Our 33th, 34th and 35th day

33rd day.. Wed
ntg much happened..
whole day at hse..

34th day..Thur
ntg much too..
happy birthday!!!
wish u always happy~
knew sumthin dat is kinda unhappy..
bt is all jux a misunderstanding..
sry..

35th day.. Fri
morning..
woke up..
den go to skul..
intend to help out..
bt in da end..
ntg to do much..
den hav meeting..

den bek home..
den prepare go jusco~
late jor bit..
den reach jor..
walk walk..
den she wan eat..
den go secret recipe lo..
omg!!!
saw chee yun dere..
den she ate dere..
eat so slow..

den go walk walk..
sienz..
den 2nd time..
pass by..
secret recipe agn..
da same seat cheeuyun sat..
now bcum kahyee jor..
omg...
y so gt fate de==

den i ate zinger crunch agn..
den went to watch gulliver's travel..
very nice..
actually is very funny..
hsien laugh dou very serious..

den sumthin happened for da 1st time..

kinda happy for it..

den dad brought us for food..
nt bad~

den we go desa park city..
go countdown..

at 1st..
rly high~
i wanna shout..
i wanna dance..
i wanna jump..
i wanna play..
bt jy was down..
sooner or later..
i gt influenced..
i feel dat way too..
i feel moody..

thoughts were in my mind..
thinking..
thinking..
thinking..
making me feel more sad..
bt nobody knows wad i truly feel..
wad is in my mind..
i hope..
dere's sum1 dat can listen to me..
support me..
n advise me.

den wan find ppl..
walk walk walk..
den end up walk alone..
rly no mood dat time..
even countdown..
every1 is shouting..
n screaming..
me??
faking..

haiz..
rly no mood..

Our 27th, 28th, 28th, 30th, 31st, 32nd day

27th day..Thurs
very early wake up agn~
w8-ing for results..
hoho..
form 3 getting results 2day~
very very very gan jiong..
y??
cuz mine oso haven gt==

den w8 w8 w8..
suddenly she call me..
all i can hear is..
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
keep shouting..
i can barely hear wad she say..
hohoho..
gt str8 A wo~
gratz gratz~
den i ask her to help me hit sailou..
haha..
y??
cuz break promise agn..
no find me..
den unexpectedly..
he called me..
haha..
jux nid a msg saje..
bt call..
nvm la..
lagi bagus~
hoho..
still wan lie to me oo..
say 4A..
kinda haiz de..
bt hor..
when say 7A!
kinda happy..
bt sad oso..
stupid BM cant gt A..
im sure u're happy..
bt if for me..
i will very xin tong..
T_T

anyway..
congratz to u 2!!!
rly happy n proud~
den u guys go mid valley..
sleep at home..
for hours..

at night..
knew another news..
bt is i ask only noe de la.. T_T
da main point is congratz ya sailou!!!!!!!!
rly happy for u~
hohoho
best christmas present ever??

den i rmbed sumthin..
laz years' today..
we were still havin a sleepover..
at sy's hse..
w8-in..
anxious..
sumthin happened oso..
bt all jux memory~

28th day..Fri
ntg happened much..
i rmb laz year..
i was rly happy..
getting my result^^
bt dis year..
wher is my result??

den mom n dad go johor..
aunt n rick came..
i was sleeping..
dey bang da door..
hahahaha..
den dey brought me to jusco...
eat teppanyaki~
1st time..
nt bad lo..
den dunno is i sensitive or wad..
mcm gt ppl spying on me..
haha..
or gap-ing me==
perasannya budak ni!!!!
hohoho

den saw many ppl..
many dat i noe==

den go grandma hse..
sleepover..

29th day..Sat
ntg much..
woke up..
cook breakfast v aunt..
haha..
da eggs...
1st nt nice..
2nd nice^^

den share food v her~
w8 grandpa bring food bek~
^^

den hav haircut~
n w8 to go bek..
den dinner..
ntg much~

den mahjong..
won a lil~
nice~

30th day..Sun
ntg much..
whole day sien~~~~~~~

31st day..Mon
1 month anniversary..
hoho^^
ntg much..
stay at home saje..
bt on call..
kinda funny..
bt hot==
ntg much~~

32nd day..Tue
morning woke up..
w8 w8 w8..
den go sogo~
many malays oo~
bt b4 reaching..
passed by bangunan sultan abdul samad..
gt 1 traffic light..
da light red jor.
car stop..
bt hor..
i saw some tourist din cross..
cuz da pedestrian light still red==
dey very follow da law..
haha..
feel pity for them..

den went dere..
kept sneezing..
omg..
saw many clothes..
bt many factor make me dun wanna buy..
even though some nt bad..

end up..
bought 1 t shirt, 3 undies, n 1 skul shoes..
nt bad..
bt i wan more clothes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T_T

argh!!!..
my nose..
get well la..
i wan go out on 31st ei!!!

our 18th, 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th, 26th day

4gt blog agn==

18th day.. Tue
ntg much..
afternoon woke up~
hehe..
prepare~
den go fetch ppl~
at kfc dere..
den go kf de hse..
at maluri..
omg..
search dao we lost~

den at last reach jor..
we wan giv mh a surprise~

den we prepare all our presents dere~
dey very funny de..
prepare card no bring gum..
haha..
den prepare until dey came..
den we start having dinner..
w8 for dunno hw long==
at last can eat..
den we eat..
keng sam si..
n ate..
da moon kinda nice..
nt round bt at least bright..

den gt 1 prob jor..
while every1 chatting..
den we all saw sumthin flying towards xh..
den suddenly every1 jump away..
wad??
i tot is a moth..
bt is a cockroach!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg!!!
in his bowl..
den hsien n xh keep hitting it==
omg..
da cockroaches fly!!!
omg==
horrible terrible vegetable..
as long it dont touch me im ok==
bt lizard..
nt my kind of things==

den dey went out n see..
i followed..
omg==
2 cockroaches mating==
omg..
hit them still dun wan stop..
omg omg omg==
18pl==

den ntg much..
continue eating n so on..
den bek home~

19th day..Wed
morning..
went to skul..
meeting~
haha
ntg much..
den go 1U..
sing k~
omg..
sing dao i wan sleep..
cuz late sleep laz nite..
den no my song..
mostly bro song==
den sien lo..
haha..
bt quite satisfy..
cuz gt some song..
i can sing..
bt nt high enuf only==

den bek home..
sleep~

20th day..Thur
ntg much..
morning..
woke up den watch tv..
mulan~
den mom watch oso..
funny thing is..
my mom very ci gek..
haha..

den ntg much~
jux usual..

21st day.. Fri
ntg particular actually..
jux saw sumthin..
feel a lil @@
bt it was jux a 'mistake'..
ntg much anyway..

22nd day..Sat
mornin wan go wushu de==
bt hor..
woke up at wrong time..
too early jor..
sleep bek le..
den late jor @@
haiz..
end up no go..

ntg much..
nite ply mahjong..
lose~
hoho

23rd day..Sun
ntg much oso..
jux went to grandpa's hse..
for dinner~

while preparing to go..
i was wearing lens..
den i use towel rub since itchy..
den da lens suddenly lost..
omg..
find find find..
search high n low==
cant find..
den i go c mirror..
den i c c xia..
saw it under my eye lid!
omg==
den push it down..
omg..
1st time..

den ntg much..
grandpa dem play mahjong very very omg==

24th day..Mon
nite very early sleep..
9 den sleep jor..
so morning very early wake up..
i rmb 1 thing..
when i was sleeping..
i suddenly woke up..
i was crying..
it was all bcuz of a dream..
a dream abt my family..
i nt sure wad happened..
bt it was sad..
den i woke up..
tears was in my mind..
T_T

den mom brought me for breakfast..
b4 dat..
watching a show..
omg..
talk abt food de..
in England..
omg..
suddenly feel lik eating fish and chips..
bt i asked mom to bring me for roti canai..
omg..
i saw pn mazalina dere..
bt dunno she saw me anot==

den bek home..
ntg much..
mom wan me tidy up living room..
bt i keep w8 w8 w8..
until evening jor..
suddenly bro's fren wan come in use toilet..
den i quickly push everything into moms room..
haha!
da situation damn funny..

den nite hav dinner..
very nite==
around 11 sumthin..
or is dat supper??
1st meal of da night..
last meal of da day==

25th day..Tue
morning wake up...
den went kfc fetch fren..
mh, xh, jy, ch, sy..
den go SUNWAY~
hoho..
walked here n dere..
den saw a bunch of F3 students...
bt nt close..
den go hav lunch..
actually is my breakfast==
KFC new de zinger crunch..
hehe..
den da waitress came..
gav me 2..
bt i very 'honest'..
giv bek her 1==
haha..
den ate my burger~
nice nice^^

after dat..
we go ice skating..
omg..
damn damn damn damn hard to balance==
many funny things happened..
jux mention sum i rmb..
my leg..
can bend 90 degree..
bt nt pain at all==
every1 worry will it break anot==
haha..
dat's da reason my legs cant str8..
so very unbalance..
speaking of unbalance..
very funny de is..
jy keep afraid i fall..
haha!!
den hor..
gt once..
i was moving slowly..
den dunno y suddenly gt 1 ppl "Oh Shit" beside me..
he knocked me..
omg..
gone unbalanced..
bt din fall..
cuz everything wan fall de hua..
fall till half den stand up agn..
bt whole day gt fall down twice..
literally..
butt on da floor dat kind la..
bt my frenz say i very fast stand up ==?

den i saw many ppl fall..
dare nt help dem up..
cuz i sendiri oso cant help self..
if help..
i sure fall==

den gt once..
i nearly fall..
in da middle.
den sy beside ma..
she held me n pull me..
den i bang onto da wall..
omg!
damn funny~

den jux end lo..
since ch n xh wanna eat..
i jux dun wan continue jor..
so follow dem..
go McD eat~
i eat sundae saje..
since nt hungry..
bt damn thirsty~

den go bowling.
legs hurt..
dun wan play lo..
den c xh n ch play~

den bek home~

we rly gt 2 groups..
xh, ch n me 1 group..
sy, mh n jy 1 group..
cuz dey only go shopping de..
so owayz separate~

nande mama gt come..
bt..
weii no come..
haiz..

anyway..
had a nice day..
very nice..
bt very very hurt==
now my hands n feet feels hurt..
haha!
weak==

26th day..Wed
ntg much happened oso..
woke up at 3==
den hav lunch..
den prepare go grandpa hse agn for dinner..
dis time gt tang yuan..
even though i cant make bt at least can eat...
hope mom let me make at home ^^

haha..
den ntg much la..
is dis a extraordinarily long post??
haha..
i oso kinda 4gt many==

Our 12th, 13th, 14th, 15th, 16th, 17th day

long time no blog..
nt rly well..
n dun 4gt jor everything ^^
12th day.. Wed
ntg much happened..
i kept sleeping whole day..

13th day..Thurs
better jor..
den go c optician..
hehe..
my con ntg wrong~
woohoo~
means i can wear^^
den bek home..
notice no tuition..
nite watch amazing race..
haiz..
a lil disappointed bt nt too disappointed..

