27/3 - 31/3

Sun:
afternoon go tuition..
ntg much..
dey all camp no come agn..
den mark say y gt so many ghost..
no come paper oso nt enuf geh..
XP

den ntg much rly..

Mon:
morning..
both me n sookfen voice nt so gud..
so let chaikin n waihong play lo..
let them go up stage..
try xia~
nt bad lo~
bt i damn scare==!

den announce da str8 A for intervensi SPM..
i damn hate it..
1 marks only..
make me B+..
1 mark den A- jor lo..
den str8 A lo..
cuz of dat 1 mark.
hate dat sejarah!
ish ish ish!!!
rly hate a!!!!

den go bek class..
ntg much..

spotcheck!
chose da class at random..
den check check check..
some ppl jux dun listen to instructions..
which made me a lil anoyed..

den gt many thing xia..
my stomach dunno y keep pain..
abit wanna faint dat time..
bt no choice..

whole day nearly no nid study@@

Tues:
2day lagi no nid study==
whole morning do report + find teac..
rly lo..
when u wan find dem..
dey will rly disappear..
bt when u dun wan dem==
dey will be dere==!
ish!!!
wasted all my time..
den after recess oso ntg to do..
so end up no study much oso..

when school end..
dad came..
damn!
da car cant on==!
ish==
w8-ed quite long..
until cn move jor==
den go workshop==!
argh==
bad car day!

Wed:
dis is annoying..

morning..
kawad ppl comp jor...

den in skul..
sumthin happened..
dese ppl dunno y wan paste such thing in class..
i tell u..
IT CANT HELP!!!
nt at all==
u're just wasting money n time!
try doing sumthin better!

den we hav to do report..
find culprit..
damn==
bt end up no news..

den afternoon go hav exercise v bro..
such long time din play bball jor..
accuracy = 10% only..
damn..
keep missing..

bt sweated quite a lot..
satisfy..

Thurs:
2day rly frustrating..
morning..
gt 1 speech..
WOW!
i felt like a GOD after listening it==
NOT!
ish== 2 hours of ....
or shud i say i dun appreciate it^^
bt i dun lik ppl who discriminate us..
nvm..
i live for myself..

den nvm..
prefects cr8-ing alot of problem oso..
so is kinda right to be insulted..
2day i became a lil more strict..
i scolded a lot of ppl..
until i scolded him...
till now i feel guilty..
did i do wrong?
indeed he din follow my orders..
bt sumhw i feel guilty..
bt i rly hope dat it can bring out da inner potential of urs..
i did dat is bcuz i hav hope on u..
i dun wan to be lik others..
using relationship to help u..
i wan u to win by using ur own power..
rite now im trying to motivate u...
bt sumhw..
i've nvr seen u lik dis b4..
hav i done wrong?
im rly confused rite now..
is sad to c u being lik dat..
bt i rly wan u to reach wad i've expected..
i hav trust in u..
so pls dun let me down..

den many things rly made me fed up==
suddenly a ball came n hit me at da back of da knee..
pain dao==

den dat stupid LZY!!!
use da brain la..
still small a..
use paper throw ppl==
how old r u??
be mature la!
17/18 still think lik a child..
at 1st when i received a report of him throwing rubbish at ppl..
da 1st victim i tot is sailou..
den i purposely stood dere..
end up he threw at sum1 else..
sumhw im relieved..
==
bt..
u rly piss me off!
cant u jux be a normal human??
being lik dis aint gonna bring u fame..
ppl will only know u in a bad way..
think man think!!!
oh w8..
u're a human??
dun think so..

den end up==
bek home..
sms v sailou..
he rly victim==
still 2 times..
damn him!!
he will get it..
bt hw can i gt to make him know dat he messed v da wrong person??
i'll think of a way..
shit u!!!

sry sailou..
wasn't v u when u r in 'trouble'==
he'll pay for it..

GOD must help me a!!!!!!!!!

den ntg much..
check spbt book==

den ntg much..
after skul w8 for venus..
den while w8ing bek home..
ply v d juniors..
dey very funny xia..
bt sumhw==
nvm~

den bek home..
go tuition..
omg..
teac rly bought condom n glove let us c..
100% natural rubber or sumthin lik dat..
curious..
bt sumhw..
dare nt touch it..
kinda omg==!

den bek home..
apa lagi==
once agn bad car day..
dis time is moms car..
gt 'fever'..
den go 'hospital'..
da 'doctor' check here check dere..
wn call dad oso susah==
den end up sum treatment den ok jor..
2molo nid to 'checkup' agn..
haiz..
rly unlucky lo me..

