28/9

Wed:

"Believe In Yourself"

2day went to a motivational talk..
by Adam Khoo..
a successful person from a not so not so gud past..

dis talk motivated me a lil..
believe in urself..
with the help of believing..
we can actually achieve sumthin we cant..

bt even dis is a motivation talk focused on studies..
bt to me..
i take it the other way..
de friendship way..


u noe..
rite now..
i jux cant be happy..
i kept dreaming of things dat will not happen..
literally dreaming..
when i wake up..
it makes me feels worse..


every time i w8ed..
bt in the end..
i jux put down my pride and all..
i find u all..
bt when d reactions i saw from u guys..
it makes me feel lik a fool..
i dun think any of d previous heads done dis kind of things b4..
i wonder y im doing it..
i think is a joke..
d ketua pengawas keep bugging me~!
keep finding me n saying nonsense..
i think maybe dis is hw u guys feel..

i ignore my dignity n all..
bt in the end..
i guess im jux a joke rite??

I'm trying to change..
I've tried a lot of times..
I still can't find the RIGHT me..

right now..
Im trying my best to just ignore everyone..
i try my best not to find u all..
unless u all find me..
It's hard for me..
bt I'll try my best..
I can't gain friendship..
at least..
i will try to regain my dignity..
i dun wanna be a fool..
finding u all bt in the end..

I'll only treat dose who find me..
to others whom I once rly cared..
bye..
i noe u guys wun even notice my presence..
is jux me who is thinking too much..

it's right..
ppl hav different way of thinking..
wad i thought is important might seemed to be ntg to u guys..
I'll jux hav to change...