14th day..Fri
sore throat very serious..
den go c doc agn==
haiz..
rly mcm gt part time at clinic jor..
nid go everytime..
haiz..
hurt until my ears oso hurt..

15th day..Sat
went tuition..
for 5 hours++
den night wear con..
hav dinner v grandparents dem..
den funny de..
mom ask..
i gt wad difference..
dey say hair..
thin jor..
n bla bla bla..
bt din say con==
weird la..
den night..
w8 bro bek..
play mahjong..
nice nice..
1st keep win..
bt bek keep lose..
mom damn lucky..
haha..

16th day..Sun
wake up..
den go tuition..
den bek..
ntg much at all==
nite mom n dad dinner..

17th day..Mon
ntg happened..
mom n dad went genting..
so decided to go jog..
suddenly rick came..
funny dao..
den jux go bek..
prepare..
den go dinner..
den bek home..
ntg much..

i rly hate it when we quarrel..
hate it hate it hate it..

Our 7th,8th,9th,10th,11th day

7th day..Fri
very happy!!
cuz can go meet bek my primary skul fren..
nt all..
bt most..
at least still can recognize dem..
happy to meet them..
den took some pics..
went for movie..
"Rapunzel"..
3D..
1st time watch 3D movie in cinema..
thx teacha for da treat!!
THX A LOT!!

den 1st time go tuition wearing con..
den some of them shocked..
kinda funny..

8th day..Sat
morning go wushu..
haiz..
let 1 stupid person made me very frustrated..
fine..
den dad came..
went bek 1st..
den ish!!!!!
dey din bring my bag..
den i hav to go bek agn..
den late a bit reached..
den jux tuition lo..
haiz..
den ntg much..

nite..
gt my organ result..
i passed..
bt im nt happy..
cuz i only gt B n C..
no A at all..
totally disappointed..

9th day..Sun
woke up..
went to hav breakfast v mom..
chesse baked spaggethi..

den went for tuition..

ntg much..
night..
start to feel uncomfortable..
headache..

10th day..Mon
seriously sick jor..
morning went to c doc..
den bek home..
keep sleep..
sleep sleep sleep..
until at nite..
finally gt energy on9..
c dou sailou went singapore de pics..
damn admire..
wish i can go sumwher rite now..

m rly happy when sms-ing v bee..
bt..
haiz..
too much..
afraid i'll gt scolded soon..

den nite..
my fever gt more serious..

11th day..Tue
went to c doc agn..
den whole day slept..
from 8-3 den 3-8..
wake up jor..
my whole body aches..
cant move properly..
den my actions all slow down..
cant move normally..
even my voice..
cant loud oso..
cant speak properly..
argh!!

bt wad i hate the most is..
no1 even sms or msg me..
nobody cared abt it..
im rly disappointed..
dose who i tot will care..
din even bothered abt me at all..
if i dun find dem..
will dey even find me??
suddenly i feel dat everything is different..
i seem lik ntg to every1..

u noe wad??
when i heard doc said if in two days time..
my fever is still so serious..
i might hav dengue..
da 1st reaction i hav is..
i felt happy..
y??
cuz it will bring me 1 step forward to the end..

den i started thinking..
if i rly gt sent to the hospital?
who will be dere to see me..

now i fever gt better..
bt my feeling gt worse..
im rly rly sad..
dat im sick..
bt i din receive a single msg from any1..
even in fb..
dose who i expected to care..
din even bother to leave a msg..
i've put too much hope??
ARGH!!!

Our 5th, 6th day

5th day..Wed
ntg much..
whole day..
quarreling..
den gt bek together..
den quarrel agn..
even small things..
we can also quarrel abt it..
y..
is only d 5th day..
n we hav to be lik dis..

i cant stand it..
i took a bath..
turned da switch to da highest temp..
bt it still feel so cold..
isit me??
or..

i rly dunno hw..

6th day..Thur
morning..
6 sumthin..
woke up..
cant sleep agn..
den on my comp..
check wad's new..
download da TT player..
kinda nice though..
den in my mind..
im thinking of u..
bt u're probably sleeping..
den chatted v benson..
he has his prob too..

den called teac hee..
no reply..
fine..
send a msg 1st..

den sleep..
suddenly..
teac call..
i changed my voice to talk..
nt da sleepy voice..
bt my mind still kinda unconscious..
den chatted a lil..
den slept agn..
suddenly..
lots of miss call woke me up..
waihong n baby..
haha.
suan le ba..
though im tired..
bt wake up ba..

den jux chat..
cant bliv kn is dis kind of person..
den u suddenly ask me..
dat question..
i was stunted..
bt i answer..
i din lie..
bt out of expected..
u said u cant accept it..
i rly wonder..
u wan me to lie to u..
at 1st..
i rly dun feel anything..
bt after u asked me..
im starting to feel guilty..
m i wrong??
y..
suddenly i cant accept myself..
i hate myself..
argh!!!
i rly hate myself..

den went to tuition..
chatted v hsien..
haiz..
rly zd..
anyway..
gratz..
u announce it urself..
b4 class start..
suddenly 'sum1' called me..
since 'sum1' wan me keep as secret..
den wun say is who..
den he/she asked me go unlock da toilet for him/her..
cuz he/she cant open it..
kinda funny..
laugh till me non stop..

den went bek..
jux chat..
watch tv..
den suddenly u came bek..
kinda happy..
bt i dunno hw i face u..
bt nvm..
u acted lik ntg happened..
den i was trying to act lik im happy..

u noe..
i rly dunno wad to do..
i rly hate myself..
ever since dat question..

...

dis sat..
u're going out..
to celebrate ur bday..
bt u noe..
im kinda disappointed..
dat u din even ask once whether i wanna join??
nt even once..
den u tell me going v dem..
...
can u tell dat actually im nt happy??
can u tell that im faking my smiles??
my 'jokes'??
i dunno whether hw can dis work out..
if is full of lies..

maybe u only lik me bcuz u havent noe me well..

i told u my back hurts..
bt did u care??
all u say is it is funny..
is it rly funny??
do u noe da hurt dat im feeling??
i rly dunno wad i can anymore..
i'll jux fake my emotions..


anyway..
to my sifu..
happy birthday~
wish u all da best..
n wish u can gt da girl u wan..

Our 2nd, 3rd, 4th day

2nd day..Sun
went tuition..
den ntg much..
jux feel very happy..
den mom say bring me to her skul..
den dunno y..
i jux cant sleep..
lay on bed for hours..
den decided go out..
watch mummies alive..
for 3 episodes..
quite happy..
rmb me of my childhood moments..

3rd day..Mon
wear my con..
den go to skul..
saw many aunties..
all say me tall n handsome jor..
quite happy..
den follow mom in class..
da students very cute..
keep looking behind..
den i look behind..
wad so nice har?
maybe looking at me..
nobody noes..
bt deir studying way kinda funny de~

den bek home..
finally feel tired..
took off my lens..
den sleep.
till 9 o'clock..
woke up..
i still feel tired..

den chat v ppl..
sailou a..
curse me la..
dun hav 2nd day..

nt hor..
if gt anything..
muz find me de..
24/7..
i will be dere for u..
rmb i'll always be dere for u..
F.O.C.

4th day..Tue
morning..
woke up..
hav McD for breakfast..
went to skul..
help to paint..
den play a while..
den paint agn..
waihong n yauz saw da msg==
paiseh..
haiz..

den went to hav spaggethi for lunch..
den bek home..
nap..
till 5 sumthin..
woke up..
den go tuition..
u noe..
im rly happy being joked by them..
especially when i received ur msg..
bek home..
had my dinner..

suddenly i received ur msg..
u asked me to change da word PSYCHO..
i dun mind..
bt i dunno wad to change yet..
den i started to gt sad..
bcuz u dun trust me..
u gt angry v me..
no matter wad i said..
u wun trust..
in my heart..
dere's only u..
i deleted da blog..
i changed da name..
i changed things dat r related to PSYCHO..
u noe..
rite now..
i'm rly disappointed..
i noe im wrong..
bt..
..
perhaps..
im jux suitable to be any1's bf..

is only da 4th day n we quarreled..
nt quarrel..
bt..
a war..
a cold 1..
i rly dunno how..
perhaps..
im jux typing to myself..

who can see my blog..
i dunno..
who wans..
i dunno..
who can find it..
i dunno..



i'll jux quit anything dat relates to psycho..
i wanaa quit my life..
dere's ntg else i wan now..
ntg..

Our 1st day

Our 1st day~Sat
6.00a.m. only can sleep..
haiz..
den slept in da living room..
haiz..
no mood..
bt ppl r making it worse..
put 1 status dere..
dun wan bother den suan liao..
come here..
din even cheer me up..
only noe how correct my grammar mistake..
bt i jux endure it..
dun wanna scold any1..

den go tuition..
tired..
suddenly i felt lik crying..
bcuz da things happened was lik 2 years ago..
u told me u lik me bt..
u dun wanna start a relationship..
dat moment..
i rly feel lik crying..
it was lik pouring acid on my heart..
is it my fate??
da girl i lik nvr wanna be together v me??

den nvm..
jux continue chat..
den during bio..
very sleepy..
bt when addmath..
felt better..

den go sri hartamas hav dinner..
whole day keep sms!!
den finally..
haha..
my 1st time..
omg!!
having a gf..
haha^^
damn happy..
sry if i rly did anything wrong..
maybe haven gt d hang of it..
bt i'll try my bet..
beginners ma..
haha~

I LOVE YOU!!!

The End Of Waiting

this post is dedicated to sum1..
im sry dat i've hurted u so much..

i cant bliv i cried for u..
i cant bliv i gt moody when i noe u lik sum1 bt i dunno who..
i cant bliv i cant sleep cuz of u..

bt now i noe y..
is bcuz..
I LOVE YOU!!

167th day of waiting

167th day of waiting??Fri
morning..
woke up..
den dad brought me go c optician..
den went sri damansara for food..
omg..
da fly went into da drink..
==

den go c optician jor..
wow..
rly a gud experience..
eyes very itchy n dry..
dey rly yeng lo..
lik dat den noe ur power jor..

den went tuition..
saw annie..
i was lik shocked..

den bek home..
practise organ..
den rush..
eat dinner..
den go jusco..
prac..
teac gav me some chocolates..
den da improvisation rly hard..
den bek home..
do hw..
watch tv..
ddt v shukoon..
rly no mood play jor..