2day rly bek cek a!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn tired of LIFE!

24/3 - 26/3

Thurs:
SPM result out...
help teac key in things..
so din go class..
while w8ing..
used 1 com to on9 a while..
lol~

d results..
many str8 A..
around 7/8 if nt wrong..

now im starting to be afraid..

den ntg much..
after skul..
went to hav lunch..
den come bek..
for latihan rumah sukan..
bt da funny part is..
take jor attendance den can leave..
den play v yauz~
bully him..

den tuition..
i felt damn hot..
dunno y..

Fri:
nt feeling well..
bt forced myself to skul..

...
i just felt dat our ways of working is different..
u like to take things away from me when im doing it..
y cant u jux let me try to talk things out..
dunno hw to work together..
...

sivik..
ntg much..

den bc..
teac came in..
we sang a song..
teac wn cry wan cry jor..
den she told us a story..

den we took pics n play some games..
there's laughter n crying dat time..
rly touching..

teac..
good luck!
we will do our best!

den recess..
dun wanna talk abt it..

english..
suddenly pn rita came bek..
omg!

den physics..
teac wan discuss module ans..
den suddenly walk away..
ask zun li control..
lol!
laz year scold him cuz touching her com..
now..@@
den end up da lab became chaotic..

den ntg much..

until bek home..
sumthin annoyed me..
no mood..
im rly rly disappointed..
dis wad u call a .......
dis is hw u treat a .......
maybe all dese times..
.....
dun wanna talk abt it..

tuition..
damn tired..
nt feeling well..

den supper..
saw uncle n his family..
long time no c..
n i was nt in a "meeting ppl" attire mode!
damn..

Sat:
morning wan go wushu n tuition de..
bt rly tired..
nt feeling well..
came home n sleep..

wake up.
saw sumthin which hurts me more..
everything is leaving me 1 by 1..
y...
even da 1 i tot will be dere forever starts to...

i dun think i can face da fact..
i cant accept da truth..
i cant..





earth hour..
...

15/3 - 23/3

Tues:
ntg much rly..
jux trying to cheer up..

Wed :
holiday..
rly ntg to do..
all in my mind is jux thinking bout us..
im afraid dat it will happen agn..

Thurs:
trying my best to let go..
forcing laughter faking smiles..

so happen..
17th of march..
da western countries r celebrating St. Patrick's day..
so coincidentally im wearing green dat day!
omg..
wad a coincidence@@

dat night..
cant sleep..
keep listening to the radio..
heard a few nice songs..

Fri:
Whole night din sleep..
watched movie..
"buried alive"..
quite nice..
very chi gek..

den mom wake up..
ask her send me to jusco..
to buy a mechanical pencil for hsien..
since his spoiled..
den buy 1 for me as well..
since mine oso spoiled..
bt long time no change..
maybe is a sign??
a spoiled mechanical pencil will only waste pencil lead..
y dun i change 1??
after using so long..
it wont be gud agn..
i shud jux put dis down..
n take another 1 to cont writing..
Just an inspiration..
den saw koon n hou at Jusco..

den go yan hse..
do pembentangan de things..
very tired..
cuz 24 hours+ no sleep..

den bek home..
had dinner..
oso dunno wad i ate..
cuz too tired..
bek home str8 sleep till morning 9..

Sat:
seifo..
how oo..
no time jor..
i haven finiz hsien de vid ei..
den go genting==
lagi no time..
ate breakfast around 12..
quite nice^^
sumthin new~

den go 1st world..
w8 till check in..
once check in..
i sit aside n start finiz-ing da vid..
den suddenly dey say wan go down..
haiz..
hw i finiz da vid lik dat oo..

den dey say wan play snooker..
nt interested yet..
+ puiyen wan shopping..
den acc her lo..
den she rly shop de lo==
so i go walk alone..
c gt wad buy..
c c xia..
go bek room do vid..
finally
den dey say wan dinner..
den i haven finiz..
ask dem lie say i nt feeling well..
den some rly bliv..
den dey fini eating..
i jux starve lo==
den bla bla bla..
end up i m alone..
walking outside da building in da middle of da night..
is rly relaxing to do dat..
calm myself..
let my emotions out..

