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Wed:

2day..
many din come to school..
since no exam..
i came..
cuz teac wanted to c me..
since no1 is here..
i go in charge for da perhimpunan..

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den physics paper..
haiz..
nt satisfied v my results..
terrible..

den go library..
went dere 1st..
den sit dere..
isabelle was curious y im alone dere..
tot i ponteng..

den slowly..
ppl came..
den..
my heart became down..
so rite now we r nt even frenz??
u chose to sit across da another table dere..
leaving me alone..
since ive ntg to do..
jux sleep..

den woke up..
n went to canteen..
whole recess time.
find f4 dem to acc me..
yauz..
grat anyway..

went bek to class..
look at chem paper..
haiz..
nt satisfied agn..

den i gt bored..
ntg to do..
no1 to talk to..
so end up..
sitting at my seat..
"releasing anger"..

den end up..
i decided to sleep..
dun wanna think..
dis is da worst moment ever..
da school ended..
n den..
sum1 woke me up..
it was da teac..
she asked me y m i so tired..

actually im nt tired..
im jux lonely..

den i looked around..
nt many ppl r left in class..
only shirui dem..
others..
either went bek..
or standing by da door..
quickly i keep all my belongings..
bt my hand cramped..
i cant use any energy..
nt even to lift it..
dat time i felt helpless..
my hands cant move..
my legs cant move either..

da question in my mind is..
wher did all my frenz go??
y din dey w8 for me??
y din dey bother to wake me up??
did i argue v dem??
no..
did i quarrel v dem??
no..
bt wher r dey when i need help????

dis is da worst feeling ever..
somehow..
i feel ashamed of myself..

i rly hav a question..
r we even frenz??

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