165th, 166th day of waiting

165th day of waiting..Wed
morning woke up..
den go 1U..
go MPH..
walked around..
found ZORA!!!
wahahaha..
long time no c..
den she say she hungry..
den go find gt wad lo..
den choose jor KFC..
den say wad she dun eat fried food much..
dun drink soft drink much..
seldom drink v ice..
@@
blaming me jek..
T_T

den talk talk talk..
chonghwa ind. rly hard la..
haiz..
so geng..
den intend go n walk de..
den siuhou called me..
say wan go kfc..
den went dere agn..
we chose da sit next to da 1 we sit b4 @@
den chat dere..
dey 1st time meet each other..
bt luckily siuhou very frenly de..
or else sure cool cool de~
den we 3 walk haha..
find mh bt she no come..
haiz..

den hou say wan go work jor..
den we go parkson walk walk..
up n down..
w8ing to see him..
den saw jor..
walked a while den go out jor..
den she went bek home..
i joined mom n dad..
den walked a while..
legs damn tired..

den went bek..
den night prepare go genting jor..
den had our dinner..
nice~
den went bek..
in car..
play v bro~
making weird noises..
haha..
weird sounds..
kinda funny xia..
bt haiz..
seldom tell my bro abt my probs..
he oso din tell me abt his too..
maybe he dun hav??

bek home..
den play ddt..
agn..
play till very late..

den suddenly..
sailou stop jor..
asked me some question..
dunno y suddenly feel 'touched'..
maybe cuz long time din rly chat jor..
den chatted a while..
felt kinda relieved..

166th day of waiting??Thu
woke up..
on9..
den go tuition..
heard is saimun's bday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!
haiz..
4gt bring calculator..

den ntg much..
nite..
wow..
many ppl playing da 'DARE' game..
haha..
den liked many post..
gt wad write in other wall..
i love u..
i miss u..
change da p.pics..
in a relationship with sum1..
den now play dou jor..
'in a relationship' with ching ee..
haha!
XD

den play ddt..
shukoon oso start jor..
jiayou!
haha

bt suddenly i gt very frustrated..
cuz being alone..
plus..
i requested for sumthin..
bt wad i gt??
ntg!!
giv me lame excuse!
ish!!!!!!
rly hate it..
if i can do it da other way..
i oso wun find u for help la!
argh!!!
fine!
dun wan den dun wan!!
damn frutrated..

den continue play ddt..

rite now rly feel complicated..
i dunno who i lik..
i cant gt over myself..
i cant let go..
or maybe i can??
i duno..
do i luv u?
do i??
im rly afraid i will only hurt u..
hw can i stop myself??
wad shud i do??

oh sh!t..
start to think of different things at da same time..
i think i lik u bt i think i dont..
i think i can put her down bt i think i cant..
make up ur mind!!!!!
seriously..
make up ur mind!!!!!!!!!!
i hate u!!!!
argh!!

going crazy dy..
shud i??
may i??
or most importantly..
can i??

enough pls..
y shud i think so much..
no1 will lik me too!!
argh!!
wad's wrong v me!!
argh argh argh!!

160th,161st, 162nd, 163rd, 164th day of waiting

160th day of waiting..Fri
since long time no blog..
mostly cuz of ddt..
haha..
ntg much..
woke up..
den on9..
w8 go tuition..
den do math..
haiz..
few weeks no come jor..
self learn abt base number..
den teac teach bout graph of functions..
hoho..
hate graph..
den teac said ask chen hsien stay at other class..
since he went dere..
n teac dou diff topic jor..
haha..
cham~

161st day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
lazy go wushu..
den go tuition..
sj..
long time no learn in chinese jor..
haha..
weird..
bt nice..
den bio..
ntg much..
den go bek home..
den hav dinner..
bored la..

162nd day of waiting..Sun
wake up den prepare tuition..
den krg..
den ntg much..
suddenly feel my holiday all da same..
everyday on9..
den everynite play ddt till late late..
play da F3 ppl..
quite funny..

163rd day of waiting..
whole day ntg..
so jux play game..
play play play..
den go rawang..
go hav dinner v grandma/pa..
den watch diving dere..
malaysia silver..
dunno hw many diving silver jor..

noe y malaysia cant gold??
cuz at pool dere sure gt no diving de..
so cant find new talents..
haha!
@@

den went bek home..
play till nite nite agn..
dis time lagi funny..
shaiho asked me it jiewei..
den hor..
sum1 say put me same group v gwen..
den i no c dou..
i replied to shai ho..
u think i dun wan meh..
den i saw da post..
oh shit==
den every1 kept saying..
damn zd..
bt kinda funny la..
damn omg la..
den many other rumors too..

164th day of waiting..Tue
woke up..
go tuition..
den finally zora found me!!!
haha..
called her n chatted for 8 min..
rly zd..
go cameron no bring hp..
cuz mafan @@
1st time hear things lik dis..

den decide jor da gathering..
excited^^
den ntg much..
w8 till nite..
tuition agn..
bm teac damn funny..
siuhou damn pity..
keep let me bully..
XP

den jux came bek..
den play agn..
cham lo!!
addicted jor..
TT
bt nice..
haha~

158th, 159th day of waiting

158th day of waiting..Wed
din do anything much..
around 5 sumthin..
went jusco..
cuz organ prac replacement..
new environment jor..
den after dat..
go hav dinner..
den went bek home..

den wow..
bz dao~~
multitasking all at da same time..
sms-ing..
ddt-ing..
chatting..
ps2-ing..
singing..
all at da same time..
rly cant concentrate..
omg..

den once agn..
feel kinda disappointed..

159th day of waiting..Thur
morning..
go yan's hse..
go in jor..
den c dem play mahjong..
omg..
den my turn jor..
haiz..
many weird/funny/ angry stuff happened..
hsien keep win wrongly==
make him hav to pay all~
bt everytime dat happens..
my 'cards' ure nt bad de..
den gt 1 round..
rly made me mad..

u missed da round jor..
now u nt enuf 'cards'..
u jux simply take??
wher can it be lik dis..
if im da 1 doing it..
will u jux keep quiet??
fine!!
cuz of it..
made me lose..
ish ish ish!!
play dou lik dis..
wher still fun??
no mood play jor..
*leave

den jux go around..
do ntg much..
until w8 go tuition..
ntg much oso..

den bek..
mom n dad's anniversary..
bt dad went for badminton..
so ate steamboat v mom..
XD
2 ppl only..
in a rainy day..
syok..

den bek home..
jux on9..
chat..
watch movie..
Amazing Race Asia 4..
haiz..
1 Malaysia team out jor..
still is da group v potential 1..

den play ddt==
omg..
saw all sorts of ppl..
gt sum very kind..
i lvl 7..
he lvl 21..
let me kill jor..
still praise me..
XD
beginner's luck..

bt i oso saw sum..
keep scolding vulgar..
suan la..
keep in heart..
until i saw 1 thing..
"talk english la!"
den i rly feel..
omg??
den dat's when i started to quarrel v dem..
omg..
self speaking broken english..
still wan ppl to speak english==
amateurs~
haiz..
all da things u guys said rly rly funny!!
lik making a fool outta urselves..
XD

bt sumhow..
i still feel..
sad..
or moody to be precise..
jux felt dat..
im nt appreciated..

isit perhaps im too sensitive??
or i've asked too much..
maybe i tot i can gt bek things dat gave bek..
bt..

rly hope u can treat me lik u treat others..
come find me when u face prob..
bt..
everytime i hear ppl saying abt whose whose whose prob..
all i can do is sit aside n listen..
nobody will tell me abt it personally..
m i dat nt trust-worthy??
i hope i can change everything..
feeling complicated now..



last bt nt least..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAEN~

156th,157th day of waiting

156th day of waiting..Mon
morning..
woke up..
tot i can go jog..
bt my dad dunno y so early wake up jor..
haiz..
suan le..
go bek to sleep..

go skul..
actually intend go later..
since dey mention jor b4 8 nid reach...
bt i afraid ppl go jor tot no nid help..
den i go earlier lo..
jux in case..
den omg..
dey say gt perhimpunan..
faster borrow oliver's uniform..
omg..
rush rush rush..
den start jor..
while starting..
suddenly sum1 called me!!!
omg..
phone vibrating..
bt i ignored..
siao a!!
call so long==
so many ppl at skul still wan find me..
siao ei!!

den finally finiz..
haiz~
den go up start arranging da tables..
omg..
tables 2 by 2..
omg..
damn tired..
den my hands gt lot of scar jor..
mcm suicide jor hands gt scar==
haha..
scare jor many ppl==

haiz..
jux keep moving..
damn tired..
den dat time i rly no mood..
i dun wanna eat n dun wanna drink..
whole morning rly din eat n drink..
den intend wan walk bek home..
bt dad came..
argh..
suan le..

den jux go home..
evening..
wanna go jog..
bt all my pants wash jor..
means i nid to wear new pants..
n dirty it?
haiz..
no mood jor..
den no go jog..
haiz..

whole day de plan all kena interrupted..
rly hate it..

157th day of waiting..Tue
go bek to skul agn..
haiz..
changed da room to store room..
n store room to another..
change jor..
den suddenly say wan move agn..
argh!!!

few of us came only..
den finally finiz!!!
wahh!!!!!

den went out eat..
sneakily..
haha..
teac oso sneak out..
den had food..

went bek..
noe some result..
my bi.
say gud nt gud enuf..
still lose to him!!
argh!!!
bt actually kinda satisfy~
bt i wanna win him@@

den i knew sumthin..
u told me phone no money jor..
bt i noticed dat u sms v other ppl..
was dat jux an excuse??
or m i jux too annoying??
or i jux misunderstood??

u noe??
i rly hurts to noe it..

haiz..
went home..
nap..
no mood..

den go tuition..
da bm..
pantun..
very @@
omg..
i rly luv it..
it rly talks bout hw i feel..
except for da 2nd para..

haiz..
now my heart is rly complicated..
i duno whether i still lik u anot..
i tot i can finally put down..
bt when i c u wiping ur tears..
a kind of feeling struck me agn..
i dunno how??
who can tell me?????

155th day of waiting

155th day of waiting..Sun
woke up..
prepare for tuition...
den sit v sifu..
rly whole day din talk to them..
bt dey din even bother abt my presence..

den bek home..

den nite eat at aman puri..
so many ppl..
w8ed for 1 hour++
den weirdly..
saw dat family agn..
every sunday go out eat oso so lucky can c dem de..
fate??
even go diff place oso can c dou..
@@

nite..
jux play ps2..
quite satisfy with it..

bt..
i still feel moody..
dere's a lot of things im feeling..

i dun think im gud in socializing..
i dunno hw to say dis..
maybe is nt dat my frenz fault..
everything is with me!!!
im da 1 is always da problem!!
even in primary skul..
i feel dat my fren treat me kinda badly..
i was excited dat maybe i can come to a new place..
dun hav to stand dat..
bt now..
i think my thought is all wrong..
dey r nt da prob..
i m da 1..
now even in new skul..
i still feel so..
y??
is nt cuz of dey treat me bad..
is nt cuz of dey dun appreciate me..
all is me!!
im da main cause of it..
my attitude..
my everything..
perhaps..
dis is me..
i jux cant change it..
maybe im too stubborn..

ppl keep saying ketua pengawas..
bt..
i noe it myself..
i jux cant do it..
i dun hav da power..
i dun hav everything..
i noe maybe sum of u oso feel dat..
i jux dun worth it..

perhaps..
im born to live alone..
im nt a society person..
i dun feel lik living anymore..
i rly hope..
dis will be da laz chance i can breathe..

i dun wanna live anymore!!!

