23rd day of waiting..

23rd day of waiting..mon
2day updated my blog early..
cuz later i dun think much will happen..
only tuition..

2day early in the morning..
went to skul..
as i figured out..
kl,yx n sf oso no come..
==
so i jux memorize da ikrar agn..
den all of dem hav keys..
i don!!
n all of dem din come...
~~
den went up..
so lucky..
cik tan wanted to fnid yingxin..
2 giv her da key!!
omg..
luck~
den open door..
2 let them carry da sits~

so perhimpunan..
rly dunno wad to do..
i feel da burden upon me..
so went up..
say out..
a nt too big problem~
bt only some words jux din come out rite..

so finiz~
phew..
so did as usual..
finiz duty..
went up class..
dey started talking abt deir camp..
da more dey talk abt..
da angrier or sadder i m..
cuz..
i rly feel..
URGH!!!

if u wanted sum1 to go??
won u ask for at least a few times..
to persuade him/her to go??
bt no~
da way dey ask me is..
A: hey u going......??
B: yea.......
Me:(silent)
A: (telling me)hey u wanna go??
Me: erm.. i dunno..
A: nvm..

==
dis is jux wad dey asked..
i was so coincidentally dere when they were talking abt it..
if it wasn't for dat..
dey wudn't even ask me at all..
i rmbed i wanted sum1 to go so badly..
i kept asking..
rly hoping her to go..
bt now..
all dey said is jux once..
dey nvr asked me..
nt sincerely i noe..

dis r my frenz..
if dat person is him??
i dun think u guys will do dat..
u guys wud keep asking him rite??

den u guys were soooo happy talking bout it..
im jux sitting aside..
faking a smile..
acting lik im interested..
den yenji came n asked me..
y u din go..
den only u guys say..
yalo, y u dun wan go..
u guys nvr mention to me abt dat b4 she asked me..
from dis..
it clearly states dat im nt important at all in u guys heart..
to u guys..
IM NOTHING!!!
with or without me..
u guys will still be very happy!

y!!
dis r called frenz???!!!!
y other ppl will persuade me..
bt y nt u guys??
da ""BEZ FRENS""..

u guys rather persuade other ppl..
bt me..
i noe im nt from khai chee!
bt y he is nt from khai chee..
bt he gets different treatment??

frenz..
always by ur side..
bt r u guys by my side..
2day after duties during da recess..
u guys jux walked away..
leaving me alone to switch off da lights of da hall..
talking happily walking away..
dis is frenz!!
leaving me..
walking bek alone..

rly..
y??
when i try to share my problems..
u guys will jux giv me a cold shoulder..
giving lame answers lik..
@@
en..
dis will oso be da way i reply next time..
all i wan is jux some advice..
a normal 1..
1 dat normal ppl understand..
bt no~
all i gt is..
oo
en..
fine!!

now i rly dunno wad to do..
everyday nid to fake a smile to ppl..
no1 noes wad im truly thinking..
no1..
i guess..
pls..
rly hope sum1 can understand me..