22/1 - 28/1

Sat :
morning went to skul..
gt replacement..
kinda tired..
den do addmath whole morning..
learn by myself since absent on da previous week..
den after recess went to dewan for some activity..
lol...

den go hav food..
n went to tuition..
in uniform==
wearing lens..
den teac say no bring glasses can c anot..
lol..

den jux tuition..
nite go rawang hav dinner..
v grandparents..
den hav haircut..
finally can bath..
whole day jor..
very tired..
den play a while mahjong..

Sun :
morning go tuition..
den ntg much..
until night..
go rawang agn..
for reunion dinner with dad's relative..
loooong time only c once..
nt close at all..
whole day chat v bro..
bt kinda funny..
stand dere..
waiting to call all da uncles..
bt dey dun aware dat we r calling them..
so we hav to w8 for 'the moment'..
den shout!
so dey will hear..
bt some mcm shocked..

whole night eat de things nt bad..
bt all mcm thai style..
sour n hot..
weird..
almost half of da dishes oso lik dat de..
bt nice food^^

Mon :
morning ntg much oso..
perhimpunan..
haiz..
let chaikin go up stage..
bt end up..
gt a lil mistake..
since nervous..
is normal la..

bt cant dey be more considering..
we r nt god!
we makes mistakes..
i rly dun und y..
y isit dat hard to giv a chance..
u hav ur 1st time do u??

den late go in class..
bc 2 period oso pass jor..
dey rite calligraphy..
bt i hav to do n pass up da 2nd day..
den pjk..
sienz a..

den ntg much oso...
class as usual..

night time..
do da calligraphy..
better than i expected..
since my riting skil is total omg..
bt kinda satisfied..

Tues:
skul as usual..
ntg different..
haiz...

den nite tuition..
oso abit sienz..

Wed:
physic!
do ripple tank experiment..
kinda nice..
can c da wave..
n i took some pics n vid..
as memory^^
1st time..
bt cnt c many things..

den ntg much agn..
den afternoon whole day doing video..
kinda satisfy v da outcome..
bt..
a bit lag sumtimes..
sumtimes ntg==
lol

Thurs:
BM period din go bek class..
since gt things handle..
carmen wong n raquel sumhw hav sum arguments..
nid settle..
den Bc period fast fast go hav spelling..

den ntg much...
haiz..
teac does not teach us ONCE IN A BLUE MOON..
rly rly rly pei fu jor..

den went out for food v dem..
bt raining a bit..

den bek skul..
for pingpong activity..
we repair da table..
kinda nice..
n funny oso...

den rush rush rush..
go tuition..

Fri:
a very very very stressed yet happy..
yet excited..
yet moody..
yet weird day..

morning..
purposely wake up early early.
so dat i can go to skul n hide laptop..
SH!T!!!!
din bring key for bilik pengawas..
luckily yu zhen has da key..
den hide..

den as usual lo..
f4 some go send mandarin oranges to teac..
others meeting..

den ntg much..
physic draw de interference de diagram..
mine kinda ok^^

den ntg much..
recess..
start to handle meetings thing..
i rly start to gt frustrated..
dis happen..
dat happen..
stressed..
den suddenly i cant take it anymore.
i shouted..
den i ran away==
until i managed to cool down..
i dunno wad i wan to do..
everything is jux blank..
i guess my EQ is low..
i cant handle things enuf...
i noe ppl's opinion bout me..
bt..
no1 saw wad i've given..
n wad i've worked hard on..
i tried my best..
overcome my fear..
bt i dun gt da chance..
wad i've prepared..
ends up..
going in vain..

or maybe..
i dun hav da qualification to be a...
i dun hav da EQ..
i dun hav da courage..
i dun hav everything..
i totally hate myself..

den slept during math period..
since teac nt here..
managed to cool down abit..
den meeting..
i kept finding all da teac dat has been invited..
i gt 1 feedback..
y din remind??
i rly dunno wad to say..

as a student..
i hav no right to talk abt teac abt anything at all..

den end jor..
time for siewwei's surprise!!
asked minghui to handle my laptop..
since i hav to lock da room..
den pui yen helped..
she pulled her to see mrs lee..
say she wan find her..
den mrs lee at 1st dunno wad happened.
den end up..
i told her..
den she helped us too!
omg..
rly gud ei..
den i help settle da vid..

den she came in n saw dat vid..
starting oredi wan cry jor..
nt wad i've predicted..
i expect her to cry in the end..
bt nvm..
dat kind of feeling..
when ur hard work..
managed to touch sum1's heart..
dat kind of satisfaction..
is indescribable..
i was rly rly rly rly satisfied by then..

even mrs lee join us for da video session..
haha..
she's oso interested..

bt hav to leave earlier..
den we hav cake n photo session..
lol..

den bek home..
prepare everthing..
went for tuition..
den bek home..
n rdy for organ lesson..
bek dat time nid w8 parents fetch..
dunno for hw long...
luckily sailou sms v me..
can acc me a while oso..