den decided to hav my dinner around 10..
my 2nd meal of da day..
after dinner..
went for a walk agn..
suddenly..
i felt lost..
it was very misty..
i cant c wher i m going..
n i cant c wher i came from..

den walk walk xia..
nearly kena langgar by a car..
phew..
den suddenly walk dou to pasar malam..
bought a few things..
den go bek fast..
cuz raining..

den ntg much..
do my hw when dey hav supper..
den w8 12..
let hsien c da vid..
many unexpected pics n vid..

den sleeping time..
kinda made my mood down..
when i do my sacrifices..
does any1 appreciate??

Sun:
morning wake up..
c dou less jor 2 ppl..
@@
den prepare go out..
went to hav breakfast..
McD..

den went bek room..
da 3 ppl came..
celebrate bday together..
den ntg much..
went for bowling agn..
laz nite gt dou 67,76..
2day gt dou..
67, 75!
y i care??
cuz my bday no.@@
lol~

den go snooker..
dunno y so no form..
laz time very good de le..
nvm..
den many simply push oso can in oo!
nice~

den cuz of sumthin..
once agn run up n down..
here n dere..
end up..
dis running all useless..
rly F de==
i only blame on da cause of dis stupid things==
think carefully b4 giving orders la..
wan prepare for sumthin else still wan waste time==
ish!!!

den haiz..
finally can rest..
go walk walk..
den went dou outside..
saw sum1 intends to suicide..
wow..
better nt watch..
bt end up saved..

den wan go bek room..
ish!!!
said jor wan go out call me..
bt din==
now hav to run here n dere agn..
thx puiyen for acc-ing me..
2 solou sopo walking so fast from here to dere..
n to here agn..
den go bek room..
now rly pissed me off..
all i wanted was a lil request..
wad i get??
i've nvr scolded things lik dis to a fren..
bt u rly pissed me off..

all i've did..
do u appreciate it??
do u show respect to me??
all u always do is taking things for granted..
hav u ever cared abt my feelings??
i ignore ppl for reasons..
is jux dat whether u noe it anot..
i wun talk abt it..
I SAW YOUR TRUE COLOURS..

Mon:
rly lol..
1st day of school..
kena compared to reptiles..
dat disaster lady rly...
lol!

den ntg much...
physics teac very funny lo..
sj..
do pembentangan..
den bm do oral..
relax jor~
den chemistry..

bek home..
den only noe a breaking news..
cik tan transferring to Chong Hwa..
haiz..
rly sad to hear dat..

Tues:
ntg much..

after school gt sn n math..
rly zd..
do crossword..
bt sumhw kinda fun~
den tuition..

Wed:
morning stomach ache..
den ntg much.
help v da SPM result..
all i can say is..
wad makes you think u hav da Qualification to do dat..
i haven even make noise yet..
so shut up!
dun ask me abt it..

saw some results..

den till BC period..
haiz..
rly sad lo..
nearly wanna cry tim..
especially when greeting goodbye.
luckily can stand it..
bt i cant say a word..
rly dunno friday will how..

haiz..
den bio..
do exp..
rly fail..
no1 success==!

den i gt bek my BC paper..
lol!
83!!!
kinda unexpected..
my BC so weak win jor many ppl..^^
+ teac comment on other ppl's paper..
ask dem c mine..
lol~
kinda satisfy..

rite now..
jux hope dat things will go well...
Pray...

7/3 - 14/3

1 week no update jor..
bt dis week mostly oso abt kursus pengawas..