154th day of waiting

154th day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
still feel a lil full..
muz be dat pig..
laz nite indeed was quite nice..
bt when i saw da couples..
i feel envy..
haiz..
den dey played love story once..
rly bring me bek da memories..
den sms v sailou..
since very bored dere..
bt many ppl..
103 tables..
da way dey serve rly funny..
very fast..

den dis morning..
jux go wushu..
bcum naib pengerusi..
no feel cuz i dun wan so fan abt these stuffs jor..

den jux practise..

den bek home..
prepare..
den go bio..
feel kinda tired..
i din speak much to them though..
even though he talked to me 1st..
i replied wad he said den no talk jor..
dun feel lik talking so much..

den bek home..
chat a while..
den went jogging..
dis time..
ran more..
more tired..
more sweat..
bt all i noe is..
i felt better..

at nite..
mom n dad went for dinner..
so i jux on9 at home..
whole nite sms v chingee..

den keep msg full..
i rly dunno hw..
my msg full..
mostly oso abt ur msgs..
i rly dun feel lik deleting it..
it rly brings me a lot of memories..
bt..
ARGH~!

den sailou on9..
chat..
bt..
guess dat im nt da person u can talk to anyway..
bt rly hope u can cheer up..


suddenly i feel so lonely here..
even those who k..
or i tot dey k..
dun even bother abt me anymore..
guess i rly dun belong here..
will any1 wonder if dey dun c me anymore??
guess not...

...

hopeless

...

u're such a failure..

153rd day of waiting

153rd day of waiting..Fri
morning went to skul..
sook fen dem play cards..
den help sook fen..
she damn lucky..
bt hor skill nt so gud only..
haha~!

den perhimpunan..
ei~
zd..
y c dou sailou de..
tot he nt coming..

den went to bilik sj..
teac said sumthin..
makes me feel alil sad..
suddenly feel lik she very gud..
laz day jor only change till lik dat..
omg~

den took our result..
(so faz man 1st time lo!)

oh shit!!
65==
gt improvement..
bt compare v dem..
i very weak..
cuz all of dem oso 80++
me??
65..
fine..
while walking v u guys..
u guys kept saying dis n dat..
i only gt 65..
fine..
even though im nt happy abt it..
jux keep it in my heart..

den..
went bek class..
tot of havin fun..
den teac ask us do things..
den finally went bek class..
feel lik having fun to 4gt bout sj..
bt..
dis is when a worse thing happened..

dey playin cards..
sook fen ask me w8..
den go find pn lee..
den w8 for her..
w8 jor..
she come n tell me..
abt monday de thing..
wan me go find pn lee..
den she continued playing cards..
WTF??!!
den my so called frenz?
none of dem even offered to acc me..
fine..
nvm..
go do it!

den find jor pn lee..
ask jor..
she nids help..
ask me find sum f3 de to help her..
bt i vounteered..
cuz i dun wanna go bek class..
den do do do~
go find many teac..
ask dem to check da paper for confirmation..
den sum teac rly..
"u help me check la!"
WTF??
dis is ur thing la!
hw on earth do i noe dis is rite or wrong??
u may rite wrong on da original copy oso!
think la dui!!

whole day walk up n down..
finding teac..
legs damn tired..
im so freakin' F*ed up!!!!!

den saw chingee..
haiz..
so shy..
see dou me stil wan walk away sneakily..
suan le..
so jux say hi 1st~
XP

den ntg much..
asked f3 to help complete..
den..
go bek class..
even bek jor..
felt my presence is nt important..
no1 cared..
suan le..
i 'sleep'!!
lay down dere..
as if im very tired..
bt all i jux wanna do is to ignore the world..
im nt rly 'sleeping'..

den waihong came n find me..
dunno hw to do==
den suan le..
go bek down help him..
den finally finiz jor~

go dewan..
sit v f3..
play cards with dem..
1st round den win jor..
woohoo~
den 2nd round..
let teac stop jor..
cuz cannot play poker..
sh!t..
teac noticed i from form 4 jor..
ask me go bek..
bt i plead teac haha..
so end up stay dere..
den jiasheng still gav me sum snacks..
wahahaha..
den still gt around 10 min..
went bek class..
take my bag..
once agn..
no1 cared..
fine..
go bek down to dewan v my bag..
take pics..
den teac announce 2day laz day jor..
haiz..

feeling lik being v f3 better..
even though sumtimes topic cant chat..
bt at least sum care abt my presence..
bt hor..
kinda sad lo..
sailou din choi me!!!
sit at dewan dere so long..
oso no choi me..
TT
seizai!
ask u take pic den keep say dun wan..
TT
bt anyway..
happy holiday~!
wahahaha
rmb dat promise a!!

den bek home..
on9..
den sleep..
later still gonna go for sum1's wedding dinner..
haiz..
forced to..
TT
hope da food is nt disappointing..

150th, 151st, 152nd day of waiting..

150th day of waiting..Tue
morning go to skul..
whole day din go in class..
stay at bilik pengawas..
after perhimpunan den meeting..
den keep stay dere..
den heard physics teac gonna teach f5 things..
den dun wan go jor..
go help f3~
bt actually go play la..

ntg much..
sum parents rly..
@@
den ntg much..

bek home den nap..
den ntg much..
heard ppl say my physics 88..
highest..
same v peiyen..
bt nt sure oso..

tuition..
6-9..
feeling lik is monday~
bt feel better..

den bek home..

once agn..
i asked for a chance..
bt..
once agn..
failed..
i rly dun understand..
y!!

i rly cant 4gt abt u!!
everything reminds me of u!!
da moments we've been thru!!
da dance between me n u!!
argh!!!
i cant stop myself..

cried whole nite..
feeling my heart very sour..

151st day of waiting..Wed
go to skul..
no mood..
den perhimpunan oso gt a lil mistake..
haiz..
den go bek class..
play cards whole day..
gt bio paper jor..
feeling kinda sad..
cuz weak jor..
argh!!

bek home..
no nap..
den went jogging around da garden..
quite satisfied~
den bek jor..
kept sweating..
omg..
1st time sweat so furiously..
since months ago..
very satisfy~
indeeed very 'sexy'..
finally und wad sailou meant jor..

haiz..
tired..
even when i playing game..
oso nearly slept..
bt..
when i wan go bed..
sumthin was in my mind..
i cant sleep..
even im very tired..

我在你们心中到底有什么地位？？
好朋友？？
好兄弟？？
可是当我有事时··
那又有哪位好朋友会主动来找我？？
来问候我？？
当你们有事时··
又有谁会想到找我诉苦？？
你们有事时··
会想到我吗？？
往往都是最后才知道发生什么事··

有谁真的会真正关心我？？
来找我时··
都只是要跟我借东西··
那我不开心时··
你有理过吗？？

我就只是个过客··
也许太过自以为是了··
还以为你们会把我放在你们心里的第一··
就算没第一也会想到我··
可是··
我在你们心中只是个路过的蚂蚁··
每人看见··

152nd day of waiting..Thur
1st time wax my hair n go to skul..
cant do much since not much time..
jux simply..
bt nt much difference oso..
bt weird~

den whole day jux play cards..
n do sum pengawas things..
den play cards whole day la..
haiz..
still dun hav da mood..

147th, 148th, 149th day of waiting

147th day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
headache..
no go wushu..
den go for organ lesson later~
hehe..
quite successful..
cuz managed to play many songs..
den..
go for bio lesson..
den haiz..
headache saje..
bek home dat time..
ish..
dey still late..
haiz..
den go hav dinner..

den nite mahjong..
kinda hav no luck~
maybe dat seat rly nt lucky de..
haha^^
bro sit dere oso no luck..

148th day of waiting..Sun
morning woke up late..
den headache..
so no go tuition..

den stay at home whole day..
on9..
study~

nite..
cant sleep..
keep thinking bout her..
da moments we danced..
rly feel..
once in a lifetime opportunity..
who will gt da chance to dance v da girl u luv often?
i rly rly miss da moments..

149th day of waiting..Mon
went to skul..
morning perhimpunan dun wan go up stage..
cuz gt a lil headache..
jux stay down dere..
den many dye jor hair de ppl kena tangkap..
luckily sailou din kena..
c!
listen to me wun wrong de!

den jux w8 for SPBT de things..
gt alicia's book @@

den after recess..
exam..
sivik..
omg..
crazy de..
nt too easy den too hard==

den pjk~
omg!
1st 5 questions out b4==
luckily gt read..
den still gt 2 Q repeat de..
bt many i dunno de~
keep 4gt..

den finally end!!
woohoo~~

bek home..

gt sum news..
sum1 mcm very happy when gt my books==
zd~~

den zhao hong cr8ed a group..
for 6K'2006 de..
damn nice!
cuz every1 oso seldom chat..
bt 2day rly chat dou..
keep chattin~
haha!
den ming xiang..
i rly dunno is she until 2day..
haha..
da funny thing is she oso dunno is me^^
say add me cuz c dou lengzai..
XD
rly rly zd..
bt da prob is da pic dun look lik me oso @@
haha..
damn happy chattin v dem~

den i try to on my PS2..
play yugioh~
omg!!
rly on dou..
even though many tries..

bt end up oso success..
play play play..
long time no play jor..
bt da tv nt nice..
so damn red..
bt at least can play..
from 4 sumthin play till 12.30++
woohoo~~

2day damn happy~
1st..
EXAM FINALLY OVER!!

2nd..
on dou PS2 jor..
played many long time no play de game!!
muahaha

3rd..
chat bek v primary skul frenz..
damn happy^^

Last~
sailou finally make his promise~
wahaha..
finally c dou dat pic jor..
dunno w8ed how long~
bt at last c dou jor..
muahahaha~!

damn happy la 2day ^^

146th day of waiting

146th day of waiting..Fri
woke up..
kinda tired..
den w8 for lunch..
on9 on9 on9..
chat v chingee..
kinda funny xia.
keep saying me cute..
@@
den i act childish~

den afternoon go grandma hse..
hav haircut..
omg..
dis time damn short..
den used a lil wax..
nt sure hw use..
simply..
XD

den hav dinner..
sms sailou..
no reply me!
urgh!!

den jux went bek home..
let mom saw da dancing vid..
a lot of comments~
XP
den bek home..

2nd msg..
STILL NO REPLY!
ish~~

rite now..
i rly dunno hw..
i dunno wad im thinking..
yes..
i still hav da hatred feeling..
bt..
when i saw her pic..
i rly feel!!
..ARGH..
cant resist luving her..

i rly dunno whether i still lik her anot..
i dunno i still hav feelings for her anot..
i cant stop myself from thinking..

rly feeling lik finding sum1 to talk with..
bt..
i cant..
dere's no1 i can talk with..
i rly wanna find sum1..
bt when i nid it..
only i knew no1 is dere for me when i needed..
jux be alone here..

~headache~
think gonna fall ill soon..

145th day of waiting

145th day of waiting..Thur
2day woke up..
ntg much..
den on9..
chat v sailou a lil..
haiz sore throat jor..
take k la!!
drink water ma..
still wan eat chocolate jam!!
no die b4 ke??
ish!
take k la..
adui..

den he off9..
dad bought lunch..
omg..
RM30++
y??
cuz he tot is crabmeat fried noodles..
bt when i open it..
da whole crab is dere!
omg..
den had crab for lunch..

