mua is back!!!

mua is back from kuantan~~
fun dere..
pics~~

on the way dere,
bored..
so took picha~

at the room~

the mirror look so big & inviting for me to take pics~

after checking in den go beach walk walk~~

seaside!! mua liky~~

sunny day!!

back to the room n took pics again haha~

den watch a movie..
horror movie..
actually nothin much if u noe wad is da ending..

!!BACKWOODS!!

finish watching den go swim..
yay!!
after that go hav dinner at...

PAK SU
ate my fav..

deep fried sotong!!

den i call it da end of da 1st day..

2nd day:

take pic again b4 going to GYM!!

Children under 16 years of age are not allowed..
haha
bt who cares..
i stil went in n worked out..
muahaha

finish exercising..
tired..

den during da afternoon..
play volleyball with bro..
fun..
bt pain..
cuz stil 1st time play..
dun rly noe how..
nt rly easy as it looks..

den suddenly gt 1 kid come n play v us..
literally a kid..
shorty..
cute..
about few years old only..
den whenever da ball drop..
he will scream..
so funny..
den he go away le..
no pics..

after volleyball..
go swim again..
unexpectedly..
i noe 'backstroke'..
which i dunno at 1st..
my free style & froggy is lik shit..
bt dunno y back stroke can..
happy..
gt pic bt dun wan upload..
wahaha..

2nd day dinner eat room service de food..
da nasi goreng kampung & potato wedges quite nice..
yuum yuum..

den after dinner..
at night..
we went to da seaside..
sitting by da poolside..
listening to songs..
looking at da stars..
nice..
feel kinda sad..
cuz thinkin many things..
bt can rly relax..
recommend dis song
"THE CLIMB"
listening dere dat time rly da best combination..

den walk to da seaside v parents..
wow..
rly thrilling..
cuz at night seldom go sea de..
we go until da water dere..
wow!!
nice..
da view..
rly..
omg..
nice..
bt scary oso..
da waves is lik in white colour..
gliding in da dark night..
wow~~
perfect view..
bt dun dare take pic..
nt a gud thing..

3rd day:

intend to go swim or any activities..
bt my muscle pain..
da hands & abs..
so din go..
slept till 11..
after breakfast which my parents brought back..
den prepare go home..
while w8ing for my family members to prepare..
i went to da beach again..
walk alone..
feel kinda calm..
nice~~

going home lo..
bye bye kuantan~

telok chempedak..
actually i dun rly noe wher..
bt dis 1 is for carmen..
maybe will bring back memories..
haha~~

back le see dou my plant..
'runtuh' already..
bt nt yet wilt..
so water it lo..
luckily stil can grow back..
haha

actually oso kinda happy..
bt after seeing sum1's blog..

feel kinda..
my only answer is 'yes' n 'no'..
ntg to say..
as if dey care..
im sure dey had fun..
dun act la..
i noe wad i shud noe..
wadeva..
as long i had fun..
& i finally noe who r called 'true frens'
or do i??

to my 'loyal' readers..
thx for ya comments..
rly appreciate it..
i will 'add oil' in everything..
thx!!

...

y...
da time now is 2.48..
cant sleep..
nt excited bt sad..
is jux only a few minutes..
from happy to sad..
all on a sudden cry again..
miss her..
y..
y shud i see bek da msg..
if i dun i wun b sad..
y..
d3n i check phone list..
2.00am..
probably every1 is asleep..
bt i noe chee cheng haven..
+ she kinda noe about my problem..
so found her..
wad i've expected..
she haven sleep..
bt maybe say wrong thing..
made her angry..
or maybe she tired le..
haven say til da point she oredi sleep le..

so..
end up oso haven find any1 who can help me..
or comfort me..
who..
nvm ba..
im nt every1's 1st anyway..
i dun hav da right for ppl to comfort me..

nitez..

