Speechless...

Again..
from wad i expected..
wad i had expected came true again..
(as always)
ever since dat day i started to forgive u...
i knew dat u will hate me agn..
forgiving is da starting for u to hate me..
i knew it all along..
we can nvr be frenz..
since..
ever..
is either u hate me or i hate u..
bt i choose to let u hate me..

maybe i hav again misunderstand..
bt i dun think so..
if u think i keep spreading wad u did..
den u r wrong..
i din spread it..
im da 1 who heard from other ppl..
did i mention wad u did on my blog??
did i say who did it on my blog..
ppl who asked me oredi knew wad happen..
so it aint my fault..
i even feel embarassed about it..
y would i tell other ppl..

if u insist im da 1 who harmed u..
fine..
bt i can say dat im innocent..
i didnt do anything dat harm any1..
instead i tried too beg for u..
which is impossible..
i know is hard for u to trust..
bt at least i know dat im innocent..
dun accuse me for doing ntg wrong..
i tried my bez..
bt his descisions r beyond my control..
wadeva..
i did anything dat i can do to help..
wadeva happens..
i can ntg bout it..

sumtimes i rly envy dat u can do everything dat i wan..
envy bt nt jealous..
seems lik u can do everything dat i wan..
y..
i rly cant tell..

conclusion:
i dun hate u..
bt i dunno whether u hate me anot..
if u do..
i apologize for wad i've done..
if u dun mind..
tell me..
bt u probably won..
so is a waste of time..
of cuz i rly hope we can be gud frenz..
better to hav a fren den an enemy rite??
no hard feelings??

i'll start to put down everything..
i dun wanna get involved in so much annoying things..
which do ntg bt hurt my feelings..
if im nt told..
i dun wanna do dose things anymore..
u guys can handle it by urselves..
with or without me is da same..

我讨厌
蛮不讲理的我

我讨厌
很敏感的我

我讨厌
小气的我

我讨厌
自以为是的我

我讨厌
自私的我

我讨厌
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