48th day of waiting

48th day of waiting..Fri
2day is a rly tired day..
early in the morning..
woke up..
sleepy..
mom fetch me to skul~
wont be seeing her until sunday..
she's going singapore..

den went to skul..
tired cuz late sleep laz nite..
den..
jux tired..
suddenly feel lik vomiting..
agn..
so went to toilet..
kinda crowded..
so dun wan 1st..
den went bilik pengawas..
help sailou order..
giv money..
den go bek to toilet..
dis time..
dunno is lucky or not lucky..
i went to da laz cubicle..
den i saw a guy with his pants down..
omg??
facing outside..
so i can say i saw "it"..
my 1st reaction was..
turn bek..
den quickly i did it..
so i din notice who is he..
@@
den no mood vomit after dat..
den jux walk out..
still nt well..

all cuz of dat vomit..
made me saw sumthin i shudn't c..
ish!!
who to blame??

after perhimpunan..
gt meeting..
nt rly in mood oso..
since nt well..

den finiz jor..
went bek class..
do hw..
dis n dat..
den i rly dunno y..
i finiz my hw 1st..
so in my mind..
i shudn't jux abandon u n go find her..
so i decided to stay dere do my hw..
even though i rly wanna go dere..
bt instead i stayed..
den..
u oso finiz..
bt did u do da same??
NO!!
u left me!!
u went dere n sat in front of her!!
so dis how u 'repay' me..

so recess..
oso dun wan k much..
jux went down alone..
den walk v hsien dem..
den ntg much..
after doing wad i usually do..
go c mh dem collect money..
den help holding box..
den reached 3B..
haha..
weii say sailou very funny..
come out take coupon..
1st thing is say..
"ur shoes haven tie properly"
zd..

den..
go physics lab..
okok lo~
bi~
ntg much..
den after skul..
go find dad to change my bag..
den while at da gate..
BANG!!
sum1 hit my bag!
is my sailou==
aiyo..
u dunno my bag wan spoil jor meh..
still lik dis hit it..
haha..
bt rly happy..
cuz at least u will find me 1st..

den went change bag..
went bek in..
den go makan..
balik tengok a lil comp..
no mic..==
den chat v jiahao a lil..
pengawas sesi petang..
MANY TERUK!!

den go xh hse..
den on9..
den slept jor..
on da floor..
den woke up..

den go bek skul..
do things..
colour..
den collect money from afternoon session..
gt few class rly OMG..
1st time gt junye bring me..
cuz i dunno wher r da classes..
den 2nd n 3rd time..
i asked ppl..
who wanted to follow me up..
bt no1 volunteered..
suan!
go alone..
den saw yen n agnes standing outside..
doing hw..
weird..
gt table dun wan use..
den weird is..
2B no teac oso so quiet de..
geng..

den finiz collecting money..
went bek down..
dey say dey pluck da coconut tree leaves down..
??
omg..
@@

den weird thing is..
2day many 'strangers' talk to me..
i noe who dey r..
n dey noe who i m..
bt we NVR talked b4..
weirdly..
we talked 2day..
n dey started it~
haha^^

den jux go tuition..
nt feeling comfy..
cuz..
dirty..
whole day no bath..
eww!!
den chat v hsien abt 'sumthin'..
haiz..
knew more things..

den bek home..
on9..
chat v sailou..
jux..
sry..
i cnt control myself for being sensitive..
bt i rly cant stand him..

he told me dat he's leaving..
i've stopped him..
den he INSISTED!!
so i took dat as a yes..
den wad he did??
BROKE DA "PROMISE"!!
den i ask y..
u tell me..
he say can continue..
den u din follow jor..
WTF??!!!
dis is u promise me de things..
nt him!!
den WTF u relate him for??
nvm.
dis aint important..
cuz i hav no right to stop ppl from socializing v others..
jux..
i see ur true colours..
i cant bliv i chat v u abt dis prob..
n u still can jux..
lik ntg..
den joke v me..

so rite now..
i feel more..
argh~!
rly dun deserve..
to be..
jux rly sry..
i cant control myself..
bt rly nid thx u..
all dese weeks..
when im sad..
u oso will acc me..
jux thx..
n sry..

den..
prepare for tomolo..
suddenly..
chat v 'sum1'..
cant bliv v rly chat..
abt many prob..
cuz we r nt close at all..
bt from ur mouth..
i gt to noe sumthin..
sumthin dat my "FRENZ" din tell me..
dey went to a sleepover..
yea..
my hse is far..
bt u guys NVR mention to me b4..
respect much??
so dis r frenz?
i rly hate it..
maybe i rly cant make it..
bt does it bother u to jux ask me??
i noe y..
cuz to u guys..
IM WORTHLESS!!
ntg bt a piece of sheet..

i noe 2molo..
i will be abandoned agn..
no1 wan me to help..
no1 wan me to acc..
so i think i'll jux live alone..
I HATE MYSELF!!!

Im nt a gud head prefect..
nt a gud lover..
nt a gud brother..
nt a gud fren..
Im nothing..