45th day of waiting

45th day of waiting..Tue
2day..
went to school..
happily..
cuz thinking of wad happened..
den went dere..
extraordinarily happy..
den went up stage..
den ntg much..
nid keep laporan..
from prefects..
haiz..

den bek to class..
went out..
v her..
walked da whole school..
gav out da papers..
dat was rly nice~

went down dewan..
intend to scold waihong..
cuz let me saw him play badminton v pengawas clothes..
den when i went down..
he change jor..
suan..
lucky..

den bek class..
i rly wonder y..
u oredi hav a gf..
n u still hav to be angry when im v her??
wad do u wan actually??

den bc teac din come in..
den sj..
went to bilik sejarah..
den noticed dat i din bring sj latihan..
den went up agn..
saw cik tan..
den i was wondering..
huh?
den she only noticed she entered wrong time..
so i took my book..
n she told me thursday nid stay bek..

den went down..
den ntg..
recess..
went to giv out da papers to sum other class..
den bek class..
moral..
den only i notice my moral book has problems..
da page suddenly from 100++ to 70++ den to 100++ agn..
den teac talked abt stories..
abt kanak-kanak..
den she let us pratise the drama things..
den dis is a challenge for me..
i've nvr act..
truly act..
n dis time..
is a big challenge..

den physics..
haiz..
terribly sleepy..
nearly fell asleep..
den teac ased seetho to answer..
i was shocked dat time..
den awake jor..
den luckily ernest came n asked me out..
can refresh my mind a while..
den went bek..
continued..
den walked bek..
to the car..
alone..

den bek home..
received a msg from kailin..
said dat da machine is broken..
den my mood jux dropped from 100 to 0..
no mood..
bz finding ppl who can help..
bt cnt..

actually y shud i care??!!
u guys nvr asked me dat u guys hav changed plan..
u guys wanted to sell ABC bt din tell me..
i din knew until u gav me da paper..
so y shud i care so much??
u guys dun even wan my help..
dun even respect me..
u guys decided everything..
n din even inform me..
so now??
y shud i care so much??
dis is nt my plan..
dis is nt wad i agreed..
so im nt suppose to be responsible for da consequences..
ish!!

den tuition..
b4 going out..
dad gt a call..
made me late for tuition..
den reach dere..
u guys all sitting v her..
fine..
i sit in front..
1 hour n 30 min without talking..
den finiz tuition..
still nid to w8 agn..
w8ed..
den bek in car..
sleep..
dun wan talk so much..
dun wan care so much..
rite now..
da feeling has dropped till -50..
i rly hav no mood..

rite now i rly dunno wad to do..
nothing is worth for me to be happy..
noone..
rite now..
im lik falling in a endless hole..
keep falling..
slowly away from the light..
into the dark..
im lost agn..
without any light to brighten up my path..
im alone..
in da space..
without anything..
dunno wad to do..

wad if..
dis is da laz time i can c..
after i closed my eyes..
i will nvr wake up..
wad will u guys react..
i rly hope to noe..
wad if...

those who rly cared abt me..
i rly appreciate it..
bt i sry to say..
i'm letting u down..
i jux cant control myself..