SH!T..
dunno y stomach ache..
i no eat chili wo..
rly SH!T dis time..

den go tuition..
wher my frustration starts..
went in..
saw chen hsien sit jor dat place..
no more place for me..
fine..
go behind..
i tahan!!
smiled!!
even though i dun lik it..
bt i smiled!!
dun wan think so much..
sit behind..
bt did u guys bother??
no!
fine..
sit dere..
press phone..
acc lik gt things do..
bt in my heart..
i hide my frustrations..

den siuhou came..
he did nt sit da place reserved for him..
in fact..
he sat beside me..
kinda touched..
den suddenly sum1 said sumthin dat make me very angry..
"y u dun sit at da seat de?"
SH!T la..
self dun wan acc me..
now he come acc me..
cannot a??
F away la!!
damn u!

den jux finiz tuition in frustration.
din bother them at all..
dun even wanna c dem!

den bek home..
ntg much..
even i saw her on9..
i dun feel lik finding anymore..
@@

i hav a lot of things wanna share v u guys..
bt dese 2 days rly prove to me a lot..
so i'll jux keep it to myself..
2 u guys..
im NTG!

i dun belong here..
i hate being alone..
bt no choice..
i hav to..
all i hope now is to graduate from here..
or die ASAP!!
ARGH!!
dun wan to see things lik dis anymore!!

144th day of waiting

144th day of waiting..Wed
morning..
keep read sj..
try try try~
den dey all..
come in oso same reaction..
who gt string..
haha..
cuz today wan return spbt books..
ish..
so faz return..
monday exam hw??
pjk n sivik oso..
who will buy reference book??

den suan..
2day go up stage v siew wei..
omg..
2day awkwardly noisy..
nvm..
den go bilik pengawas jor..
while w8in dem return..
den suan liao..
go out w8..
den very jia de..
haha..
den finally return jor..
went bek bilik..
w8 w8 w8..
den suddenly teac ask us carry things to bengkel@@
nvm..
after dat..
went bek class..
read sj..
n disturb meisim oso..

exam~
omg..
easy is easy..
bt hor..
i 4gt jor~
so conclusion..
hard for me..
easy for others..
T.T

finally finiz~
exam "over"!!
(excluded PJK n PSK)
!!!!
haha~
rly wonder..
if whole class "summer..summer.. summer"!!
hoho..
sure very yeng de..
bt..
haha..
den over lo..
go recess~
drank sarsi~

den went bek 1st..
cuz wanna find pn lee..
bt cant find..
den go bek..
no1 dere yet..
den jux go 4I~
feeling mcm cant fit in oso..
fine..
decided to go bek..
when go bek..
dey all playing cards..
fine..
suddenly gt a kind of bu shuang..
dunno y la..
bt cant blame dem..
im da 1 who was lost 1st..
den jux..
stand at my seat..
tidy up stuff..
bt neither 1 of them offered me to play..
den suddenly sumthin strike my mind..
GO FIND PN LEE!!
giving me an excuse to leave..
den finally find dou jor..
den gt her no.
bt she busy..
fine..
den leave..
slowly walk bek up..
cuz dunno hw face dem..
den bek jor..
put jor things in my bag..
den 1 more thing strike my mind..
TOILET!
giving me another excuse to leave..
den slowly i go down n up..
while walking..
thought of a lot of things..
feeling dat im lonely here..
with problems in my mind..
feeling lik finding sum1 to talk v..
bt den..
i felt dat..
dere's no1 dat i can talk to..
here..
im alone..
alone..
alone..

bek jor..
find yenji dem..
jux chat even though dose topic tak berkaitan v me..
den c khaichee de book..
saw many of dem..
haha..
cute~
den chat chat chat..
suddenly our territory kena conquered by other ppl..
den jux go find yh chat lo..
omg..
my tie pin kena humiliated..
he clip his pen*s with my clip..
omg..
den weii came..
he still open up his zip ask gt fur anot..
omg..
haha!
even though kinda weird..
bt at least im happy..
cuz at least sum1 can acc me..

den keep go dedikasi c haslina mark paper..
omg..
my chemistry damn afraid ei..
she haven't mark..
T.T
den keep walk here n dere..
den talked to weihao for da 1st time..
haha..
he oso quite 'lonely'..
reading his book dere..

i kept walking here n dere..
talking to 'lonely ppl'..
haha~
at least can keep me occupied..

den b4 bek..
pn lee found me..
den haiz..
rly hope u can be our teac-in-charge..
u're the best!

den bek home..
since faced things dat i dun lik in skul..
so kinda no mood..
den slept around 6 to 10..
woke up..
dad n mom went genting..
i jux on9 till 4 sumthin..
den sleep..

finally saw our dancing vid..
kinda satisfy..
reminds me of da times we've been thru..

sumhow..
here..
i'm alone..
hate dat feeling..
bt no choice..
hav to face it..

141st, 142nd, 143rd day of waiting

141st day of waiting..Sun
morning woke up..
den prepare go tuition..
ntg much..
den bek..
damn hungry..
still wan fetch grandpa dem..
skip~
nite keep revise bio2..
haiz..

142nd day of waiting..Mon
go skul..
prepare for assembly..
dis time no event..
so tot can be faster..
den jux w8 for speech..
getting longer n longer..
say we shudn't waste time..
study more..
bt now..
ish==

den finally over..
still hav 1 hour^^
bt hor..
my dream let a teac spoil jor..
she wan all ppl to sing n ikrar agn..
damn..
my time to do revision..
gone!!
den chem 1..
shit!
no bring OMR n testpads..
borrow~
or shud i say ask dem return bek..
XD
chem..
at least still can choose..
nt too bad..
den while doing..
suddenly feel dou sumthin behind me..
omg!
is my bag..
deng!
no bring out dou..
keep blocking it from teac's sight..

den recess n bio2!!
not much time..
TT
den exam..
sum still managable..
shit!
lipids..
no read dou!!
TT
14 marks go bye bye..
damn sad..
bt haiz..
at least essay still can simply rite..
gt a lil idea..

den bek home..
nap..
den study for bio1 n addmath..
no go tuition..
ponteng agn..
2nd time jor..@@

den while reading bio.
chatting v sum1..
listening to "enchanted"..
suddenly..
hav da urge to cry..
den cant control..
rly cried out..
so switched off da lights..
went to bed..
n cried whole night..
i rly miss da times we've been together..
i rly wanna be with u..
bt..
i noe we r impossible..
u will nvr like me anymore..
im trying to change..
bt guess dat i will nvr win him..
i wont be as gud as him..
..

143rd day of waiting..Tue
omg..
bilik pengawas..
became so small..
bt very tidy..
lik a canteen..
dunno y even though very dislike..
bt feel ok abt it..
mayb cuz tidy..
n can c dou da prefects kinda united..
^^
den exam..
addmath 2..
omg..
sum questions cacat de..
skip dem~
since choose only few to answer de..
luckily still can..
den bio1..
oso..
many dunno de..
teac still say easy==
den slept for 10 min..
automatically woke up..
den check..
den pass up..
finally laz 3rd sub jor..
SJ!!

den afternoon chat v sailou..
make me think dou after SPM wan hw change..
maybe bcum very wild..
maybe not..

den tuition..
teac very very late only come...
help sy erase da things on her sj book..
damn many de lo..

den bek home..

...

getting bad tempered lately..
gt many things..
suddenly feel lik shud be kept in heart..
cuz saying out will only let ppl think is a joke..

all i wanted is jux a simple thing..
bt..
ARGH!!!
y m i being so bad tempered!!
lil things oso become so angry..

do i rly mean wad i said??
dun think so..
perhaps..
i shud only hide my feelings to myself..
no1 wud even care abt it..
blogging will be my only way to release all my stress..
perhaps dis will be da only way..
even though i noe no1 wud care..
all i can say is fine...

134th, 135th, 136th, 137th, 138th, 139th, 140th day of waiting

134th day of waiting..Sun
morning..
woke up den go round garden jog for a while..
muz start prac jor..
cuz getting weaker n weaker..

den din go tuition.,
XD
cuz wan study for bio..
since 1st time paper 3..
haha..
den keep read da 4 experiments..
haha

135th day of waiting..Mon
assembly..
sook fen in charge today..
den ntg much..
saw 3Bs de drama..
Mellisa..
haha..
sailou n da car very cute xia!
den adam leong==
rly zd lo..
overall rly funny la..
gud job~!

den after recess bio3!
1st time do paper 3..
den is final exam lai de..
total OMG!
try my best..
rmb wad da exp..
da procedure..
all rite out..
kinda successful i think..

den nite go tuition..
study for physics..
once agn..
study till late nite.
read saimun de notes..

136th day of waiting..Tue
physics 2..
rly omg..
dunno how exam..
damn anxious..
den when take paper..
wad a relief!!
staying up late reading saimun's notes rly paid off..
many similar question oso gt..
haha..
den do my bez jor..
den physics 3..
omg..
once agn no idea hw is it..
den teac langsung din giv tips..
bt dunno y keep seeing inertia de exp..
den rly out dat 1..
haha..
damn lucky..
XD

nite go for addmath tuition..
since next day oso gt addmath tuition..
so lucky~
den bek home..
finiz all da Q 1st..
den read chemistry..
bt managed to read a few only..

137th day of waiting..Wed
addmath..
nt rly a prob..
mostly functions..
kinda ok~
den after recess..
chem 2..
omg..
haiz..
still can answer la at least..

den bek home..
nap 1st..
den only start da vid..
1stly..
find a chicken little front part..
download it..
den test can use anot..
shit..
da media cannot support..
suan.
den use cam..
take da vid down..
den put bek in com..
den only can read..
dunno did hw long jux for dat few sec..
finally finiz 50++ sec==
did whole night..
no read dou chemistry..
den suan le..

138th day of waiting..Thur
morning..
chem 3..
haiz..
simply do la..
rly shit de..
after recess..
den go dedikasi prepare for annual dinner stuff..
discuss..
n many..
whole day dere..
den gt my math paper..
argh!!
97!!
peiyen 98!!
if lik dat lose cuz only 1 mark..
rly TT

den night tuition..
after dat bek home..
continue my vid..
did for very long time..
until 12 sumthin only finiz all..
den while w8ing it save..
read moral.
omg..
damn tired..
cant memorize anything..
den since da vid still gt long way to go..
suan le..
sleep!
leave da com on..