Won't be around for days~~

To all psycho9412 readers..
i won be around for 3 days..
going kuantan!!
yea!!
hope no obstacles..
muahaha..
excited...

indeed many things happened dese days..
bt no chance to rite..
kinda lazy..
+ kinda 4gt most of da things..
jux rmb monday i cried..
thinking about da past..
rmb her cried..
1st time..
my gudness..
den tuesday extra class..
go dere..
stomach ache..
go toilet..
den bek le dunno y sy was sittin bside me..
weird..
bt..
(u know wad la)
den after tuition..
while chattin v TC..
suddenly ZY came n talked to us..
mostly to TC la..
since nt so close..
only chat at msn..
indeed kinda shy..
bt he grab my waist..
my most sensitive part..
nt most bt kinda..
shocked..
kinda tall bt he dun admit..
haha..
if u c dis dun hit me..
if u din..
den oso dun hit me la..
den TC bek home le..
den he oso go bek..
thought can chat v him..
personally..
bt im a shy person..
i thought he is..
bt actually i m..
sry ya..
feel happy can chat v u PERSONALLY..
even though jux a bit..
n din rly chat much..
hahaz..
klazy liao...
actually nt only dis make me happy la..
still gt 2 things..
muahaha..

haha..
ok la..
wan 2 prepare things le..
bb..
c whether gt chance on9 at kuantan anot la..
i will take a lot of pics dere..
muahaha..

m i appreciated??

my 'sickness' has come again..
feel lonely again..
bt dis time..
i dun rly care much..
though might be sad..
bt..
i can handle it..

ntg much happen..
bt somehow i jux hate it when i c 'some1'..
i dun think i hate him..
jux lik yesterday..
da chinese society book thingy wans us 2 stay back..
so i've stayed n went to xh hse after dat..
went to 77 & ate our lunch..
den some1 came n talk to xh..
(his primary school's fren)
dun noe him bt saw him b4 in friendster..
nt da point..
den while i was eating..
suddenly some1 "chiak"ed me..
scared me..
it was mh..
was excited to c her..
since she asked me to go eat v her..
thx for acting lik a fren..
unlike...
bt dere was sumthin dat makes me feel weird..
make me feel lik ignoring..
dunno y..
even xh felt dat..
i only asked myself dat question dat morning..
so im nt sure about dat answer..
bt when i saw dem..
rly..
kinda..

nvm..

jux feel kinda down..
i tried to fit in to da gang..
bt i cant..
i tried my best..
bt i stil dun belong to dat group..
him??
noe only a while..
den go out dose activities oso include him..
bt im excluded..
feel kinda unfair..
y he can bt i cant??
bt ntg can be done..

for dose who rly treat me as a fren..
bez fren..
or wadeva..
thx..
in my mind i noe who r dey oredi..
u guys will always be in my heart..
thx for everything..

14-9-09

2day is a boring day..
bored bored bored..
+ a pinch of anger
& a tea spoon of frustration..
waaalaaa~
da recipe of 14th September..

ntg bt frustration~
2day start by having a huge breakfast..
a tasteless bowl of noodles & 7 dimsums..
even though da noodles is tasteless..
bt i dun rly mind..
+ my mom woke up early in da morning & cook for me..
shud appreciate den teasing it..

den go to school v a full stomach..
when i step in da prefect's room..
wow~~
so bright..
n i saw xiong hui..
jumping around..
lik his hse la..
since da floor was covered by a piece of carpet..
nt literally a carpet..
jux sumthin lik dat..
we hav to put our bag in da room n take off our shoes..
den only we can go in..
interesting~~

den is english bengkel..
my goodness..
da 2nd time i hav to interact v da "ENGLISH PANEL"
no offence..
bt i hated it..
treat us lik lil kids..
"look at my face"
(im not going to insult her look)
bt looking at her face will make my neck feel tired..
bt dats not da problem..
while we were discussing PREPOSITIONS..
she asked da front students to read it..
how can da back listen if deir voice were so low..
dats still nt da problem..
as a teacher..
u can either repeat da answer or write it on da board..
so dat we can c it..
bt no~~
dis is nt a problem..
den xh ask 4 da answer..
u noe wad she said??
"i dun wan to repeat da answer..
u ask from da other students.."
what?!
what kind of answer is dis..
im rly...
speechless..
my interest is killed..