Mon:
assembly lo..
as usual..
den chai kin went for da ikrar..
alot better..

after perhimpunan..
spot check for pengawas..
den shuyuan lost her shoes..
haiz..
cant find yet..
continue spot check 1st..

den since f4 gt exam..
sook fen borrowed shuyuan her shoes..

den since jiasheng cant collect da flags..
i've ordered some f3s to do it..
dis is rly disappointing..
i said str8 away..
den excuses..
tell me recess oredi..
so go up put bag 1st..
ok..
den i go alone 1st..
slowly..
slowly i untie..
slowly i fold..
den fine..
i walked to da canteen..
saw dem..
i stood dere for quite some time..
nobody cared except for ning..
i rly gt mad..
if u 2 came by then..
i might nt be dat angry yet..
bt no!
i stood dere for a minute or 2..
every1 saw me..
bt u 2 din come..
fine!

den f3 recess..
ask dose boys to collect da chairs in da dewan after duty..

den ntg much..
Bc no teac..
Pj ntg oso..
dese time oso went to find teac discuss sumthin...

recess..
i saw f5 carrying da chairs bek..
once agn..
da f3 boys let me down..

den..
after recess..
went class by class..
1st..
giv out da surat kebenaran for camp..
2nd..
help shu yuan find shoes..
3rd..
scold dose boys..
honestly..
i dun lik scolding ppl..
mostly i will only advise..
bt dis time..
every1 took for granted..
wher is da respect??
i hav no choice but to scold..
2 for da flags..
others for da chair..
all only noe how to keep quiet..
ntg else to say..
haiz..
rly dunno how..

den finally found shuyuans shoes..
dat person rly geng..
SORRY oso din say..
jux walk away angrily..
ish..

den after dat..
some ppl found me..
claimed dat deir things lost..
whose fault??
if da f3 carried da chairs..
den f5 no nid to do it..
den can ronda..
den wun happen..
ish!!!!

den after school..
stay back..
play some games..
to test for da kursus..
all oso not bad geh~
den suddenly strained my legs..
rly cant move..

den rain..
luv da feeling being under da rain..

many things happened 2day....

Tues:
ntg much happened today..
sivik very funny..
teac wan us to sing da school song..
lol..
damn funny la..
suddenly whole class standing dere singing it..

suddenly say wan stay bek..
bt i cant call any1==
so end up cant..

Wed:
physic teac din come..
moral teac din come..
bm gt teac!
chem teac din come..
bi teac oso din come..
lol..
whole day..
rly..
sien..

Thurs:
whole day as usual..
jux feel abit sad..
bi nearly highest..
LOSE 1 MARK AGN!!!

Fri:
2day suppose gt gotong royong..
bt moral no teac agn..
so i go find teac gt da P.A. machine..
self..
de physics..
lol..
teac wan us tidy da lab..
den many things giv us oso..
we took A LOT of things..
files, files, files, books..

den recess..
play v f4 geh..
since long time no play jor~
wakakakaka..

after recess..
went to bilik pengawas..
no bek class..
abit guilty tim..

nearly wanna quarrel tim==
jux hate vulgar..
isit necessary??

den after school stay bek for meeting..
den haiz..
more n more probs..
bt luckily during tuition ok jor..

den after tuition..
only i 4gt i din bring my books..
muz rush bek home..
den siaw wei asked me to buy wrapping paper..
haiz..

den reach jor..
still gt bit time..
bt diff type..
so tried to call..
bt no1 ans!!!
ish!!!
call who oso no ans!!!
den nt important de ppl come n call me @@
so rush jor..
still nid fan..
den go organ prac..
damn hard ei..
stupid classical song..

night go yan hse..
do things..

every1 no sleep..
mostly la..
den yuzhen damn funny..
lil things den laugh laugh laugh..
i oso kena influenced jor..
XP

din rly sleep..
sleep oso a few minutes while waiting dem prepare..

Sat:
dey prepare jor..
i woke up..
saw dou some nt dere jor..
den suddenly say dey din bring key..
lol..
key is with me==

den go dere..
prepare..
i in charge da PA..

den ntg much..
as usual..
kawad..
sing..
kinda nice..
den food~
den ceramah..
we din rly join..
cuz tired..
+ nid prepare for da events later..

bt in the end..
join jor 1 activity..
i jadi wakil..
go front memorize a pic..
den go bek..
muz say out how is it..
cannot show or draw..
only say..
den won!
haha...
AJK team beh pai a~
won 11 pens..
den i put aside lo..

den prepare for next event jor..
dey lunch..

den when wan start event..
gt news..
say phone lost..
haiz..
search for it..
spot check..
wasted a lot of time..
da only down part of dis kursus..

den start jor..
saw dose ppl play water so fun hor..
all kena kok kar meng spray on them..
all wet..

