12th, 13th day of waiting..

12th day of waiting..Thur
is a normal day..
a day with jealousy n sadness..
dunno is sadness or happiness..
~~~
bio..
teac let us saw da vids of mother giving birth..
it was an total OMG moment..
every1 is lik wow..
wooo..
aww!!
ewww~
den ask dem next time wan "ikut pintu or tingkap"..
luckily i wasnt dat sick..
or else i wud be vomiting already..
bt..
after watching it..
hav da urge already..
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den went for PJ..
jux play 1 round..
for fun~
den jux walked around n chatted v cy..
long time no chat jor..
haha

den recess..
BI..
went to library..
den finally paper 1 results..
149/160 for both papers..
caleb gt 150/160..
omg..
den convert to 100%
mine 93.125..
his 93.75..
so he gt 94..
i gt 93..
all cuz of 1 mark..
he gt no.1 in BI..
TT
bt i lose in a happy way..
cuz i seldom read..
bt he does..
is normal for him to be better..
jux..
a lil disappointed..
bt is ok..
den continue my day..
somehow..
kinda lonesome..
n feel dat my life has become dull agn..
i think...
haiz..

bek home..
after bath..
den start to copy files to pendrive for him..
due to my CPU is 'under construction'..
da file i've prepared in dere is gone..
den i hav to use my laptop file..
to modify agn..
den move here move dere..
check here check dere..
den on my bro's com oso 2 check..
susah betul..
tapi nvm..
time flie when u're bz..
suddenly no time jor..
so only slept for a while..
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den go tuition

den mr.SaiMun knew i gt highest in physics..
^^
bt kinda weird to take it..
feeling lik it shudn't belong to me..
haiz..
dunno wad im thinking anyway..
jux do wad nature asks..

den i was actually shocked when i saw dat essay..
indeed i was kinda touched..
even though dere r some fiction stories abt me..
bt..
i rly appreciate it..
thx..
YES.. u noe im talking abt u..^^

13th day of waiting..Fri
sejarah was..
haiz..
sad..
cuz my result..
65 only..
actually dey calculated wrongly..
dey counted till 66..
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den nvm..
1 mark..
den i saw y suzie's answer same with mine bt she was correct..
so i ask teac..
den teac say 1 can 1 cannot..
den end up suzie minus 1 mark..
den nvm..
i add jor 1 mark...
add in total..
oso 65..
damn!!
add jor = no add..
bt made suzie lose 1 mark..
haiz..
bt dis time de total marks..
i lose to them A LOT!!
i dun think i can manage to reach top 5 anymore..
maybe nt even 10..
haiz..
let god do wad it wanna do..

addmath class kinda funny..
bt ntg much..
bt nt as funny as physics..
cik zulaili very funny..
keep saying stories..
bt in a funny way..
even she's teaching seriously..
bt i feel funny..
den laz 5 minutes..
teacher opened a slide show of cats..
so cute!!
(some la)
den she said many jokes oso..
haha..
physics kinda fun...

den after skul..
stay back..
kinda bored..
since ntg much to do..
sitting around..
walking around..
alone~
maybe gt ppl..
bt i jux cant mix into deir conversation..

m i being too friendly??
until nobody pays respect to me anymore..
to them..
im more lik a fren..
perhaps is a gud thing..
bt is nt when next year arrives..
shud i change..?

indeed i started to put down a lot of things..
such as da stapler thingy..
ya..
is jux a stapler..
bt all i care is ethics..
fine..
jux let it be..
at least i did wad i promised..
to let my hatred towards others leave me..

bt dere r 2 things that i cant put down..
1st is...
2nd is...
if u truly understand me..
u might noe..

r u here to fill my heart with colours??
or miseries??
somehow i jux feel annoyed by it..
everytime..
same thing happens over n over agn..
y cant it jux end..
it might..
perhaps years later..
decades or centuries..

Jealousy
Anger
Sadness
Miseries
Ignorance
Negligence
Envy

dey will all be kept in my heart..
i cant show it out..
even though i wanna tell..
i cant..
is a kind of suffer to do dat..
i wish i can leave dese miseries..
A.S.A.P.
haiz..

Life Brief Candle..