141st, 142nd, 143rd day of waiting

141st day of waiting..Sun
morning woke up..
den prepare go tuition..
ntg much..
den bek..
damn hungry..
still wan fetch grandpa dem..
skip~
nite keep revise bio2..
haiz..

142nd day of waiting..Mon
go skul..
prepare for assembly..
dis time no event..
so tot can be faster..
den jux w8 for speech..
getting longer n longer..
say we shudn't waste time..
study more..
bt now..
ish==

den finally over..
still hav 1 hour^^
bt hor..
my dream let a teac spoil jor..
she wan all ppl to sing n ikrar agn..
damn..
my time to do revision..
gone!!
den chem 1..
shit!
no bring OMR n testpads..
borrow~
or shud i say ask dem return bek..
XD
chem..
at least still can choose..
nt too bad..
den while doing..
suddenly feel dou sumthin behind me..
omg!
is my bag..
deng!
no bring out dou..
keep blocking it from teac's sight..

den recess n bio2!!
not much time..
TT
den exam..
sum still managable..
shit!
lipids..
no read dou!!
TT
14 marks go bye bye..
damn sad..
bt haiz..
at least essay still can simply rite..
gt a lil idea..

den bek home..
nap..
den study for bio1 n addmath..
no go tuition..
ponteng agn..
2nd time jor..@@

den while reading bio.
chatting v sum1..
listening to "enchanted"..
suddenly..
hav da urge to cry..
den cant control..
rly cried out..
so switched off da lights..
went to bed..
n cried whole night..
i rly miss da times we've been together..
i rly wanna be with u..
bt..
i noe we r impossible..
u will nvr like me anymore..
im trying to change..
bt guess dat i will nvr win him..
i wont be as gud as him..
..

143rd day of waiting..Tue
omg..
bilik pengawas..
became so small..
bt very tidy..
lik a canteen..
dunno y even though very dislike..
bt feel ok abt it..
mayb cuz tidy..
n can c dou da prefects kinda united..
^^
den exam..
addmath 2..
omg..
sum questions cacat de..
skip dem~
since choose only few to answer de..
luckily still can..
den bio1..
oso..
many dunno de..
teac still say easy==
den slept for 10 min..
automatically woke up..
den check..
den pass up..
finally laz 3rd sub jor..
SJ!!

den afternoon chat v sailou..
make me think dou after SPM wan hw change..
maybe bcum very wild..
maybe not..

den tuition..
teac very very late only come...
help sy erase da things on her sj book..
damn many de lo..

den bek home..

...

getting bad tempered lately..
gt many things..
suddenly feel lik shud be kept in heart..
cuz saying out will only let ppl think is a joke..

all i wanted is jux a simple thing..
bt..
ARGH!!!
y m i being so bad tempered!!
lil things oso become so angry..

do i rly mean wad i said??
dun think so..
perhaps..
i shud only hide my feelings to myself..
no1 wud even care abt it..
blogging will be my only way to release all my stress..
perhaps dis will be da only way..
even though i noe no1 wud care..
all i can say is fine...