den sj bengkel..
oso very frustrated..
or shud i say more frustrated..
d@mn it..
go in da library..
omg..
seat being taken..
shit la..
nt blaming cy dem dat sit dere..
since deir sit was taken by other ppl 1st..
or maybe da ppl who took deir sit..
whoever starts 1st la..
hate dem..
shit dem..
forced to sit behind..
so d@mn noisy..
dunnnoo " shhh" how many times..
bt dey jux cant stop talking..
weird ppl..
brainless..
(no offence)
u will be mad when u c dis if u rly did make noise..
if u didn't..
u dun hav 2 be mad..
so crazy to sit behind..
den we decided to move to da front..
due to no space..
we sat at da sofa place..
comfortable & clear about wad teac was saying..

THX
xh & sy..
u guys rly r my bez fren..
make me happy when im sad..
or mad..
make me feel free when im stressed..
oways by my side..
nt always..
bt most probably..
bt u guys..
i noe will less chance to acc. me soon..
bt thx..
rly r my bez fren..
THX

den my trail..
i gt no. 4
5 marks different v no.3..
TT
wu~~
bt kinda happy tho..
my result was riten 75 on da GEO~
yayme!~

Lastly:
To "YOU KNOW WHO",
i dunno u check on my blog anot..
bt u will know is u if u read it..
i noe u dun wan me to mention it..
so i jux rite here..
i wun mention in front of u..

i think i noe y u say i lie..
if is about Jm..
den i can tell u i didn't lie..
is he dat didn't say properly..
he told me his cousin did it..
did he told u??
how do i noe is his cousin by da msg..
all i noe is da msg come from his hp no.
so isit my fault??
if u rly dun bliv..
u can go ask sy..
she saw my msg..
stil dun bliv den is ur problem..
all i can say is i didn't lie!!
dun accuse me for doing ntg wrong..

conclusion: whatever~

09/09/09

it was yesterday..
bt still a day..
dun rly rmb wad had happen..
jux rmb i hate bm bengkel..
which was yesterday..
y??
bcuz alaza in charge of our class..
omg.. + at dewan..
bored..
do liao many 'many fish' de things..

~skip~
den sn..
pity pity sy nid go intelek class..
nt fair!!!
bcuz all dose marks are nt real..
if put real sy will belong v us..
den we play police n killer..
boring~~
n den something dat makes me hate 'some1'..
same like wad happen v cheryll..
suan le..
pass den dun say..
dun wan k la..

den 2day gt bi n sj bengkel..
bored..
bi let pn tay in charge..
haiz..
speechless..
den while 'learning'..
we are ordered to go hav our injection..
go change clothes..
den we went to bilik kesihatan..
i was checked 1st..
haha..
very funny..
1st we r needed to take off our shirts..
n i wonder y..
><
den she checked..
da stethoscope..
omg..
touched alil of my..
u noe wad..
den she said i was underweight,,
sangat kurus..
gav me vitamin B & C..
haha..
some other ppl oso gt it..
den we went to another room to gt our jab..
feel ntg..
bt later hands feel a lil cramp..
a lil lil pain..
bt ntg much..
after dat ntg much le..
den sj bengkel..
pn. chentamil..
my goodness..
ntg much to say..
EVIL!!
den haiz..
sumthin happen again..

some ppl can jux abandon u once he gt wad he wanted..
lik i care la..
come find me if u wan..
dont if u dun wan..
as if i care..
i wun b sad bcuz of dese things anymore..

P.S. din hate any1 now at dis particular moment..

kursus pengawas..

a fun program..
nice..
at first every1 thought it would be bored..
bt every1 ended up going home without regretz..
i think..

it all started early in da morning..
8.00am
we gather at da tapak perhimpunan..
we r 1st divided into groups..
i was in group 6..
v sook fen, siao wei, chee cheng..
dis is all i noe more..
others nt so close..

