik pengawas..
sry guys..
cant make it..

den went bek to class..
ntg special..
keep promote wherever i go~!
physics..
suddenly nid change sumthin in peka..
very rush xia~

after school stay bek agn..
after havin lunch v hsien..
den go promote among pengawas of da afternoon session...
den trying to bully wilson..
den accident happened..
opps~
sry ya..
make u hit da fire extinguisher..
luckily it din drop..
or else worse..
hurt??
@@

den suddenly notice every1 lost..
alone dere..
TT

den when dey bek..
went 2 collect da money..
nt bad nt bad..

den ntg much..
went tuition..
den organ class..
wow..
da organ change jor to a newer model..
damn yeng!
bt abit nt xi guan..
haha..

den intend go mh hse..
end up..
din go..
make me feel abit guilty..
cuz din contribute dou...

Sat:
went to school early in the morning..
den prepare da stall n stuff..
den nid run a while..
my no. 1067..
yes!
my bday no..
such luck huh?
haha~

den run~
quite short..
so run all da way bek..

den prepare da stall jor..
actually abit bz xia la~
bt luckily enuf ppl~
so can take turns..
bt..
....

sumthin happened..
every1 dun lik it..
fine~
ntg much..

den suddenly gate dere abit luan..
go n try to help..
bt then sumthin happened agn..
dis is nt da 1st time ive seen dis kind of occasion..
so is kinda usual..

den finiz jor everything..
end jor..
haiz..
only 1 drink din finiz selling..
others finiz jor~

go count money~
woosh..
at least still gt earn sum sum la~
maybe nt too much~

"3+4" we did it!

den seizai wilson..
wan ANGRY BIRD isit??
u will be the pig!
wakakakaka!

W-
Nobody likes ur temper..
pls..
as a fren..
keep it with urself..
it will only make u lose more frens!
BTW..
a lot of ppl hate u..
trust me..
dey do!

X-
try to respect the others as dey respect u..
U r nt everything..
pls..

Y-
Ur presence din mean anything at all..
dun think dat u r very important pls..

Z-
Look in the mirror!
dun accuse others for doing sumthin u r even doing it wrong oso!


den tuition..
xh slept da whole lesson..
ask him dun wan come jor dun listen..
no sleep whole nite shud go sleep ma..
suffer lik dis..
haiz..

den nite dinner..
rly funny..
mom saw 2 students of hers..
1 after another..
same table..
2 oso MISS SIEW!
lol!
1 of them still treat us da meal...
abit unusual xia..
dun rly lik ppl treating..

Bebe n jiajia very fake a..
let me caught red-handed..
still wan deny..
hoho!

Wilson!
2molo taekwondo gahyaw a!!
!~RAWR~!
(next time only take pic la)
T.T