Friday, January 29, 2010

Somehow..

Somehow i felt guilty..
for everything i've done..
somehow..
m i rly wrong..
i hav no idea y i hav dis guiltiness in me..
as if im da 1 doing it..
bt..
why..
everything seems hard for my road..
everything..
y,,
y shud i be a prefect in a 1st place..
i try to be my best..
do wad i can da most..
bt i cant..
i gt ntg..
no appreciation..
no ntg..
bt contributing aint abt da return..
maybe is for my experience??
no idea..
bt i rly hope i can be lik him..
being famous n all dat..
bt from wad i see..
i cant..
or shud i say..
i won't..
u r lucky..
u gt gud frenz..
caring frenz..
appreciate it..
somehow..
i cant stand it anymore..
somehow..
im crying..
somehow..
im nobody anymore..
somehow..
somehow..
somehow..

nvm..
it'll all be ok..
once after 2 years..
i'm gonna meet new ppl..
maybe ppl who appreciate me..
maybe ppl who dont..
maybe ppl who hates me..
i'll nvr noe..
enjoy life..
can i??
jux hope i can be lik u..
famous..
wad oso can..
even do wrong oso lik u r right..

forgiving might be a gud solution..
bt..
i hate myself for being so sensitive..
i hate myself for being so useless..
i hate myself for being nothing..
i wanna be somebody..
muz i becum a bad student to gt recognize??
muz i..?
sry kailin..
i might let u down..
i cant stand it now..

4 comments:

  1. Cmon MJ! cheer up =]
    Not every1 can be perfect k? ^^
    Just do all u can n that is all it takes =]
    Just take it easy dude =D
    I support u >o<!!

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  2. hey dude..do whatever u think will make u happy.dont do it because u wan recognization or some undeserving ppl's friendship.if that recognization makes u happy,then,what the hell.do it!!

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  3. ma dear.
    life's sounds rough for u rite now.
    u wanna go out yumcha and talk bout it?
    sms me.
    *hugs*

    =Wings=

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  4. adris- i will try my bez la.. thx for ya concern..
    kevin- same to u too.. i will also support u..
    hiroyuki- i hope i can do it bt unfortunately i cant..
    chicken wing- try ba.. find 1 day la..

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