139th day of waiting..Fri
da day we await finally has arrived..

den 1stly..
exam moral..
omg..
rly simply do a..
hope wun fail it..
or worse den laz time..
since keep getting 65/66 in all exam..
now 65 i oso dun mind^^
dun worse la..
TT

den physics 1..
haiz..
confirm wrong jor 2..
others..
haiz..
hope ok la..
den finiz!
go bilik pengawas..
since sy said wan stay bek help do decoration board..
den stay bek lo..
den dey go buy things..
w8 at bilik pengawas lik a solou==
den end up din do much den nid leave jor..
ish!
wasted time..
or else i can do da vid..
den went bek home..
add sum final touch ups..
den go weii's hse..

den help do things..
da scissors created to cuts on my fingers..
haha..

den go da club..
prepare..
starting to run out of time..
do do do!!
den change to our clothes..
hoho..
many ppl say i go wedding a??
getting married?
rly zd..
haha..
den 1stly let form 5 come in n be seated..
den is pengetua's speech..
den start 2 feast!

i gt my food..
den left on table..
haven start eating..
dey say wan start da dance jor..
omg..
go out prac a while..
without glasses dis time..
since dey wan wear mask when dancing..
den dere gt stairs when we prac..
den sy brought me in front..
i saw da stairs even is blur..
den i said "wan murder me ke??"
pull me to da front of stairs still dun tell me..
luckily nt rly blind..
XD
den finiz prac..
went in..
den start dance jor..
hehez!
rly hoho~
den 1st time put hand on her waist..
omg..
kinda weird de feel..
bt dare rly put on it..
gt leave a lil den put bek den leave n put..
den bad romance..
all i hear is screaming n shouting..
da music rly covered up..
suan le..
c deir action..
den follow..
haha..
my vision rly blur..
cant c a single person..
maybe is a gud thing..
dance all i can..
haha..
so happy gt many compliment abt it^^

den is deir band de things..
haiz..
rly admire..
rly feel lik learning all..
TT
bt dun hav da kind of money..

den lucky draw n stuff..
den games..
haha..
den next i da video..
every1 dere..
none of them saw da vid b4..
only im da 1 since i did it==
bt i rly feel touched..
cuz deir reaction..
deir applause..
deir screaming..
cheering..
all..
i rly feel worth sacrificing my time to study..
rly glad u guys lik it..
heard sum of u cried..
haha..
or feel lik crying..
damn happy i can make dou it lik dat..

satisfy~

den mrs lee, kailin n guolng went front..
sing "you're nt alone"..
hearing dat..
i rly feel lik crying..
cuz i rly hope dat she will be our teac in charge for next year..
she rly is great!
den every1 prefect went front n hug her..
den suddenly mcm change jor..
annual dinner or retirement==
bt rly touching la..

den next is games n lucky draw oso..
GRAND PRIZE!!
5th prize - Matthew soo(pendrive)
4th prize - Emmanuel ( Teddy bear)
3rd prize - puiyen(DVD player)
2nd prize - CCY ( MP4!!!!!)
1st prize - LEONG SHU NEE!!! ( hp )
my conclusion is..
emmanuel sure let a lot of girls stare at him!
puiyen very cool..
ccy u're dead!
n shunee..
u damn lucky whole night!
games kena two times..
lucky draw oso kena 1..
den now grand prize kena 1 more!!!
still wan da grand grand grand 1..
tell me wad fengshui style u did!
i oso wan!
XD

den ntg much..
take pics..
den dey announce da king n queen..
Queen - Elaine^^
King - me??!!!!@@
omg..
thank u guys for da votes..
haha..
rly cant bliv i will kena XD
luv da turtle!!
XDXD

den keep on da photo session..
den end jor..
every1 prepare go bek..
tidy up..
den leave..

dis year im rly satify v everything..
bt feel sry oso..
made sum ppl feel left out..
is rly hard to make every1 pleased in dese occasions..
haiz..
sry..
bt feedbacks from da f5s..
dey luv it!
so is kinda a gud thing dey lik it!
wondering hw will da F4 do next year when we F5..
haha..
waiting ya!!

bek jor..
legs damn pain..
tired..
haha..
no high heels oso tired..
dey wear high heels de..
sure omg!

pics next time upload ba..
nw connection rly nt gud..

wan watch movie de..
bt end up sleeping on da sofa==

140th day of waiting..Sat
ntg much..
no prac dou organ..
go dere do lil things only..
bio damn hungry wei..
den dad dey all late..
TT
hungrier..
still wan fetch grandpa,ma..
lagi hungry..
finally can eat!
haha..
my fav kangkung!!
luv it very much!!
dunno y..
den mahjong..
hoho..
play jor so many rounds..
my bro won 1 time only!
omg..
rly unlucky la wei..
at least had fun!!


rly miss da times we dance~~

124th, 125th, 126th, 127h, 128th, 129th, 130th, 131st, 132nd, 133rd day of waiting

124th day of waiting..Thur
ntg much..
a lil nt well..
morning learn bio hw rite paper 3..
den pjk..
see dem play..
cuz nt quite feeling well..
den hear dou da ceramah..
haiz..
laz year oso nt lik dis de..
look on da bright side..
dey noe more abt f4..

2day say gt BC extra class de..
giv us tips..
den teac suddenly say cancel..
ish de lo!
ntg much then..
den sumthin happened..
bt suan le ba..
over le den dun mention it anymore..

125th day of waiting..Fri
ntg much happened..
jux started interview after school..
many ppl 'changed'..
normally c dem oso very omg de..
bt 2day awkwardly different..
luckily pn lee is dere..
den ntg much jor..

126th day of waiting..Sat
morning no go wushu..
den go organ prac..
haiz..
hard hard hard..
den go bio..
ntg much..
bek home..
neighbour gt organize a party..
for da baby de..
den da food nt bad wo..
especially d meat balls..
damn nice!^^

127th day of waiting..Sun
wake up..
go tuition..
den go home start rushin read da ming ju..
omg..
10 teac haven teach us la..
nid learn by self..
very hate de lo..

128th day of waiting..Mon
1st day of exam..
total omg..
usully wake up at 6.15..
2day 6.45 only wake dou..
every1 late..
rush rush rush..
5 min bath..
den w8 bro..
den faz go skul..
den handle perhimpunan de things..
den da disaster rly..
say dun wn come down..
suddenly come down agn..
ish..
nvm..
den bc exam..
omg..
say hard nt hard..
say easy nt easy..

at night..
keep reading abt komsas..

129th day of waiting..Tue
go to skul..
keep read komsas oso..
den ntg much..
exam..
argh!!
afraid of essays..

den nite read abt literature..

130th day of waiting..Wed
20-10-2010..
date nt bad xia..
den early in da morning..
passed by kebersihan..
saw sailou..
den c dou no glasses..
curious..
he no bring dou..
cuz too rush..
for me..
if no glasses..
i cant live..

haiz..
do revision..
everytime i read Gulps & Gasps..
sure gt ppl say dun hv dis drama..
nt only 1 person..
den usually i dun bliv in 'tips'..
bt dis time..
dunno y rly follow..
din read..
den end up rly come out!!
argh!!
y so bad!!
simply rite la..
based on wad i rmb..

den find pn lee..
pn lee requested me to help her buy sum drinks..
den she gav me Rm10..
4 orange 4 mineral..
den total cost RM13..
fine..
i used my RM3..
den when go up..
pn lee said wan giv me each..
so took jor..
den actually 1 mineral + 1 water cost 3++
so end up i bought for myself..
weird huh==

den rite essay..
omg..
not enuf time to finiz up da essay nicely..
jux simply a..
T.T

den afternoon..
slept from 2 sumthin to 8.30..
omg.
den quickly study sj!
den den around 12 sumthin..
BLACKOUT!!
omg!
so darn unlucky..
bt only a few minutes..
lucky~

den cont study till 3 sumthin..
den intend to sleep for 1 hour..
who knows..
when wake up oredi 6 sumthin..

131st day of waiting.. Thur
morning..
anxious..
sj..
omg..
out jor..
rly SHIT de..
read wad no out..
no read or read jor bt dun und de all come out..
yer yer yer..
simply do la!
bt gt 1 part de part c no time do..
suan la..
3 marks only..
T.T

den recess..
quickly read BC..
since langsung no touch dou...
den sun bian sailou de acting..
haha..
quite cute xia..
bt let pn thilagam stopped..
cuz da dewan too noisy..

den no time watch jor..
T.T
da car car quite cute xia..

den BC..
haiz..
simply la..
rly no idea hw rite..
keep afraid nt enuf words..
den rite..
1st line gt 30++ jor..
den 1st paragraph 106==
den i wrote around 6 paragraphs..
total 600++ words..
ok..
satisfy..
bt afraid terpesong..

132nd day of waiting..Fri
exam math..
quite relaxing..
haha..
bt my paper 1..
omg!!
careless!!
1 cuz 4gt abt da complement!!
i noe wan find..
bt after find original..
den 4gt complement..
yor!!
wasted!!
den another is abt tangent..
T.T

den after skul go dance~
at bilik pengawas..
bt dunno y no mood..
jux dun hav it..
as my mom said..
haiz..

133rd day of waiting..Sat
morning no go wushu agn..
afternoon go organ..
omg..
still so hard..
den 2day no bio..

night..
ntg much..
1 day wasted!!!

118th,119th,120th, 121st, 122nd, 123rd day of waiting

long time din blog..
nt sure wad had rly happened..

118th day of waiting..fri
ntg much..
woke up..
den waste time..
den go tuition..
ntg much..

119th day of waiting..sat
morning go wushu..
learn dou dat 1 rly hard xia..
hse no space prac==
den organ quite difficult..
bt can learn dou lik dat i satisfy jor..
bio..
as usual..

den go yan hse after bio..
den saw her puppy!
cute dao!!!!
den play v it..
while waiting loohong n kk come..
come jor den go park dere..
do "kerja amal"..
omg..
damn lots of mosquito..
sum maybe Aedes..
i kena 23++
loohong 24++ ==
den go bek..
play cards..
while w8ing jy..
once dey reached..
we started dancing..
dance dance dance..
den bek home lo..
dunno y damn high~
play mahjong..
oso win~!
hehez..

120th day of waiting..Sun
woke up..
go tuition..
mark damn funny de..
starting den lose jor..
haha..

den nite ntg much..

121st day of waiting..Mon
morning go weii's hse..
dance..
dance alone==
lik a solou..
haha..
bt very satisfied..
cuz very successful^^
den bek home..
nap..
den go for tuition..
once agn ntg much happened..

122nd day of waiting..Tue
morning..
woke n sleep..
woke n sleep..
cuz keep wan sms ppl..
reply..
den call..
den sleep.
until 12 sumthin..
den prepare go yan hse..
prac~
den da doggy slept on my lap..
mcm very comfortable..
so damn cute!!
den go tuition..
addmath test..
nt bad..
still noe hw do..
den bek..
haha..
gratz to all form 3s..
PMR finally over~!
haha..
song lo~
bt form 4==

123rd day of waiting..Wed
when i wan sleep..
blackout!
deng!!
very hard only can sleep dou..
den woke up..
go skul..
minor headache..

den as usual..
ntg much..
dose f3 very cham xia..
can do ntg bt stay in dewan..
pity pity..
laz year better^^

den when bio..
cham..
started nt feeling well..
very very cold..
n headache..
dun wan stay bek jor..
den bek home..
nap for hours..
den woke up..
better..
chat..
n all..

haiz..
rite now afraid dengue..
wad if rly happen..
den rly omg==

116th, 117th day of waiting

116th day of waiting..Wed
woke up..
prepare a while den go sing k v bro..
sing many songs..
quite satisfy..
bt b4 bek dose few songs..
i rly dun hav da voice to sing anymore..
i've lost my voice..
den bek lo..
nande take pic v him..
long time no take jor..
ever since young..
at da staircase dere~

den bek home..
ntg much..
da day end lik dat..
very song la..
can sing k..

