4/11 - 6/11

Fri:
din school agn @@
whole day at home..
4gt did wad dy..
another busy night..

Sat:
for once no tuition..
bt going to weii's hse..
her bro full moon~
at 1st rly frustrating..
cuz dad keep blaming on me when he is late..
argh!
fine den..
reach mh hse dy..
feel better dy..
den follow jy to weii hse..
reach dere damn lot ppl man!
den met some new fren..
d new fren rly@@
1st day meet mcm meet jor long time..
bt quite fun la..
wad i cant 4gt d most is..
weii say she cant gt us drink cuz she cant reach it @@
den jy ask..
d hole how big @@
den d guy jux SPRAYED water all over d table..
n im sitting rite opposite..
some hit me!!!
omg==!
rly zd~

bt kinda fun..
den kkm came fetch us go 2nd round..
me, jy, mh oso follow..
den us + kkm, cynthia n chongmeng all sit in dat wira..
omg..
den in petrol station lagi omg..
kkm go take petrol..
chong meng from d bek move to d front..
den wan start car..
rly lol la dem..

den go find kaiyin..
n go green apple 2geda..
7 ppl in 1 wira..
omg..
when crossing a bump damn ci gek..
every1 oso very ci gek @@
behind d we 5 damn san fu 1..

den at green apple rly crazy..
1st time being so crazy man..
playing v mh's hair..
zd..

den play till quite late only bek..
so crazy dat nite..
so high~~

Sun:
even wake up oso feel very syok..
dunno y..

den go tuition..
for 4 hours @@
rly tired..
eyes keep dripping..

bt dunno y..
once bek home..
rly no mood..
see dou wad oso dun lik..
den see more feel worse..
jux feel lik being alone suddenly..

den go out for food..
slept in d whole distance dere n bek..
felt much better..
bek to normal i guess..

den suddenly..
hav d feeling agn..
i feel lik being lost suddenly..
isit bcuz of d pressure from exam..
sumhw my emotions has become unstable for d moment..
dunno wad im thinking currently..
i gt moody of everything..
i gt jealous of everything..
Im rly afraid of SPM rite now..
n yet..
i dunno how to study all d things..
too much for me to handle..
i dunno how to handle my frenship issues..
i dunno how to handle everything rite now..
i rly hope to be free..
free from troubles..
free from nt caring abt others anymore..
no1 und me..
no1 ever will..
even if ppl noe wad i wan..
it cant be fulfilled..

i dunno how right now..
is gud to noe how ppl noe abt u..
jux saw how sum1 wrote abt me..
well..
it make sense though..

i rly hope to change myself..
to sum1 who can ignore forever..
hope i can be a new person when im bek..

my graduation is near soon..
rly hope to at least gt a pic with all of u..
bt d prob is im too shy to ask..

learning to be a better person..
or learning to live alone..
wad to do..
complicated now..