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Sat:

"The Truth"

cant rly sleep well..
keep waking up every hour..

well..
today's a lil awkward..
while tuition..
i dun feel bored or sleepy at all..
in fact..
studying is quite fun..

hours of tuition jux passed..

well..
the truth..
1 thing every1 wish to know..
bt once we know it..
we will hope that we dont know it at all..
dis is wad humans r like..

to some1..
jux to tell u..
if i dun k abt u at all..
i wun even wanna mention anything here..
i can jux ignore u lik every1 else..
bt instead..
i din..
i intended to apologize once more..
since maybe b4 dis wasn't too sincere enuf..
bt..
i guess u wun nid it anymore..
jux to tell u..
d feeling u hav now..
i had it b4.
bt mine turn out bad..
so i hope u wun hav d same..
bt ppl nvr learn when dey nvr fall..
jux b careful..
ppl may nt seem to be wad we want..

life is rough..
u nvr noe wad will happen next..
dun run on slippery floor..
or else u will fall easily..
take k..

some2..
well..
thx for acc-ing me all dese times..
even though sumtimes we argue..
bt..
i've learned to bear with it..
n try to change..
well..
as for wad u said laz nite.
i dunno wad to say abt it..
thanks??
sorry??
all i can say is..
dun waste too much time on worthless things la..
n i rly tried my best to help...
hope dey helped..

some 3..
thanks to u..
i felt a lil better chattin v ya..
u showed me many funny things oso..
haha..
well..
thx anywy..

some4..
d reason y i asked u for opinion abt me..
is bcuz i dun wan u to feel dat im annoying or sumthin..
well..
i may nvr noe wad u truly feel..
so..
if u nvr speak out..
i will nvr noe..
bt at last..
u speak out..

d reason i find u often is cuz i felt comfortable speaking to u..
talking about my problems..
or other things..
bt..
maybe to u is different..

well..
is gud to noe d truth..
i noe i may be a lil annoying..
even sumtimes i felt dat way..
bt is courageous of u to say dat..
n since u've said dat..
i think i noe wad im supposed to do..
i wun find u so often..
perhaps u will be happier without me..


every1 wants to noe d truth..
bt d truth is ugly..
it will only break sum1's heart..
(good conditions excluded)

as for me..
i think I've written everything i felt here in this blog..
reasons..
bcuz i wan ppl to know how i truly feel..
wad i lik..
wad i dislike..
ppl may say dat im courageous..
cuz ppl may hate me cuz of dat..
bt..
if our friendship cant pass thru dis simple obstacle..
imagine if dere's a bigger problem..
it will be worse..
only if both tolerates..
d bond will be stronger..
im ready to tolerate..
bt r u??
Is a risk..
bt I'm willing to take..
i dun wanna act all d way thru..
or else if a quarrel happens..
everything will be far worse..


i think im a great actor..
no1 sees the problem from d outside..
ppl may think im cheerful..
or happy..
bt actually im nt..
obviously..

i wanted to act lik im strong..
dun care abt everything at all..
bt deep down..
i mind..
i mind every single bit abt it..
is jux dat u dunno..

in fact..
i dun hate any1 now..
i jux hate myself..
for being overreacted..
i admit for being wrong sumtimes..

im an actor..
in front of u..
i may look happy n all..
bt deep down..
im nt..
jux in split sec.
i can totally change my emo.

im a liar too..
i keep lying to myself..
everything is alright..
when everything is nt right at all..

i admit..
i hav a gud life..
is jux dat i haven appreciate it all yet..
cherish every1 around u..
u may nt noe when u nid dem 1 day..

it's d 1st day of Oct..
n yet..
life is still d same..
i shud change..
im nt suitable in playing mind war games..
i cant take d challenge..
im oways d softhearted 1..

hav u ever felt dat..
u wanna leave this school str8 away??
well..
i do..
nt surprising..
bt sumtimes..
when i think dat..
i may nt hav d chance to meet u guys anymore..
i will feel kinda sad..
u may say dat we can come out n meet..
bt how many ppl will actually do dat..
sumhw..
i dun feel lik leaving too..
conflicts..

U'll nvr noe how mch im hurt..
never..
nt even i've told u..