SAILOU A SAILOU!!!
i rly dunno how to say..
wan tell de oredi tell jor..
wan ask de..
haven rly finiz asking la..

bt i noe u rly rly rly ^^

i rly rly rly admire..

envy..


i duno wad is happening..
wad do u wan..
cant u jux.....
4gt it..
u wont!


bittersweet memories..
only makes me worse....

anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..
lee siew wei!

19/1 - 21/1

Wed :
morning go skul..
still not much voice..
haiz..
den physics..
teac teachin waves..
kinda fun..
den she teach dou longitudinal..
den she keep repeating dis term..
dunno hw pronounce baru nice..
den end up..
she jux say 'ahem' wave..
haha..
den keep ahem wave here ahem wave dere..
very funny man..
den let us c da tacoma bridge..
wah..
collapse dao..
very yeng oso~

den moral ntg much...
bm oso..
jux do do do..
den chemistry..
do experiment..
sodium thiosulphate..
shake shake shake..
c da X go bye bye..
haha..
do jor 5 times==

den bi..
haiz..
rly rly rly......
rly..
rly...
literature..
haha..

den stay bek a while..
take pic for sivik..
very fake de..

den bek home..
haiz..
headache..
nap 1st..
nap nap nap..
den wake up..
headache agn..
den sleep sleep sleep..
den haiz..
deng..
sleep dou dun wanna wake up..

Thurs:
wake up at 9..
LOL..
din hav dinner..
omg??
last meal was at 2.30 p.m. yesterday..
wahhhhh..
den ntg much..
do hw..
den only go tuition..
learn new things..
nice^^

den night..
rush moral project..
Yan oso..
haiz..
late sleep..
TT

Fri:
morning went skul..
gt bek lil voice jor..
^^
den dunno y keep wanna LOL..
den suddenly say gt rumah sukan..
den suddenly choose me jadi pengerusi..
wad????
me??
i suck in sports..
dis is rly unexpectable..
unpredictable..
vegetable==
omg??
suddenly gt 1 more thing fan jor..

den physics...
teac say we late jor..
so cannot do ripple tank experiment..
TT
den study lo..
speaking of echo..
she very funny..
she say if u go up to da mountain n shout..
"I Love Cikgu Zulaili"
u will hear da echo oso..
den da whole class laugh dao~~~~~~~~~~~

den let us play da tuning fork..
whole class squat down n hit da floor..
very funny xia..
took some pics sneakily..
since laz year of experiment..

den done jor...
teac ask xh to change da ringtone..
funny dao..
whole class listening to da songs..
w8ing teac to choose..
LOL

den sj ntg much..
den recess..
hoho..
say yw changing clothes..
den i scare him..
wakakaka..
i gt cam~
wahahaha..
im so evil..
bt din do anything oso..
LOL~

den..
chemistry..
to experiment..
temperature affect ROR..
once agn..
sodium thiosulphate..
do 5 times agn..
wow............
sien..
bt dis time took pic n vid..
cuz as memory..

math..
ntg much..
den bek home..
once agn..
go take pic..

den ntg much....
haiz........
sienz a............
pressure..


bt sum1 2day mcm very happy oo..
hahahahahahaha!!!
yes im talking bout u..
Mr. Boy!!!

n seriously..
u hav probs..
u dun und wad ppl say isit??
ppl oredi reject..
u still wan force it..
ish..
GET A LIFE!!!
di di di di di di di di di!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ish!!!!!!

