Our 36th day

ntg much today..
jux to say..
2day gt many brain activities..
thnking..
abt everything..

my mind..
lots of conflict..
im tired of it..
rly tired..
it is da 1st day of 2011..
bt..
nt a very nice opening..

for many times i feel lik crying..

my words r nt as persuasive as others..
wad i said is ntg compared to him..

i tried my best in everything..
in everyway..
bt..
i jux cant let it go..

i hate myself..
very much...
i rly do..
why m i lik dis..
i F*kin hates it!!!!!!!!!!

perhaps i shud jux keep it by myself..
when i gt sick..
wad do i gt..
well done..
congratz..
wtf???!!!!!
i seriously hates it..
bt no1 understands..
fine..

wad can i do now..
conflicts..
sumbody help me..