m i appreciated??

my 'sickness' has come again..
feel lonely again..
bt dis time..
i dun rly care much..
though might be sad..
bt..
i can handle it..

ntg much happen..
bt somehow i jux hate it when i c 'some1'..
i dun think i hate him..
jux lik yesterday..
da chinese society book thingy wans us 2 stay back..
so i've stayed n went to xh hse after dat..
went to 77 & ate our lunch..
den some1 came n talk to xh..
(his primary school's fren)
dun noe him bt saw him b4 in friendster..
nt da point..
den while i was eating..
suddenly some1 "chiak"ed me..
scared me..
it was mh..
was excited to c her..
since she asked me to go eat v her..
thx for acting lik a fren..
unlike...
bt dere was sumthin dat makes me feel weird..
make me feel lik ignoring..
dunno y..
even xh felt dat..
i only asked myself dat question dat morning..
so im nt sure about dat answer..
bt when i saw dem..
rly..
kinda..

nvm..

jux feel kinda down..
i tried to fit in to da gang..
bt i cant..
i tried my best..
bt i stil dun belong to dat group..
him??
noe only a while..
den go out dose activities oso include him..
bt im excluded..
feel kinda unfair..
y he can bt i cant??
bt ntg can be done..

for dose who rly treat me as a fren..
bez fren..
or wadeva..
thx..
in my mind i noe who r dey oredi..
u guys will always be in my heart..
thx for everything..