17/1 - 18/1

Mon :
went skul..
haiz..
nt feeling quite well oso..
weird.
den let waihong go ikrar..
rly rly rly omg..
kesetiaan kepada raja HAHA!
laugh suddenly==
den stop too much jor..
scare dou me==
luckily sook fen later take bek in charge..
haiz..

den ntg much..
went out da skul v mrs lee 2 catch a student ponteng..
den ntg much..
walk here n dere..
a lil bz..
den went bek class..
teac no come..
den w8 pj..
go dewan talk..
~~~~
until recess..

den bek class..
erm..
bm teac say me f5 jor bcame notty..
zd.....
bt 2day rly rly high la..

den add math n math~
woo..
my brain..
filled with no..
luckily teac only come 1 period..
den da 2nd 1 let us go bek!
yesh!!
den go bilik talk v dem..
den send yan bek home..
hav lunch..
den bek home..

den ntg much..
whole day very happy..
played ddt..
suddenly kena invite to pogu normal..
play lo..
finiz jor..
say i wan 核爆..
den a girl say giv me..
woo..
my lucky day~
haha..
den boon seng oso come ask..
y all suddenly wan giv me dis a??
haha!

2day rly rly high..
a lil crazy jor..
feel happy everywher..

Tues:
今天感到很无助··
我的声音发不出来···
早上的时候··
我想叫人帮我做东西··
却没有人听见··
说了很多次···
却没有人给我任何反应！！
真的开始崩溃了···
到bilik pengawas 里躲一下··
去到前还有人问我问题···
我尝试回答···
却力不从心··
结果真的控制不了自己···
发了脾气··
撞了那门··

眼泪既然想掉落了··
可是我却阻止了··
心里真的很痛··
有口难言···
深深体会到···

也许对你们来说···
是个笑话···
可是我心里的感受···
又有谁知道···

12/1 - 16/1

Wed:
2day choose permainan..
i'd chosen ping pong..
laz year wan geh..
bt tell me full o!!!
dis year can in jor..
lagi jadi naib pengerusi..
a lil guo yi bu qu==

haiz..
den ntg much..
erm..
den physic..
no teac come in ^^

or shud i say..
from 1st period until last..
only gt 1 teac come in..
pn kamalia!!
haha
so whole day only study 1 sub~

den ntg much lo..
as usual~~~~

Thurs:
2day choose persatuan..
haha..
2day choose jor sains n matematik..
cuz kinda lik it..
n da teac in charge r 2 teac dat i rly lik^^
so join lo..
gt dou jawatan as naib bendahari==
under ong yik shen==
zd.........
he dare bully me??!!!!!

den ntg much..
pjk den went down..
chat chat chat..
den go up agn..
sj no teac..
den haiz..
study study study..
den say bi no teac..
no nid stay bek..
den go down call dad~
den go mh hse front..
shout jor horn jor oso no1 answer..
==
den gt her no..
gt dou jor..
no wonder during recess nt in service la..
type wrong 1 no..
den finally can jor..
haha..

den bro went to c concert..
kpop~
me??
went tuition..
haha
den went bek..
went to hav kfc as dinner..
v my mom..
^^
rly wish come true..
nice..
den rush bek home..
watch '宫心计'..
haha..
finaly finish da movie..
luv it~
ppl can be so bad^^
muahahaha..

LUV IT!!!!

Fri:
2day choose unit beruniform..
of cuz..
no nid ask oso choose wushu de la^^

bt dis time jadi naib pengerusi..
dunno gud thing anot..
a lil fish..
bt no nid fan so much jor..
haiz..

den chat v sailou dem..
wakaka..
rly a..
still let me hear dou u scold XXX!
wah..

haha..
den ntg much lo~~~~
haiz..
every year..
choose unit beruniform..
i oso stomachache de lo!
ish!!!!
y la==

den ntg much..
as usual..
den add math..
teac gav 6 Q..
me n xh finiz jor..
den teac pass by..
mcm very shocked..
y so faz==

haha..
cuz many still doing..
XD
den go wan photostat..
w8 so long..
end up ==

den after skul..
meeting a while..
~~~~~~~~~~~
den go home..
prac organ..
tuition..
den organ prac..
whole day rly tired lo.....

Sat:
woke up..
headache..
den slept bek..
wushu no go..
tuition no go..
wad oso no go..
slept till 4 sumthin..
haiz..

whole day gone to waste..
headache...