da next was marching..
we jux learn da basics..
dis is my weakest thing..
i hate marching..
i've nvr march..
n den i can barely hear wad da commander is rly saying..
den i jux look wad da front person is doing..
yay??
dey had chosen me to be da ketua..
den i'll jux be den..
bla bla bla..
finally finish marching..
go in da dewan n listen to deir speech..
kinda useful..
teach us about rly 100%prefect things..

~~~SKIP~~~

during 12 dat lunch time...
we hav about 1 n half hour to rest..
actually i asked dem whether dey wanna play da animal game..
nobody cared..
den i jux walked away..
since ntg to do..
find lil chok kam to play..
more accurate..
to bully..
den after dat bek le..
no difference..
go away again..
nt long after..
saw dem playing..
dey asked me to go..
bt dun wan to..
dun feel lik..
ish~~
dey r weird..
den ntg to do lo..
walk around..
went many places..
play wushu at da back of da dewan v soo chin dem..
den after dat go to canteen..
yantong, liantat & yong shin was dere..
so spent my time v dem..
sit dere..
play some tricks on yantong..
ex. take away her rm 10 n nt returnning it..
bt she noticed..
haha..
den 2pm le..
go bek to dewan n continue our kursus..
we started v a game..
every group was given a paper..
den every group member muz be in dat paper..
think of da solution..
den shee ni knows da answer..
yay..
saviour..
sry to da kiaramas students..
din rly cooperate v u guys..
sry..
let u guys standing rite dere..
wandering around..
haha..
bt i can see dat dey r very efficient in doing things..
very cooperating oso..
compare v us rly..
omg..

pass~~

den we cut it into a circle..
a big 1..
n we finish it 1st..
bt da 2nd task..
we lost..
bcuz da paper was tore off when we r moving..
from here..
i can c dat im nt a gud leader..
sook fen n siao wei r..
><
i said things bt i dun c any1 listening..
fine~~

pass~~

den 2nd was singing..
n dancing..
monkey..
ernest was funny..
bt gud courage..
den every1 nid to stand up n dance..
"satu ekor monyet~~"
"garu garu badan~~"
"gayut gayut pokok~~"
"goyang goyang punggung~~"
many oredi very dare to dance..
bt still gt some dun dare..
im da 1 dat was dare n half nt dare..

den after dat was another game..
every1 nid to find a partner..
i found yiyang..
haha..
da teac sang:
"saya pegang kamu punya, kamu pegang saya punya"
den every1 'yer'...
sounds weird..
"kita sama-sama pegang"
"pegang.."
"pegang pipinya"
den nid to touch his cheek..
den after dat i wipe my hands on my pants..
den of shit feel lik insulted him accidentaly..
becuz i jux wanted to wipe away da dust on my hands..
which i 4gt to do b4 touching his face..
bcuz i touched da floor..
which was damn dirty..
den touch his face..
afraid he think i inuslted him..
no offence!!!
sry!!!
nt purposely de..
><
den after cium dahi n pipi..
nt much ppl did dat..
only some brave ppl did it..

~skip~
after dat was a game full of tension..
each group hav a long string tied together..
den deres a marker pen dat nids to put it in a bottle was tied in da middle..
den we cant use hands..
so i was at da back..
i used my teeth..
bite it..
den in front all dose..
at first none of dem use teeth..
all use shoulders..
which cant rly help..
so i hold da string myself v da teeth..
bite it very hard..
bite until i had an headache..
omg..
rly wanna release temper n jux walk away..
bt i insist..
continue biting..
dun care wad happen..

rules of da game:
-hands muz be behind da back locked
if loose den consider fail..
-muz wait until da wistle blow den can stop
gt special type of blowing it..
-every1 muz participate

den we manage to finish a few times bt gt ppl broke da rules..
loose deir hands b4 da wistle finish..
bt da thing is da commander din blow when we finish..
he wanted to test us..
wan us to listen to orders..
bt every time oso gt 1 or 2 broke da rules..
den finally we finish 1 time..
last task of dis tiring, mouth breaking game..
we nid to put da string on da floor..
slowly every1 started to kneel down..
den da funny thing is..
i heard from my frenz..
