51st, 52nd & 53rd day of waiting

i've decided to continue waiting..
even though..

51st day of waiting..Mon
early in the morning..
2day im in charge..
so in my mind..
i thought i only nid to ikrar..
den teac in charge started everything..
den suddenly..
pn. pauline came n ask prefect to be in charge..
den..
is my turn..
den went dere..
omg..
very very nervous..
even my hands were shaking..
den sook fen stood bside me..
haiz..
rly gud experience..
bt rly afraid..
TT
im afraid d next turn..
den went to lab..
chemistry..
ntg much..
den add math..
teac din come..

den after recess..
sivik teac no come oso..

den bm..
teac oso no come!
den pn koay came in for relief..
den..
ask us wad we wanna hear..
den i choose pengurusan EQ..
den she asked questions..
every1 nid answer..
den..
she asked us to play a game..
kemahiran sosial de game..
every1 laugh till stomach ache..
rly rly funny..
from da starting..
dey act very gud..
den pass pass pass..
da middle de ppl change till weird jor..
end up da laz 1 totally different v da 1st 1..
dis shows ppl rly nid to communicate well..

den after skul..
practise for da drama..
at least better than laz time lo..

den bek jor..
around 4 sumthin..
very tired..
den tuition..
haiz..
tired tired..
den sj dat time..
gt so many ppl nvr concentrate..
y only ask me de..
den end up dunno how answer..
malu..
my fate!
everytime when i din focus on wad teac say..
sure dat teac will ask me..
since primary skul oso lik dat jor..
even gt ppl talk to me..
i din answer..
jux listen..
teac oso ask me up de..
ISH!!
everytime oso lik dat..
hate!!
den bek home..
ntg jor..

52nd day of waiting..Tue
ntg much in da morning..
den BC spelling thing..
luckily i memorize in da morning..
din read at nite..
den till sj..
rly cant bliv..
dat time very sleepy..
den teac ask us do nota..
den i made into column since i thought we r suppose to do dat..
den i saw dem..
all nt doing it dis way..
den i thought..
sei lo!!
den suan..
continue do..
in my mind..
teac will scold..
den teac came near..
suddenly..
Chong Meng Joe??
(teac nt sure my name..)
(den c my name tag say)
den..@@
she say..
"ur work very neat oo"
i was lik..
OMG??
den she took my book..
showed loohong dem..
dunno say wad wad wad..
keep 'praising' me..
den i dunno how answer..
kept laughing..
den she dunno y ask shirui out to explain..
den bla bla bla..
after tanah arab..
is china n india..
teac asked me to explain..
den hor..
when teac ask..
all answer let vijaya snatch to say jor..
hello?
teac asking me lo..@@
den teac say me..
do so neat bt dunno how answer..==
ish..
bt very cant bliv teac..
cham lo!!
she noe me jor..

den recess..
after recess..
drama..
im still very weak in acting..
nt so dare yet..
ish!!

den physics..
dis 1 rly terrible!!
teac..
ask us do experiment..
den ask us do report..
wan pass up dat day!!
left nt much time..
den u keep rush lik hell..
we haven finiz copying..
u keep rush rush rush..
dun let us c..
how on earth r we gonna copy..
den use brain la!
u click to a page..
wher ntg to be copied..
den sum1 go press..
den u come bek scold scold scold..
dun let us go bek..
F la!!
say wad wad wad nonsense..
den end up..
1.20++ only let us go..
den my dad gt plan jor..
cancel bcuz wait for me..
ish..
den tuition for addmath..
in my mind..
i still hav frustration..

i rly dunno how..
when i noe u r sick..
i feel..
weird..
bt i cant do much..
he's doing a better job than me..
i'm a loser..

53rd day of waiting..Wed
2day..
ntg much..
intend to find pengetua..
den dat OL..
rly make ppl angry de..
ask us y wan find..
den we changed our mind..
i said nvm..
THANK YOU!
den u go n say us no manners..
lagi is prefect!
WTH!!
u self deaf go n say other ppl..
go c doc la!!

den go bek..
no class 2day..
many teac din come..

den ntg much..
in bio lab..
sy n i 'chatted' through passing note..
once agn..
u rejected me..
by dat time..
i rly wanna act lik ntg happened.
bt..
my eyes..
my tears..
so i jux act lik wanna sleep..
bt all im doing is controlling myself..

den teac say wan pass up da bio book..
den jux tear out dat piece of paper..
lazy erase..

i rly cant do it..
i walked away..
alone..
thinking of wad to do..
wad to feel..
den i saw sailou..
gav him da paper..
den..
went bek home..
da distance from da gate to da car..
seems weirdly far..
i saw sailou at da bus-stop..
bt he has his frenz..
so decided not to interrupt..
den jux go on..
dat time i was rly sad..
bt when i saw my dad..
i hav to fake a smile..
den my day jux end lik dat..
i wasted my whole day..
din do any hw..
jux..
waste my time..

rite now dis moment..
im confused..
im sad..
i jux hope i can gt over it..
pls..

i rly luv u..