16/9

Fri:

Title: "Another wrong decision"

2day can be considered a busy day..
morning woke up early in the morning..
went to d market v mum..
bought some chicken wings..
den makan..
saw a very special cat..
quite cute bt fierce..

den went for lunch..
walked around whole aman puri to look for candles..
den drove to sumwhere near my hse..
gt sell..
bt i dunno how big..
so bought 2 only..

den went yan hse..
w8..
w8..
w8..

den start mahjong..
play play xia no mood liao..
stomachache..

den ntg much..
heard mh bought 10 boxes==!
lol!

den dey arrived..
start setting up d fire..
first time for me..
quite an experience..

den w8ed for a long time..
finally can dy..
den start burning food..
actually i lik a few food..
raining whole nite..
quite windy..

den after cleaning up..
went out to play with candles..
under d drizzling rain..
quite fun......

den ntg much..
went bek..

from today..
i saw quite sum things..
humans nature in exact..
i shud've known..
it all r d same..

!
dunno how to say abt it..
im rly disappointed..
d way u do things..
d way u treat ppl..
u r already doing it dy..
i jux asked for a lil favour..
wad did i gt..
complains!
isit dat hard to jux add a lil thing?
it din even waste any energy if urs!
how many favours u asked from me??!
did i ever complain once??!
i nvr turn down d favours u asked for..
bt wad u said rly made me..
disappointed..

@
d way u treat ppl..
i rly doubted..
do u even noe wad is manners??
at least pay some respect man..
no matter how much u think it's funny..
still..
at least show some respect..
dun take things for granted..
wad given to u is nt necessary..
u dun deserve dose at all..

#
i dunno wad to say d most..
is..
i tried my best..
bt it turns up d same..
i tried..
bt..
guess dat'll jux be it..
dunno wad's in ur mind..
dunno wad's in my mind either..
at least i gav it a try..
wan it or nt..
dat's ur decision..

$
somehow i cant communicate as much i thought i wud v u anymore..
it jux feels different..
i tried..
bt..
it jux do..

=
perhaps i jux cant "FIT IN"..
was i being over-caring?
i try to care how other feels..
n leaving myself bhind..
is dis another wrong decision??
perhaps i shudn't hav think of dis thing..
it din turn up as well as i think..
at least..
nt for me..
maybe i jux dunno how to treat ppl as dey wan it..
im nt funny..
nt cool enuf or anything..
im jux ntg..
ntg to be seen or heard..

I should've known..
everything will nvr turn up good for me..
nvr..