31/1 - 9/2 @Emotional Activities

Dun rly rmb wad happened lately..
jux a simple post maybe with a lot of emotional stuff in the end..

Tues:
a very very very awkward day..
trying to date ppl out..
bt in the end..
all dun ans phone call 1..
omg..
call who oso lik dat..
suddenly hate calling ppl @@!

well...
i dun rly rmb wad had happened dese few days..
darn my memories...

so..
Wed, Thurs, Fri:
ntg much~ XD

Sat:
2day went to shah alam dere..
dunno where..
meet mom's fren @@
wow..
big hse big dog @@

den since im alone..
ntg much to do..
bt dat boy rly..
pro..
who oso can chat..

den ntg much lo..
2day..
my 6th sense has proved to me dat it is PRO!!!
haha..
i can feel dat 'she' a stingy person at 1st sight..
n I AM RIGHT!!!
so small amount d money oso wan lik dat..
haiz..
pathetic~

den at night..
hoho..
bro brought gf home for a while..
awkward moment!
haha..
dunno how to say..

den saw a status..
starting to make me wonder....
....

Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed:
ntg much i guess @@!

Thurs:
morning nid go school..
bt at night..
rly hard to sleep..
keep worrying abt my results..
weird @@!

morning go school..
finally gt my cert.!
w8ed so long..

bt since i gt dis cert...
i dun think i hav any excuse to go bek to school anymore..
bt..
1 of d reason im interested in going bek is to c my frens..
or 'brothers'..
bt 2dy..
sumhw..
dunno hw to describe d feeling..
once best frens..
or maybe jux gud frens..
can be lik strangers..
as if we nvr knew each other..
dat actually hurts..
walking pass without a single greet..
thinking for an excuse to cover d act..

actually..
i rly miss d moments we've been thru..
my personality..
sumhw friends are my priority..
i lik d feeling when im appreciated..
or maybe d person is grateful that dey noe me??
sounds narcissistic..
bt i like it when i noe im sumthin to sum1..
nt jux any ordinary fren..
bt a special 1..

i heard a few times of dis thing dat i wana hear..
bt dat was d past..
n im still living in it..
bt others has moved on to another stage..
while im still dere..
living in my own world..
wondering y others become so different..

m i hoping too much??

i cant w8 to gt my license..
cuz when i gt it..
i can bring my 'brothers' out for tea or anything..
bt then..
dat was months ago..
rite now..
dun think any1 will wanna go anyway..

sounds weird..
bt last night i talked to myself..
telling myself wad kind of person i m..
n wad kind of person i shud be..

doubted..

how i wish..
i can live lik how we interacted in d past..
b4 all d quarrels..
b4 all d 'misunderstandings'..
i hope we r still dat kind of 'brothers' agn..
bt maybe it will nvr happen anymore..
cuz d more i find u all..
d more annoyed u will be..
dunno since when i hav became so annoying...

i rly hope i can find u all agn..
bt maybe u r too busy to even reply d simplest msg..
perhaps i jux hav to adapt v d situation..
maybe it's hard..
bt im forced to...

if i rly left..
will u guys care??
will u guys regret??
maybe..
maybe nt..

hope dis will be d last Emo post.....