12/8

Fri:
2day is a special day..
nt for me of cuz..

Happy birthday~!


bt for me..
it's nt a gud day..
nt quite..


morning..
open my camera..
damn..
cant work anymore..
rly hate it..
it has lived for around 4 years..
finally..
it died today..
few days ago..
it was completely okay..
it was once sick..
bt then..
it was recovered..
bt who knows..
everything came in the sudden..
haiz..

den..
helped teac v da plkn thing..
used around 4 periods to finiz everything..

den..
recess..
dey celebrated yan d bday...
dey did a lot of things..
she must be touched..
a cake..
some bread which make up words..
wow..
mh say still gt 2 more present haven buy yet tim..

suddenly sumthin strike my mind agn..
pull down my mood..
agn..

den sumthin worse happened..
i went to da canteen..
i saw 4 ppl..
to be exact..
4 prefects..
i asked a question..
nobody replied..
ok..
maybe din hear..
i shouted!
agn n agn!
nt once..
bt twice or thrice..
i felt very shit!
da worst is..
1 of them looked at me?!!!
i repeated wad i said..
end up walk away as if im transparent!
wtf??!!
respect much?
none of u reacted!
wad r u?
animals??
deaf or sumthin??

dis rly spoiled my mood..
lately i've became very emotional..
once agn..
i broke down..
bek to class..
jux lay down...
let everything out..
cool down..

i feel..
dis world is terribly unfair..

honestly..
i hate acting..
bt i hav to..
to smile..
when in my heart it hurts..
bt who knows..
more importantly..
who cares..
jux when i wan to tell sum1..
all i gt is ignorance..

at least i managed to keep my promise..

y m i still treating other ppl gud?
whereas dey treat me harshly..
i jux wan sum1 to talk v..
bt no..
no1 was dere with a helping hand..

no1 understand how i truly feel..
did i do anything wrong?
i did my best to fulfill every1's wish...
trying to treat them nice..
trying to be caring..
bt..
in the end..
i gt ntg in return..
yes..
maybe giving doesnt mean we shud gt anything in return..
bt..
is it too much for me to hope for sum1 who cares?
i noe i expected too much..

perhaps i shud be harsh n ignorant?
bt dis is nt my personality..
by then, im nt myself anymore..
shud i rly be sum1 im nt??
wad can i do?
i rly nid sum1 to talk to...