some of dem kissed da floor..
haha.. omg..

~finally finish dis tiring game~

den we r going to end..
b4 ending..
we dance da chicken dance..
every1 dance lik KLAZY~~
bt still gt dose form ONEs..
still nt open enuf..
dun dare to dance..
wadeva la..
dance lik klazy..

den after dat dismiss le..
so bek lo..
very happy i guess..
back home le.. jux bath n sleep..
kekez..
n den i light 1 or 2 kg again..
from 56 to 54..
hahaz..

-----end of post-----

FRUSTRATED!!

many problems now..
problems..
problems..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
2day is bored..
bt friday is my day..
i love friday..
ntg much..
den pj period..
xh go n play ball le..
den i saw sy alone..
go sit v her
at 1st chattin about sn..
den later all on da sudden yh say wan play rubber..
i was lik.. huh??
nvm..
den dey came n played a while..
den playing till half dun feel lik playing le..
dey kept on playing..
den suddenly seng hoe said..
"y wan play here"
cuz i wasnt playing anymore..
den dey moved..
i sat dere alone v her again..
chat about kuantan and lumut..
kinda happy chatin..
den xh came bek..
he looks angry untill recess..
i noe he dun lik it..
since laz nite i admit to him i still lik her..
den..
i tried nt to talk to her again..
bt after recess everything bek to normal..
chat again..
after school go out eat 2geda oso..
since da kursus oso..
after dat still chat about movies..
nice~~

2day oso very fish..
we 10 go down rehat..
den suddenly sook fen come..
say we r suppose to rehat on 10.15 becuz today is friday..
den go bek class..
kamalia is in dere already..
haha..
bt din ask wher we go..
maybe bcuz we r prefects..
so she dun k..
kakaz..

den pengawas..
problems..
many many problems..
y??
do i look like da penolong..
every1 oso say..
i hav ntg much different v others..
same lik no jawatan..
only more strict...
u think i wan it dat way??
dey all wad oso din tell me..
spotcheck din tell me..
after school nid tugas din tell me..
only announced dy den i noe..
ppl ask me i oso cant answer..
do i look lik da head assistant??
wad oso dunno..
im nt even appreciate..
all oso she do..
u think i dun wan do??
everything oso dunno do wad??
find every1 oso no find me..
FRUSTRATED!!!

fate..
i noe 1 day..
i will change..
i noe it..
every1 does..
im jux not da material..

!!do according to fate la!!

no topic~~

haiz..
ntg to say..
1stly..
i wanna scold myself for being honest..
y??
b4 holiday..
i noticed dat i gt 75 on my geo..
damn happy..
den i notice dere were some wrong calculations..
struggling between telling or not telling da teacher..
bt i decided to be honest..
even though ppl
from 75 to 73..
damn sad..
den nvm..
is fate dat i cant gt A..

bt den..
yesterday..
when teac was discussing..
notice dat 1 question was marked wrong..
omg..
i was supposed to be right..
teac marked it wrong..
from my observations..
i think teacher asked other ppl to mark da papers..
omg..
i was suppose to be 75..
A!!!
bt y shud i b honest??
b honest made my marks B..
now marks wrong again oso cannot change..
y honest??
if i was not honest..
i can still be A..
n i deserve to be gt A..

ARGH!!!

ish~~

nvm..
den 2day..
had a small meeting..
v kai lin n ying xin..
wad dey said is kinda rite..
sook fen was a lil too over 'the line'..
bt i was still below 'da line'..
means im nt doing enuf..
argh..
sometimes is nt dat i dun wan..
jux feel lik being da penolong doesnt make any difference..
is jux dat i dun hav a particular area for me to tugas..
i can go anywher..
so??
feel lik im still a follower..
rmb dat spotcheck..
da 1st person dey found was xh..
nt me..
wad??
being da 'head' bt i dun even noe wad's happening..
...
ish..
i noe sure gt ppl hate me de..
bt wad can i do..
i din respect u all..
or shud i say u all din respect me..
everytime i oso say nicely..
u guys r da 1 who wan me to scold..
i spoke nicely..
bt no~~
u guys wan to scold bek..
fine la..
wan scold me den of course i scold bek la..
stand dere let u scold ar??

ish~~
respect u all still wan do dis..
no mercy next time..

FRUSTRATED!!