Sun:
woke up..
headache agn..
had breakfast..
den ate panadol..
den went tuition..
felt better..
dat hoe hoe hoe a..
sms him dun reply de!
suan le..
den wan buy cake geh..
buy buy xia..
buy dou so many jor..
haha..

den ntg much..

den in call..
very funny..
went out to get a better reception..
den bored..
so took da mop n play..
den mom bek..
saw me..
n ask me y play v mop..
haha..
damn funny..
den ntg much.........

haiz..
a lot of things happened dese days...
conflicts among frenz..
dunno who to help..
since i oso hav my own opinion..
i guess i'll jux hav to hide dem..

n to all da bastards!
i aint giving any respect to u guys anymore..
laugh if u wan..
insult if u like..
4 words..
AS IF I CARE..
n pls..
STFU!
(copyright:s.weii)

9/1 -11/1

Sun:
morning woke up den go tuition..
k.hoe say wan sit we me..
bt end up put me aeroplane..
haha..

den ntg much..
bek home..

den nite when grandaunt's hse..
had dinner..
had sum talk..
kinda nice~

den bek home..
do hw~
haha..
rush~~

Mon:
went skul..
den prepare for assembly..
find teac..
bla bla bla..
den start..
when negaraku..
omg!!
da flag duno y haven tied up properly..
den he keep trying..
omg..
more n more nervous..
i stand dere oso afraid..
den nvm jor..
start as normal..
den suddenly..
cuiyin fell down..
omg??
beh tahan i guess..
den siawwei brought her to aside..
let her rest..
den her mom came..
haiz..
all cause of sum1!!!

den ntg lo..
went class..
teac left da buku laporan guru bertugas at dewan..
den i took it..
im da guru bertugas~
haha^^
den after recess..
chemistry..
brought it to teac~

den ntg much..
physics no teac^^
do hw~
finiz my eng essay oso~
n also sj nota!
yesh!!!
den afternoon ntg much..
jux play n den do hw..
nite rite my essay..
dunno hw say..
jy in a ship jor wo..
gratz~
happy den gud~

Tues:
morning..
woke up..
damn tired..
haiz..
cuz too late doing hw..
haha~
bad boy~!

den ntg much..
went lab..
find chair..
shun bian go walk walk..
den no teac during bio..
chat~
haha^^

den bm..
recess..
den addmath..
omg..
rly rly tired..
wanna sleep==
bt xh more geng..
haha~

den math..
better~
BC..
ntg much..
learn ming ju..
kinda funny~

den nap..
tuition..
okok lo..
ntg much..
during BM..
dey wanna play exchange status..
n i bcum yan jor..
bu cuo xia..
kinda funny~
haha~!

haiz..
sumthins can only be kept in my heart..
rly wanna say it out..
bt i dun think i will..
since i oredi noe wad will happen..
bt u noe??
i rly hate u for being lik dis..
ARGH!!!

Back to school~

Mon:
1st day of skul oo..
kinda excited..
new bag^^
den go to skul..
stomach ache oo ==
i reached by 7..
tot still early..
bt im wrong..
many ppl reached skul..
omg??
den rush lo..
do dis n dat..
den start perhimpunan..
seems rather long..
saw a lot of old frenz..
haha..

laz year pmr..
20++ ppl str8 A..
said laz year geh double oo..
T_T

den bla bla bla..
5B..
hoho..
den ask ppl book place for us^^
nt bad de place..
went bek to class..
den noe jor result..
hoho..
rly mcm wad i dreamnt..
No. 2!!!!!
damn happy~
xionghui rly 1st==
actually intend wan slowly open..
c gt str8 A anot..
bt once open 1st 1..
ish!!!!
B+ jor..
den jux open..
others all A-/A/A+..
argh!!!
spoilt by the result..

den gt many new teac..
sj change pn rosnah teach jor..
^^
bt dunno hw==

heard many complains from dedikasi n gigh..
shhh~~
haha
cannot say out de..
D n G de sure noe la..
haha
gud luck~

den ntg much lo..
kinda nice..
n funny..
especially physics...
teac separate our seats..
haiz..
none of them together v me..

den ntg much..
bek home..
did ntg special..
as usual..

den i knew da skul rly dunno y..
8A cant enter bestari..
wad??
so bestari nt 1st class jor lo==
weird..

