44th day of waiting

44th day of waiting..Mon
2day..
went to skul..
ntg much..
slept behind da table thingy..
nobody rly noticed me dere..
haha..
den suddenly dunno y very crowded when i woke up..
den kailin started to say sumthin..
so i stood up n shown myself~

den ntg jor..
perhimpunan..
stood dere..
with anger n sadness..
whenever i saw it..
it jux makes me go..
ARGH~

den jux stood dere n w8 dem..
den kailin came..
he told me sumthin..
he ask me dun think so much..
den all i wonder is..
how he noe i think too much..
wad he noe i think abt??
i was curious..
den he said he saw seemin v her bf together..
at the bus stop..
omg..
he was shocked..
bt i wasn't rly..

den went bek class..
went to lab..
do da titration(neutralization) experiment..
actually laz week do jor..
bt nid do agn..
cuz laz week failed..
da chemical gt prob..
so dis time do agn..
wow~
nice..
den add math~
i luv LOG!!
den recess..
din tugas..
chat v dem abt carnival..
bt i realised..
v or v/out me..
it doesnt matter..
cuz dey din rly listen to wad i say..
i said many things..
bt dey din care..
all i can do is listen..
n act lik i'm involved..
...
dunno la..
since u guys oredi finiz all..
i dun hav to bother it..

den..
sivik..
teac scolded us..
say wad wad wad..
bt i rly feel proud..
cuz hor..
WHOLE CLASS de book..
all correct de!!
even all answer different..
bt all oso correct..
weird~
"PROUD"

den bm..
ntg much..
waste time~
heard sumthin..
maybe cant rly blame on u..
bt cant u jux mention it earlier??
now suddenly nid do..
very hard de lo..
haiz..

den help mama draw lines for the pizza thing..
den nid thanks many ppl..
yenji, weiyang n some intelek ppl(dun rly noe who)..
all help ~
thx ya~
nt pengawas oso help us~
touched^^

den bek lo..
walking..
went down..
went out..
go bek..
dose were the times..
im happy..
den bek home..
on9 a while..
den while w8ing sailou comment on his status..
wan sleep jor..
suddenly da beep sound..
woke up agn..
den chat v him~
chat chat chat..
den he ask me sleep oo..
ok lo..
even i wanna chat..
bt very tired..
so slept..
4 oclock start..
ask him 'morning call' me on 4.40..
den close jor eyes..
suddenly phone vibrate..
den answer..
den only i noe..
4.40 jor..
omg..
so faz de..
den woke up chat agn..
haiz..
promise jor so long..
till now oso dun hav..
TT

den tuition..
bi teac din come agn..
so did add math n bz taking pic~
den bm..
omg..
sat bside her..
den i started to think of many things..
my plan..
den..
still dun dare...
so w8ed..
den break..
went to find sum teac for help..
cuz..
sy nid confirmation for da letter..
den..
found mr. mark..
den gav him da paper..
den sj..
ntg much..
i stil planned..
i wrote..
"jux wondering..
actually, do i still have a chance?"
then siuhou saw sumthin..
bt i dun wan let him c..
blocked..
den i wanted sy to c..
used my pen to touch her..
den suddenly i dun dare jor..
so i said ntg..
haha..
den ntg jor..
den went bek..
i wrote da msg..
den i doubted..
shud i send or not..
den i send when i saw da time was 10.15..
den i on music..
i told myself..
if she answers me when is playing a sad song..
den is nt a gud 1..
vice versa..
den..
i tried..
den..
long time i din receive ur msg..
anxious..
dunno how..
den suddenly..
my phone vibrated..
da 1st word i saw is "Sry"..
den i dun dare c da msg..
so i kept doubting..
den finally i saw..
i was lik OMG!!
u said u dunno how answer me..
will giv me answer ASAP..
omg!!
at least u din REJECT me!!
omg!!
omg!!
omg!!
rly happy!!
even though u din accept me yet..
bt at least..
u r considering abt it..
means i gt a chance^^
argh!!
so damn happy now!!
even though im eating sumthin cold..
n hard to eat..
bt im still smiling..
haha..
omg~

totally happy..
den 1st time told sailou^^
bt i rly dun wan u moody or crazy la..
be normal k??
dun let things bother u la~
smile ^^
k??

now i rly happy!!
thx ya..
u gav me my happiest moment..
rite here rite now..
PHUNG SWEA YAN!!
thank you..
i will wait until u r calm n finish thinking..
i will..