117th day of waiting..Thur
woke up..
my phone dunno y scattered on da floor..
da time oso gt prob jor..
den set bek..
den go tuition..
v my laptop..
damn heavy..
den after tuition..
jy's fren come fetch us go yan hse..
den wow..
wad an exciting ride..
at da T-junction dere kena langgar..
lik bumper car..
luckily nt serious..
den go mamak stall eat..
ate roti telur..
thin till lik roti tisu..
den bill dat time rly ma fan..
gt many prob..

den go yan hse..
dance lo..
haiz..
sry ya mh..
if it wasn't for dis dance..
u guys wun keep quarreling..

sumhow i rly dunno hw..
dis dance lik created many problems.
dis quarrel dat quarrel..
i rly feel guilty..
n feeling lik canceling it..
i rly dun wan to cause anymore trouble cuz of dis thing..
ARGH!!!

rite now 3 sumthin..
i rly cnt sleep!!!
all in my mind is jux suicidal thoughts!!!
i dunno y!!
i dunno wad happened!!
bt all i can think is suicide!!
wad is happening!!
ARGH!!!
HELP!!!!!

111st, 112nd, 113rd, 114th, 115th day of waiting

111st day of waiting..Fri
go skul..
whole class only 14 ppl..
dedikasi worse..
4 ppl only..
den 1st few period totally wasting time..
bt downstairs form 3 majlis restu..
pity dem..
sumhow da speech is extraordinarily long..
den i heard a song..
familiar..
den go listen..
den look down..
saw sailou..
such fate..
nt fair!
dey can gt a file v stationery in it..
laz year no file..
T.T
so bad..

den after recess..
stay at dewan for sum activities..
haiz..
nid make group n make presentation..
rly zd..
abt anti vandalisme de..
den do lo..
after dat..
dunno play wad 'swing'..
den point wad da teacher request..
gt 3 groups..
most handsome..
most beautiful..
n shortest..
i was chosen ==
for da most handsome in my group
==x2
den we hav to do catwalk..
as a top model..
==x3
omg..
cant bliv i did dat..
bt kinda funny..
den most beautiful ppl hav to walk lik cowboy..
shortest group hav to walk lik gangster..
rly funny..
den teac ask for volunteers to do mirrors~
very very funny..
especially hsien n liantat..
rly let dem zd..

den after dat..
meeting..
ntg much..
den go sri damansara club..
look at da place..
den go weii's hse..
teach yen dance..
kinda zd xia..
weii piano rly geng de lo..
damn admire..

den bek home..
tuition..
den ntg much..

112nd day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
go wushu..
omg..
da bengkel music..
noisy dao!!!
my neighbours r lucky me n bro dun learn instruments lik dat..
horn, brass, saxophone, woodwind, trumpet etc..
omg..
den we prac wushu..
omg..
damn funny..
all instrument play at da same time..
@@

den go for organ prac..
new book..
omg..
damn hard lo..
T.T

den bio..
ntg much..

den nite..
raining..
bro say wan go out v fren for supper..
den suddenly received a call..
his fren den car tyre punctured..
cuz dropped into da hole..
den w8 at petrol station..
dad go help change..
den when bro bek from supper..
brought bek sumthin to eat..
nt rly special to me..
den he said..
da petrol station dere gt many cars..
most probably kena dat hole..
haha..

113rd day of waiting..Sun
morning woke up den go tuition..
many F3 xia..
den mark damn funny..
hsien challenge him if he no make mistake..
giv him RM10..
den at last he rly wrong jor..
haha..

den end class..
go papparich v mom n dad..
hav lunch..
den bek home..
w8 for dinner..
go desa park city..
kluang station..
de bought sum donuts..
yum~

114th day of waiting..Mon
morning woke up..
wan go sy hse..
den follow mom send bro to college 1st..
den go hav breakfast v grandpa n his frenz..
den eat..
omg..
extremely huge..
den finiz jor..
ish..
im late..
bt mom dun wanna go 1st..
wan sit dere..
den w8 lo..
smokers..
ARGH!
headache..
ish~!!
den jux close my eyes..
rly behsong..
den dey tot i slept..
omg==
so easy meh==
argh!!

den finally mom say wan leave..
den jux go..
faking a smile..
im rly a gud actor..

next time when i hav my license..
i will drive myself..
dun hav to w8..
argh..
den nt rly in mood..
go fetch mh n jy..
den go yan hse..
den prac at her car porch..
at least finiz bad romance n poker face..

den start activities..
play com, mahjong, tv etc..
den jy say wan watch power rangers..
omg..
my fav series of power rangers..
bt..
sumhow..
is totally different..
looks very fake..
haha..
bt childhood..
cant blame..
den bek home..
nap..
den tuition..
bm teac teach dou half wan leave..
cuz wan prepare pmr things..
den another teac came..
yh dem rly..
omg..

den ntg much..

115th day of waiting..
morning 6 sumthin..
woke up..
jux to sms n send my regards..
hope u gt gud luck..
den bek to sleep..
den woke up at 1 sumthin..
ntg much..
keep wasting time..

den b4 tuition..
help dad change da switch thing..
rly worked..
haha..
tuition..
differentiation..
rly tough for me..
dunno hw start..

den bek home..
bro learn jor korean..
learn from him..
haha..

den my frustration has started to conquer my mind..
u think i'm nt tired??
dis cant dat cant..
hw??!!
pls..
all i wan is jux to come out n prac..
finiz everything..
pls..
time rly limited!!!

suan..
i wil rmb my happiness=ur luck..
i will be happy no matter wad!!
dun worry!!
u jiayou!!
make me proud!
haha~^^

110th day of waiting

110th day of waiting..Thur
2day morning..
rained heavily..
den tidy up da bilik pengawas b4 going bek to class..
once reached..
wow..
a new relief teac..
keep walking here n dere..
den at least still gt giv reaction when i bow..
smile sikit tak blh ke??
den suan..
do math..
den lekkhong ask me bout lines n planes..
try 2 explain lo..
class getting noisier..
den start chaos jor..
den teac scold..
ask us go bek own place..
den kept mumbling..
den scold yh n lekkhong..
haiz..
cannot say she is a bad teac..
she is doing da right thing..
bt sumhow..
things jux doesn't seem right..
perhaps immature thinking??
nvm..

den bio..
go lab..
very very faz..
dose who usually dun come reached da earliest..
e.g. weiyang..
cuz gonna dissect frog!
haha..
1st time in my life..
luv it..
ppl say our group is cruel..
cuz every organ oso take out..
bt i think we shud do dat..
let da frog die worthily..
den keep n tidy up lo..
rly excited, happy with dis exp...

den jux pj..
played a round..
den find mrs.lee..
den chat till after recess..
continue chat..
den do things..
go here n dere..
very bz xia..
den at bilik guru..
teac ask me move da table..
den cik zalina said many weird things..
u very handsome..
n in 3 years..
all girls will come stick to u..
den i was lik "wad???"
seriously??
i had a "wad??" appearance by dat time..

den ntg much..
jux walk up n down..
almost no in class..
den go bilik pengawas ask for name list..
den gt 1 normal student..
walk in in front of us..
den i purposely knock da door jor..
no choi me..
den suan..
he saw us..
wan leave jor..
den sook fen stopped him..
den scold him@@
fine..
i jux do wad im dere for..
2 take da list..

den went bek class..
dey wan take class pic..
take jor den bek to chaos~

den bek home..
upload pic..
sleep..
den tuition..

den bek home..
dinner..
den start to fan..
abt annual dinner..

1stly..
2molo's meeting is for da ketua biro only..
i din ask others to come..
jux wanna discuss sumthin for next year..
which HAVEN'T approve yet!!
jux nid some idea..
n is a faz meeting..
so din call so many ppl..

2ndly..
im rly tired of it..
y everytime come out..
i hav to plan..
i hav to call 1 by 1..
ask dis n dat..
den giv me dose dunno wad answer..
den dis say dunno..
dat say wad oso can..
den when i set a time..
dis say cant..
dat tell me bz..
den tell me when r all of u guys free!!!
i rly dunnon hw plan..

3rdly..
is troublesome enuf v it..
n now..
1 more to come..
i rly dunno hw to handle dis thing..
i dun wanna hurt ppl's feeling..
bt by doing wad im doing dese days..
i think i hurted a lot of ppl..
bt da truth is..
i rly cant care much..
is a prob enuf for me to handle with so few ppl..
now wan summore??

yea..
indeed i admit im a lil bit wrong..
bt u cant blame me for all dat..
cuz in ur mind..
u only trust her!
hav u ever find me via sms or msn??
no!
den hw u expect me to think of u whenever i plan sumthin??
u nvr even do dat to me..
in ur mind only hav her..
even though u noe i lik her!
u still do da same thing..
yea im jealous..
so wad??
den dis hw u treat me as a fren!
so y shud i bother!

!!stop pissing me off!!

109th day of waiting

109th day of waiting..Wed
morning..
went skul den try to prepare for assembly + persaraan..
many things as usual lik monday..
den start persaraan..
quite fast de..
den im da head prefect now..
dunno i can do a gud job anot..
cuz keep dunno y gt prob saying in front of public 2day..

den ntg much..
chemistry..
since no real teac teaching..
so went bio lab n see dedikasi de dissect frog..
damn cute!
den sy very 'wolf' de lo..
pull pull pull..
den recess..
sumthin sumhow spoilt my mood for da whole day..
so jux 'slept' dere..
actually i jux wanna hide myself from reality..

den duty..
and so on..
bek..
do english..
den bio..
ntg much..
teac teaching dat time.
rly getting tired..
den i lay down on table..
eyes on da screen..
bt slowly closing..
haha..
yan n hui oso..
wan sleep jor..
bt hui very obvious lo..
so no giv face meh..
haha..
den hsien come jor..
nt so sleepy jor..
haha..
den ntg much..
went out for lunch..
eat pasta..
nt rly satisfy..
even dou da taste nt bad..
bt 1st..
duno y took so long..
since we ordered 1st...
bt..
den 2nd is..
i dun lik tomato sauce..

den bek skul..
prepare for dance..
did a lil dis n dat..
den mh seems rather excited after noe-ing wad we gonna dance..
since she was nt rly wanting to dance at 1st..
bt now dunno hw she feels..
hope everything will be alright..

den bek home..
jux nap..
den wake up..
eat..

den open my chinese essay book..
thinking of how to rite..
wanna pass up 2molo jor..
den 1 or 2 hours jor..
only wrote da title..
@@

finally finiz..
half a page only..
4 paragraph..
505 words..
==
finally!!
argh~!

hope ntg will gt in my way!!
here i come!!