Tue:
or else hw o..
went to skul..
omg..
stomach ache agn==
ish!!!

den ntg much..
learn new stuff..
den BM..
gt back laz year result..
nt satisfied v my paper 1..
bt overall still ok..==

pn noraizn teac addmath..
still so cute==

den math..
1st time..
den teac say 'stories'..

den BC..
teac talk abt da skul condition..
haiz..
1 more chinese class cancelled..
feel pity for them..
haiz..
teac said dou i feel touched..
feel lik crying tim==
omg..
haha

bt happy thing..
sailou dem bek to bestari..
gratz ya..

haiz..
skul kinda complicated now==
haiz..

den ntg much..
nap..
den tuition..
wow..
1st time go in PTI..
wah!!
did i go to da wrong place??
look so new..
n grand..
after renovation..
look so class jor..
haha..
make me feel dizzy..
XP
mcm new environment..
den bi class many ppl oso..

bm class..
make me laugh dao~~~~~~~~~~~
1st..
chen hsien dunno y sot jor..
keep laugh laugh laugh..

den 2nd..
dun wan mention name la..
later scold me..
he/she open mouth..
den burp dou very loud..
i saw dou his/her action..
damn funny man~
he/she tot wanna cough..
bt actually burped..
laugh dou i whole body damn hot..

den 3rd..
talk bout mat rempit..
den hsien ask teac..
y she noe so much abt it..
den teac say she sendiri work dere..
hold da flag n start da match de..
haha..
dis is wad hsien thought in mind oso..
haha!!
laugh dou us..
siao jor..

Wed:
ntg much actually^^
no stomach ache!!
yes!
physics..
no teac^^
den pn rita came on da 2nd period..
omg..
started teaching..

den after recess..
pn rita came agn..
2 periods..
omg??
she taught simple present tense..
in my 2ndary life..
rly 1st time learn it so detail.. @@
teac rly hardworking..
den teac say persistance..
hoho..
xh say ddt oso nid persistance..
playin dat time nid tahan buang air..
haha~

den sivik..
PN KAMALIA TEACH!!!!!
so nice~
so happy..
so fun!!!
hoho
yihui oso lebih alert jor..
since when he care bout sivik==

den teac talk abt pendidikan sepanjang hayat..
den she ask wad is pendidikan..
sum1 answered addmath..
den i think dou every Q she ask..
oso answer addmath..
damn funny~
rly miss her ei!!

den teac ask yan..
hw old she start primary skul??
den she said..
3!!!
omg??
laugh dou us..
she tot kindergarten..
haha~
dis time fishie rly fish jor..
XD
i so bad hor..

den gt SPICA..
haiz.
honestly..
i dun rly like it..
cuz my pic..
all so ugly..
cant blame la..
is my face..
bt da design nt bad oso..
bt gt 1 pic from drama..TT
i wearing towel geh..
omg dao!!!
lik dis oso keluar..
omg...

den 1 more thing..
my name..
in PMR de..
haiz..
wrong spelling..
is da 2nd time i saw dis name..
laz time is form 2 wushu name list..
now c agn..
omg??
apa chong meng JEE!!!!
ishHh!H!H!H!H!

den hui de oso wrong..
Xung Hui..
cant blame vijaya..
cuz her oso wrong..
saktiti==
ish..
lee siew weo oso wrong jor..
T_T
many ppl DL it..

den i noticed 5g de class pic kinda weird..
da direction n da background totally messed up..
weird weird weird..
y i notice dou.??
i dunno==

Thurs..
wow..
2day a rainy day..
whole morning rain..
rain till many ppl late..
i late jor 1o min as usual..
bt still earlier than many ppl==
den ntg much..
jux rain rain rain..
my seat..
cold dao~~~~
keep go hug ppl..
gt warmth..
haha..
nid a blanket soon..

ntg much..
except for moral..
teac giv us pop quiz..
ask us rite out all 36 nilai..
omg..
wrong 1 den pull da ears squat 2 times..
i wrong 15..
ARGH!!
do 30 kali..
in front of class..
very fish..
den c others do more..
funny~
haha..
luckily 4B nt around..
or else sure fish sei..
den red apple do dou damn da face damn red oo!!!

den BI..
teac asked us c da pics..
den personality thing..
im artistic??
bt i feel more pessimistic==

den ntg much..
slept..
den go tuition..
phy n chem..
quite interesting..
hoho

whole day very cold oo..