den change station..
dey r suppose to find da 1 according to da clue..
2 right team found me jor..
den i ask dem sing school song..
den only giv..
den another 2 team find me...
suan lo..
play v dem..
ask dem ikrar..
den say im nt da person..
haha..
den another 1 come find me==
lol~
y every1 think is me..
play jor so many teams wo~~

den everything as usual lo..
end up..
put my pocket de things in bilik pengawas..
den go out play water v dem..
spray lai spray qu..
haha..
yong wai very cham la..
keep let me bully..
i oso lik to find AJK de..
haha..
sneak attack when yan telling other ppl da clue..
haha..
rly nice la!!!
bt my legs very pain when walking..
since no wear shoes..

den let ppl spray till wet dao..
from head to toe..
da worst part is..
my underwear oso wet..
nt comfortable lo!

den..
laz game..
da game we played years ago..
every group nid take a string..
without using hand..
make da pen in da middle down to da bottle..
haha..
play v dem rly funny..

den ending..
giving gifts..
dancing..
den end~~

honestly..
dis is a rly nice 1..
for me la..
i think every1 think so too..
for dose who did nt turn up..
i guess u r da 1 dat loss sumthin..
nt da 1 who came..
i guess nobody regretted rite??
cept for dose who lost hp..@@

bt behind dis activity..
is all our hard work..
bt to me..
working doesn't mean hav to be seen..
dunn hav to purposely show every1 u r doing sumthin..
i dun mind contributing behind..
maybe no1 notices..
bt im nt guilty..
i noe it..

den bek home..
damn tired..
went home str8 away bath..
den go dinner..
rly dunno wad i ate..
so sleepy..
keep wan sleep..
den bek home slept..

Sun:
slept so loong..
woke up den prepare tuition..

den ntg much la..
went for haircut..
quite short..
if im nt a student..
i wun cut lo...
haiz..

den nite mahjong~
den ntg much..

Mon:
whole day pokemon..
fb damn lag..
sien..

it rly hurts..
i rly felt lik asking u until u giv me da ans i wan...
bt when i saw ur status..
i felt sad..
guilty..
making u feel helpless..
i changed my mind..
i felt worse when i noe u r helpless..
i shud be da 1 supporting u..
nt making u feel worse..
bt..
u noe..
even dis is nt da 1st time..
my heart still hurts..
lik being poured by acid..
cold..
sour..
y...
i rly dun und..
bt i guess i can only support u..
i only feel worse when i c u sad..
perhaps..
i jux dun hav da fate..

...

3/3 - 6/3

Thurs:
2day exam sivik..
last sub..
lol..
laz part gt ask us rite school song's lyrics..
luckily is in my mind..

den ntg much..
sienz....
addmath..
teac giv paper 1..
omg..
i lost 8 marks..
3 marks cuz inverse salah jor..
deng..
i noe hw de le..
y careless..
den 1 mark cuz + dunno y copy down become -...
den 1 mark cuz square root 4 = +/-4!!!!
deng..
den 3 marks wrong cuz less decimal no.
haiz..
i noe hw do all de le..
y so careless....
or else full lo......

den bi..
teac ask us read 'steps by wicked steps'..
nt bad~
bt cant own 1 yet..
i wan finiz a!!!

den go home..
tuition..
nite..
settled everything..
bt actually im quite disappointed of da answers..
jux an apologize..
isit dat hard??

Fri:
haiz..
dun wan go school de le..
bt no choice..
cuz SPM thingy..
luckily gt go..
morning ntg much..
acc mh go stage..

den moral gt jor..
79..
my 1 mark le??

den physics..
im quite happy my paper 3 full marks..
bt my paper 2 a bit low..
bt overall gt 84 la..
luckily..
den recess..
play v yongwai^^
gt 6 times revenge lagi a!!!

den..
after recess..
go dewan..
listen pn lee talk abt SPM de thing..
sumtimes quite funny..

luckily gt come school..

den after dat..
meeting..
haiz..

bek home..
ntg much..
start to try playing enchanted..
rly hard ei..

den tuition..
den organ..
haiz..

Sat:
morning go wushu..
many new students..
sopo gt come oso @@
ish..

den rush to tuition..
rly tired..
den go home..
type paper..
type till very late..
help siawwei do things..
+chat v sailou..
until very late..
help him shun bian revise my bio oso..

very late sleep..

