4/8 - 9/8

Thurs:
ntg much..

Fri:
still da same..

Sat:
ntg much oso..
another tired day..
nite parents go dinner..
bt..
im still lazy..

Sun:
after tuition go hav haircut..
dinner abit @@
nvm..
haiz..

Mon:
Pn. Tay's retirement..
prepared a speech..

gav my speech..
i was holding my paper..
den dere was no stage..
in the end..
my hands were trembling..
bt managed to control it..
bt i was speaking quite fast..
at least clear?

den after dat chat v wilson..
"counseling session"..
bt i was annoyed by sum1 else..
it's nt da 1st time..
everytime i talking to sum1..
he will jux come around n talk to him/her..
hello?
ever notice my presence?
jux barge in rudely..
u dont even respect me as ur senior..
fine..

den i was talking to him..
u still come here n say dis say dat..
i ask u to leave..
u still wan to say me "huai ren"??
wtf?
who do u think u r?
ever heard of arahan ketua?
i haven complain u guys weren't doing a good job..

if dere's any other ppl wud lik to hav 'counselling session' v me..
come find me..
i'll welcome u..
bt 1st..
make sure u r doing things rite..
or else..
DONT COMPLAIN AT ALL!
do wad ur duties r..
nt nosing around other ppl's stuff!

den i jux said everything im suppose to say..
perhaps dey r nonsense..
perhaps dey r useful??
anyway dose r my true experience..
n i've said wad i wanted..
now to leave or not is ur decision..
appreciate every chance u hav..
dun waste it..

Tues:
dere's ntg to say much in class..
bt 2day is an emotional day..

it started all well..
until i found out sumthin..
i thought n thought abt it..
i felt unfair..
during perhimpunan..
i managed to control my tears..
bt in class..
i cant..
bt luckily no1 was aware of it..
at least i did it silently..
felt a lil better..

during recess..
i feel lik being alone..
im afraid i will noe summore things..
bt still..
some thoughts kept crawling in my mind..
agn..
tears drop..
trying to hide it..

it falls furiously..
bt..
i felt alone..
da thoughts kept running in my mind..
i felt dat dis world is terribly unfair..

when i wanted to find sum1 who cares..
i feel alone..
y r dey special??
wad i've done dat is nt enuf..
i rly dun understand..
how can i fake my emotions anymore..
da more i fake..
da worse i felt..

im tired of my life..