Fri:
morning..
had a lil meeting v teac..
den ntg much..
stomachache==
haiz..
agn..
ish!!!

den ntg much..
1st 3 periods oso language..
omg..

den teac say..
our skul de news is on newspaper..
yesh!
finally gt ppl noe..

den recess..
ronda at upstairs..
very funny..
yongwai rly rly funny..
his shocked expression rly funny ei!!

after recess..
w8ing pn noraizan come in..
bt hor..
w8 so long pun tak da..
den tot she no come.
1 period over jor..
she came..
da boys dere still playing eggs n train..
omg..
dese games long time no play jor==
haha
den teac came..
den she say she tot is 7th n 8th..
bt actually is 6th n 7th..
haha..
late jor~
den ntg much..
bek home..
KFC~!
yay!
den prac organ..
den tuition..
omg..
wan change time agn??
dun clash v organ !!!
plan dou very susah de le!!!
if clash lagi..
i stop organ jor..
TT
den bek home..
dinner..
den prac agn..
haiz..
2 weeks..
no prac..
haiz.
sure let teac scold..
so muz finish half a song..
den at least ntg lo..
den go..
hoho..
luckily ntg..
say i keep 4gt double notes..
den teac teach agn..
bt rly susah lo..
ish!!!!
den bek home..
ntg much..
wan sleep early geh..
bt chat dou oso late jor..
haiz..

Sat..
woke up..
prepare..
go wushu..
coach no come..
prac on our own..
haiz..
susahnya~
den rush to tuition..
haiz..
tired..
during sj..
rly feel lik sleeping lo..
too tired jor..

den bio ntg much..
quite alert..
gt rocky eat..
haha...
let me dou mcm toothpick jor..
den add math..
learn integral..
nice~
bt susah==

den bek home..
went dinner..
new place..
nt bad..
da service rly gud..
rly friendly..
maybe cuz nt many customer..
haha..
bt nt bad la..

nite play mahjong..
hoho..
won 22.2 fake money..
even real de oso won happy..
cuz oso from mom de..
bt gt win den happy jor la..
jux a game==

lately keep teach ppl do addmath..
kinda satisfy when do rite..
bt kinda sad when dunno hw do..

many things happened bt i dun feel lik saying jor..
no matter hw i hate it..
haiz..
jux stop acting front of me..
tired of acting too..
ish==

haiz..

all i can say is it was..
enchated to meet u~~~
haha..
siao jor..
of cuz la..
whole week de post oo..
so many things happened..
1 week in school..
rly feel lik mcm 1 month jor..
omg..
so long la..

n lastly..
u noe who..
tahan ba..
anything can find me geh..
i sure listen uu ngam ngam ngam..
wun complain de^^
hehe be ur listener~^^
dun sad ya!

37th.. last day..

2day..
is kinda a tough day..
after thinking for 1 day..
i finally made my decision..

i terribly sry bout it..
is nt ur fault..
is all mine..
i jux cant gt over myself..
i felt a lot of pressure coming on me..
i cant rly take it..

yes..
im rly weak..
mentally n physically..
i oso dunno hw..
bt..
i jux improve myself..

im sry for being such a jerk..
bt i did nt lie..
i rly did luv ya..
bt everything aint going rite..
perhaps being frenz is enuf for da 2 of us..
or maybe sis..
i lik da way u care abt me..
bt rite now..
i guess i rly hurt u alot..
bt i rly hope we can still be friends..
actually..
u motivated me alot..
i rmb da time u talk abt my future..
i was rly touched abt it..
even though is kinda awkward..
bt i rly appreciate it..

thx..
for giving me my 1st time..
n caring me during dese holidays..
n im rly sry abt it...

n dun k wad other ppl do to u..
jux be happy..
u still hav ur true bez frenz..
no matter wad happens..
u can still find me..
i'll try to help..

sry..
n thx..

Our 36th day

ntg much today..
jux to say..
2day gt many brain activities..
thnking..
abt everything..

my mind..
lots of conflict..
im tired of it..
rly tired..
it is da 1st day of 2011..
bt..
nt a very nice opening..

for many times i feel lik crying..

my words r nt as persuasive as others..
wad i said is ntg compared to him..

i tried my best in everything..
in everyway..
bt..
i jux cant let it go..

i hate myself..
very much...
i rly do..
why m i lik dis..
i F*kin hates it!!!!!!!!!!

perhaps i shud jux keep it by myself..
when i gt sick..
wad do i gt..
well done..
congratz..
wtf???!!!!!
i seriously hates it..
bt no1 understands..
fine..

wad can i do now..
conflicts..
sumbody help me..