107th, 108th day of waiting

107 day of waiting..Mon
assembly..
tried to prepare..
bt end up..
postponed to wed..
clash with ur persaraan..
so nid to prepare it..
cut short..
so dat wun use too much time..
kinda hard..

omg..
in bilik pengawas..
when wan go bek class..
my bag..
SNAP!
torn jor..
suan..
carry 1 side..

chem no teac agn..
add math teac damn funny de..

den..
recess..
after recess..
went to bilik guru v sy..
found a lot of teac..
walked almost da whole skul v her..
din attend sivik class..
bt as expected..
teac din teach..

den bi..
do paper..
ish..
den dat yenji hor..
wad oso dun play..
play v my loooong ruler..
den SNAP! agn..
torn a lil..
ish!!

sleep a while after doing..
den sy woke me up..
ask wan find pn lee anot..
since is laz period n bm teac din come..
so went lo..
den rush bek..

bek home dat time..
heard jor many things dat is nt so happy for me..

bek home after tuition den sew bag lo..

very unlucky 2day..
1st..
bag torn..

2nd..
my left hand keep hitting things..
till now still hurt..

3rd..
ruler break jor..

4th..
heard da kittens all died..
haiz..
T.T

5th..
sumthin dat i cant n wont tell..
bt is troubling me..
argh~!

rly rly rly unlucky..
dunno shud happy or sad..
happy can......
bt with dese around..
cant happy much la..

108th day of waiting..Tue
morning..
went skul..
den raptai..
roughly..
den go dewan duty as usual lo..
saw da bears..
quite cute~!

den da raquel..
make me speechless..
total OMG..

den no teac til sj..
den do presentation..
nt me..

den recess..

den bek class..
ntg agn..
heard yj n carmen say de things..
rly..
@@

den..
physics..
teac check hw..
den hit dose who din do many..

den skul end..
go out eat..
ate char kuey teow..

den bek skul..
prepare for dance..
den roughly dance..
den choose partner..
lucky draw..
i choose dou 1..
den c..
haha..
sweayan oo~!

den jux sit dere..
dey discuss abt clothes..
den bek home lo..
bek jor..
ntg much..
go tuition..
den do differentiation..
do dou 1..
many cant do de..
finally can do dou de feel rly..
SYOK!
bt gt 1 rly dunno wad it ngap!

den shukoon damn funny de..
suddenly look bek..
say y ur hand so many fur jor de..
den wan touch it..
den he touched..
actually dat was my pencil box..
nt my hand!
my hand was behind da pencil box..
damn funny..

den go hav dinner..
since eat dim sum..
char kuey teow agn!
omg..

den bek home..

im afraid sooner or later will bcum kueyteow-phobic..

den ntg much..
jux chat..

rly hope everything can run smoothly..
bt..
hope wun happen anything dat will crush my dream la..
pls..

105th, 106th day of waiting

105th day of waiting..Sat
morning woke up..
dunno wan go wushu anot..
cuz late sleep..
den end up go jor..
no regrets..
den do sit-ups n many abs exercise..
tired dao..

den organ..
ntg much..
den bio..
1 thing made laugh lik hell..
hav u ever wonder a pig swimming free style??
haha..
i rly cant imagine..

den bek home..
eat dinner..
den mahjong~
won 3 big rounds..
2nd round still 'dai sei hei'!!
woohoo~
bt no money de..
dun gamble..
haha..
happy jiu hao~~

btw..
pernahkkah anda dengar..
"sudah jatuh ditimpa mahjong"??
haha..
bro caught a mosquito..
den throw on table..
den da mahjong accidentally hit on it..
pitynya..

den ntg much..
sleep~

106th day of waiting..Sun
omg..
start jor..
my abs start paining..
argh..
laugh den pain..
T.T

tuition..
ntg much..
"Damn Brilliant"~
nt bad nt bad..

after tuition..
bek home..
go dinner..
den mom force me go a neighbour de hse..
cuz rumah terbuka..
eat malay food..
haiz..
nt suit me oso..
when i drink a spoon of soup..
dunno y..
mcm ada dejavu..
den kinda wan faint de feel..
weird..
conclusion..
nt my style..
bt da person is very friendly..
n looks a lil lik cikgu aidah..
even da voice oso..
im afraid later rly is..
den c dou her..
omg!!
luckily no..
den sit dere..
dunno w8 wad..
till 9 sumthin..
walk bek home..
refreshingnya~

den on9..
do hw..
ntg much..
mom's colleague gav her a plant..
very nice xia lo~
free den i will take pic jor..

thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

104th day of waiting

104th day of waiting..Fri
morning ntg much..
jux dey queue up at da tarmac agn..
den go bek class..
bored dao..
no teac..
no chair..
den go 4D discuss things v dem...
den time past..
moral time..
went bek class..
den when teac leave..
discuss agn..
dey say wan hav a band..
nt bad nt bad~!

den ntg much..
recess lo..
chat v sum 'juniors'..
abt deir 'sam xi'..
haha..
shhh~
secret~!

den went bek class..
dey take pic..
play xia v dem..
den saw sumthin..
which hurted my heart..
bt i continue my actions n expressions..
dun wanna show a thing..
looking at u is all i can do..

den keep w8ing until bek home lo..
ntg much de..

after dat go bilik pengawas..
do da raptai..
speechless..
shiying..
i und wad u say..
bt..
i oso feel da same way..
jux let it be..

den after end jor.
sumthin happened..
i dun rly noe y..
bt sumhow sum1 is sad..
i did nt noe whether im involved..
bt nt dat i dun care..
is jux dat..
i dun wanna bother u 1st..
since every1 is around u..
n u dun rly nid me too..
n dis oso caused weii n mh to 'cry'..
nt serious..
bt..
haiz..

den u guys went bek..
she went out to eat..
dun feel lik going..
so stay alone at skul..
den while wanna walk away..
da afternoon sessions ppl called me..
in my heart i thought..
dun hav to be alone..
bt i was wrong..
all dey wanna noe is wad happened..
den i was jux sitting dere..
ntg..
all of them only care him..
so if im nt sad..
den nobody will care la??
even i sad oso no1 will care..
fine..
go in bilik ketua..
feeling kinda frustrated..
den c sum data..
abt everything..
discovered sum pics..
quite cute de..

den bek home..
play game..
den tuition..
haiz..
at least u talked to me..
means im nt involved..

den go eat dinner..
saw jeeseng..
at 1st saw from bek..
bt more n more familiar..
end up rly is..
da meal nt bad..

den bek home..
ntg much..

i dunno wad will happen next..
n i dunno wad post i'll gt..
bt..
i wad oso dunno de la..
i rly dunno!!!
wad i wan actually..
wad??
can sum1 lead me..

form 3s..
1 more week..
till u guys big day..
JIAYOU!!
(if nt wrong.. only 1 F3 can read my blog..)
haha..
oso jiayou la!!!

103rd day of waiting

103rd day of waiting..Thur
morning go skul..
ntg much..
assist xh agn..

den bek bilik pengawas..
ponteng bm class..
discuss annual dinner de things..
den..
bio den go lab lo..
after dat pj ply ping pong..
haha..
play for fun de..
dun so serious..
haha..

den recess..
mission consider accomplished..
den ntg much..

after recess bek class..
go library..
noisy..
saw a cockroach..
haha..

den math no teac..
play police & killer..
took police many times..
bt seldom gt killer..
2 times only..
1st time..
kill da police den lose jor..
den 2nd time..
teac wan us go back own seat..
cant play jor..
ish..
nande..

den after skul..
go bilik pengawas..
interview khai chuen..
haiz..
i tried my bez to help..
bt..
hard to make ppl satisfy..
hope u can la..
after dat dey gt a lil meeting v afternoon session..
many bushuang de things din say la..
since dun wan interrupt deir 'system' 1st..
next year if dey do da same thing den dey will noe..

den bek home..
sleep..
tuition damn sleepy..
when wan go up stairs..
let a stupid boy step dou..
ish..
i baru wake..
no mood yet..
ish!!
den while w8ing in class..
den saw many kids..
rly rly fan de..

den ntg much,,
w8 till end jor..
mom call..
telling me wher she parked..
bt giv wrong direction..
haha..

den go eat..
da cheese baked rice nt bad..
bt hor..
rly no luck v lil kids..
jux now let a kid step on me jor..
while eating dat time..
12nd thing happened..
suddenly i felt sumthin hit me..
on my back..
den i look bek..
da lil girl from next table sitting beside me..
den i noe she 'accidentally' hit me v da menu..
kinda hurt..
den i stared at her..
not even apologizing..
fine..
continue eating..
if 1 more time den i will scold de..
since kinda bad tempered..

den bek home watch amazing race asia..
hehez..
den ntg much..

i dunno wad i wan from u..
u to be happy??
bt sumtimes i fantasizes me holding ur hand.
sitting beside u..
will dis ever happen??

102nd day of waiting

102nd day of waiting..Wed
ntg much in the morning..
weii's turn to go up stage..

den go up class..
moral gt hw..@@
den chem no teac yet..
den math pn noran came in..
quite 'cute' xia..==
i put d duster dere..
she rly put bek..
dunno is coincidence or wad..
i put so high..
she still wan put bek same place de..

den bm ntg..
recess..
den my 'mission' started..
considered accomplished..

den bi..
ntg much..
bio oso..
bt teac say thursday dissect frog..
excited!!

den go bek home..
on da way bek..
as a companion..
im satisfy enuf..

even though i rly hope dat i can..
bt seeing u smile is worth..

bek home..
parents went genting..
since wanna send bro dere..
so home alone for whole day..

no tuition no ntg..
whole day passed boringly..
dis is da worst mid-autumn festival ever..
ppl say 2day shud be together v family or frenz..
bt me??
alone..
frenz??
bz..

funny thing is..
i wrote a status..
after i fed da cats..
i saw da moon..
den i wrote da status after havin inspiration..
bt cant bliv sum1 copied it..
n post as his status oso..
is a funny thing to 2 same status 'side-by-side'..
bt im proud..
dat my words r appreciated..

at nite..
i took bek out my kh books..
for sum reason..
dunno can help anot..
hope can la..
2molo 2nd mission agn~



2day..
we chatted..
as expected..
ur reply will be dat..
bt i insisted in asking..
cuz i rly hope i can gt a chance from u..
bt..
in ur heart..
u only lik him..

y 2 who lik each other..
dun wanna be together??
yes..
i dun rly lik it..
bt..
as long as u're happy..
i hav no choice..

一支笔没墨了就是没墨了··
再怎样勉强写下去··
只会写破那张纸··
倒不如丢掉··
买一支新的··
但是有时却不舍得···
矛盾···

dis is my 2nd status..
inspiration when i throwing away my blue pens..
dey hav no ink left..
hw i rite..
hw i force..
oso won work well..
if i use more energy..
all it will happen is da paper will be spoiled..
is lik our love..
u dun hav love towards me anymore..
no matter hw i force..
ntg will come out in a gud way..
however..
it will only worsen things up..
y dont jux 4gt abt it???
bt da main prob is..

CAN I??

2nite has been a rly rly sad nite..
i dunno wad to do..
i dunno hw to deal with it..
i dunno who to talk to..

perhaps..
i'm rly 'invisible'..
i live 'alone'..