30/9

Fri:

"I felt it"

laz day of september~

morning as usual..
den our class used as exam class for PMR..
so we nid chnge class..
b4 recess 5J..
after recess 3B..
rly bek to paleolithic era..
hidup berpindah randah..
LOL..
sivik gt d marks nt bad..

no check ei..
lucky XD
den BC..
finally gt d paper..
yay~
gt a 75..
fun~!

den BM~
erm..
finally no result..
thank god..
gt 65..
so ngam~~

recess..
ntg much..
ohya..
d arrogant u..
yup~
i ignore arrogant ppl~
say wadeva u wan..
haha~

den went to class..
bi..
haiz..
CALEB!!
oways u!!!
rawr!!

den pizza has arrived~
cool~!
bt hav to go to physic lab..
ntg much dere..
gt bek addmath paper 2..
wow..
teac count wrongly..
less 1 mark..
from 89 to 89.5 which is equal to 90~
weee~
quickly find teac~

den pigi makan pizza~
wooo~!
(wrong sequenxe,
shud be eating before finding teac @@)

sumhw..
i jux feel a moody??
cuz seeing sumthin agn??
tried to relax..
after adding marks..
jux went out n find dem..
no appetite dy..
blame it on d pizza la..
at least gt makan..

den went bek v xh..
go c d interview thingy..
sit dere n chat v few ppl..
bt my brain kept wandering around..
i cant stop thinking of dose things..
baba think im transparent de..
TT

den ntg much..
join d interview part..
sit down n listen wad dey say..
kinda funny though..
compared with prefects..
dat 1 more horrible..
no1 dares to laugh @@

den went home..
still..
mind kept thinking abt d things..

tuition..
heard yihui said..
i gt no.3~
wow..
kinda happy..
i lik 3 ^^
sumhw is my fav no..
once agn..
CALEB!!
no. 2!!
rawr~!
gonna make sure on tuesday~!

den ntg much..
during organ lesson..
argh..
dunno y cant concentrate..
keep making mistakes..
wrong wrong wrong..
feel so urgh~!!!

den ntg much..

emotional part..
dunno i've gt thru it or wad..
from waiting..
hatred grew too~
well..
ppl can be ppl..
y kept rmb-ing all d past??
every1 makes mistakes~
u too~
dis is how we learn..
so y keep thinking of it..
i jux dun quite understand it..
i can 4gt wad happened laz time..
y nt u?

fine..

ppl r ppl n sometimes it doesn't work out..

dis is d song dat kept me up from falling down!


den 2 some ppl..
ya..
i do care abt ppl n try to comfort when dey r sad enuf..
well..
dis is d past..
rite now..
u aint d boss of me anymore..
if i offer my caring n u dun wan it..
dat's fine by me..
bt..
dun expect me to listen to u anymore..
i wun giv a damn of it..
im nt ur toy..
i dun care wad kind of freakin' mood u hav dere..
u dont own me..
dun u think i will even wanna bother wad happened to u..
since u weren't even with me at all when i needed..
wadeva la..
jux a term..
actually quite disappointed..
bt..
fine la..
oredi biasa..
since im nt d #1 fren in ur heart..
i say wad oso useless de la..
w8 ur #1 comfort u la~!

well another matter..
jux to mention..
i feel dat im totally different when im depressed n not..
when im depressed..
i think dat almost everything in d world is wrong to me..
bt when im trying to comfort sum1..
i can actually think of a lot of positive things..
which even happened on me b4..
dis is weird dat i nvr thought of dat..
im totally diff~

bt anyway..
if ya think im dun hav d right to speak dose words..
say so..
at most i jux shut up~
best for every1~

well~
today is kinda a moody day for me..
bt..
nt dat depressed after all..
3 cases in 1 day..
well..
im stil standing..
cant bliv dat..
i shud be falling by now..

*1
rite now..
im tired of being so 'tolerate'??
u wanna hate me..
fine by me la..
i wun beg u anymore~
u may say I've changed..
bt u nvr knew u urself hav changed also..
sick of it dy la..
anyway..
b4 ending this..
I'll still jux APOLOGIZE for wad i did n said..
bye!

*2
u just let me down..
since im ntg to u dy la..
i dun hav to rly care wad happened rite??
who do u think u r anyway..
call me when u nid..
n leave when u dont??
LOL!

*3
SPEECHLESS!!
ish..
wadeva i say is nt gud de la..
dun listen la!



Trying my best not to care anymore..

bt still..

I will make u all regret for nt appreciating wad i did b4!
(mcm perasan sgt)

bt dat's how i feel n dis is how i write..

Grow up & CHANGE!!!