Sun:
morning start oredi very unlucky + unhappy..
mom order McD de hot cakes..
din giv butter n syrup..
ish..

den go tuition..
tot ntg de..
den end up make my feeling worse..

sumbody sit our seats..
so i ask him to change seats lo..
he rly did..
bt wad makes me sad is.....
i tot i gt say out..
is either u dun care or u din hear it..
i hav no idea..
so jux keep it by myself..
rly..

den go hsien de hse..
c his bro play ddt..

den watch tv..
..
...

den go jusco..
'discuss' things..
actually is dem..
i jux feel lik i cant fit in...
maybe i hav diff opinion..
da more opinion..
da more chaotic it'll become..
so jux shut up..
since wad i say might nt be heard..

den da games part..
i've thought of some..
told some ppl some..
bt i guess dey 4gt abt it..
when another person saying da same thing..
i was a bit weird u take it as if is a new idea..
since i've told u abt it..
maybe nt da details..
bt u shud've known..
fine..
as long is da same thing..

jux feel dat i dont belong...

den go eat at a thai restaurant..
da waiter..
rly..
'YENG'..
i was reading da menu..
suddenly he took away..
i was shocked n angry..
+ i dun hav mood dat time..
bt i managed to keep it by myself..
or else..
i'll be making a scene..

den go home..
haiz..
fan a!!!!!

i rly wanna talk to u now..
bt u're havin exam..
rly dun feel lik disturbing u..
anyway gud luck in ur exam..

I'm afraid..
..

...

pls dont be in love v some1 else..

2/3

Wed:

2day..
many din come to school..
since no exam..
i came..
cuz teac wanted to c me..
since no1 is here..
i go in charge for da perhimpunan..

....
....

den physics paper..
haiz..
nt satisfied v my results..
terrible..

den go library..
went dere 1st..
den sit dere..
isabelle was curious y im alone dere..
tot i ponteng..

den slowly..
ppl came..
den..
my heart became down..
so rite now we r nt even frenz??
u chose to sit across da another table dere..
leaving me alone..
since ive ntg to do..
jux sleep..

den woke up..
n went to canteen..
whole recess time.
find f4 dem to acc me..
yauz..
grat anyway..

went bek to class..
look at chem paper..
haiz..
nt satisfied agn..

den i gt bored..
ntg to do..
no1 to talk to..
so end up..
sitting at my seat..
"releasing anger"..

den end up..
i decided to sleep..
dun wanna think..
dis is da worst moment ever..
da school ended..
n den..
sum1 woke me up..
it was da teac..
she asked me y m i so tired..

actually im nt tired..
im jux lonely..

den i looked around..
nt many ppl r left in class..
only shirui dem..
others..
either went bek..
or standing by da door..
quickly i keep all my belongings..
bt my hand cramped..
i cant use any energy..
nt even to lift it..
dat time i felt helpless..
my hands cant move..
my legs cant move either..

da question in my mind is..
wher did all my frenz go??
y din dey w8 for me??
y din dey bother to wake me up??
did i argue v dem??
no..
did i quarrel v dem??
no..
bt wher r dey when i need help????

dis is da worst feeling ever..
somehow..
i feel ashamed of myself..

i rly hav a question..
r we even frenz??

....

1/3

Tues:
dis morning stomach ache..
bt better in the end..

den..
raining..
everything is chaotic..
den went bek to class..
prepare exam..
last spm subject for me..
bc..
da paper is indeed difficult..

finally finiz..
actually m very excited..
cuz..
2day is a special day for me..
can oso consider as a 3rd year anniversary..
i noe exam ends at thurs..
bt i decided to make my move today..

i rly tot everything will be jux fine..
for once..
i rly tot dat i hav da chance..
bt in the end..
everything is da same..
everything was jux a dream..
totally different v da reality..
in the end..
im still a loser..
guess dat dis is my fate..
maybe is oredi a norm for dis to happen..
bt y r tears still coming out of my eyes..
y cant i stop..

i rly dunno wad to do..
everything is meant to be??

rite now..
i rly dunno who i can talk to..
i rly nid sum1..
bt..
i dunno wad can i do..
perhaps..
i'll jux tell myself..

"happy anniversary to me"

jux smile wherever u go..
no1 hav to noe wad u truly feel....