61st & 62nd day of waiting

61st day of waiting..Thur
morning..
after assembly..
gt a meeting v engsern n jinbin..
haiz..
seriously..
im trying to help..
dey wanted to giv da surat amaran..
bt i stopped them n forced dem to giv me da letter..
den meet u guys..
jux hope u guys will work harder..
n i dun intend to scold u guys..
jux wanna hav a private talk..
bt..
jb's attitude still ok..
bt es'..
rly..
argh!!
im trying to help..
bt if u guys dun wanna appreciate it..
i rly dunno wad to do to help anymore..
den bio..
learned a lil..
den teac say will dissect frog after raya~
yay!!
den PJ..
changed into my pj clothes..
den go down..
suddenly..
sailou hit me from bhind..
grrr...
say me gap lui oo..
adui..
i seeing ppl tugas lo..
den agn..
shyly he 'ran' away to da canteen..
den ntg to do..
go play pingpong..
play play xia..
ring~~
zd!!
form3 bek class jor..
jux now intend play a while go find sailou..
bt..
bell so faz ring jor..
ish!!
suan le..
go find oso nt dere jor..
den jux go n play agn..
nande i will play agn..
play till very happy..
even though im nt dat gud..
bt very happy..
haha

den recess..
den bi..
say do poem..
i rly wrote out wad i felt..
bt..
den chatted v annie abt it..
haiz..
math teac din come..
den bla bla bla..
practice drama..
starting to gt tired abt it..

went bilik guru..
saw mrs lee..
giving away da vote papers..
den sum teac gav bek jor..
'accidentaly' saw da result..
as expected..
mostly oso choose HIM..
den i jux act lik i din c..

bt can i rly dun mind??
i rly mind abt da posst..
i can act lik i dun k..
bt actually i rly do..
y..
i rmb in class..
normally im more active than u..
etc..
bt y dose teac..
dey still prefer u!!
what do u hav dat i dont??
what!!

den bek home..
tuition..
bek home..
chat v sailou..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SweaYan..
hope u will lik da present i gav..
hope that....
...
at least u will be happy always..

62nd day of waiting..fri
friday 13th..
morning..
ntg much..
as usual..

sj teac no come..

den math..
sy wanna find teac..
bt y muz he follow??
den y when i follow her out..
i come bek..
u bu shuang,,
den now u gt care my feeling??
NO!!

i sat dere alone..
so during dat period..
thinking back of da memories we had..
all dose times we've been through..
u n i..

all of da flashbacks..
caused my tears to roll down my cheek uncontrollably..
once agn..
i cried in skul..
bt dis time..
im sure dat nobody knows abt it..
all they think is..
"He's sleepy.."
"tired"
wadeva..
bt i rly cant control it dis time..
den my mood..
down..

den during add math..
zenyi came in..
say wan find HIM..
den i tot is BC society things..
den he came in n say..
wan all form 4 AJK go out now..
wad!!
pengawas thing..
im da so-called penolong ketua..
bt when gt things happen..
im nt da 1 dey find..
he is!!
so even in da junior's heart..
IM NTG!!!
wad oso him..
he is going 2 gt everything from me agn!!

den jux finiz my work..
went recess..

bek..
physic..
bi..
ntg special..
after skul..
went out..
stood outside 3B..
wanted to chat a while v sailou..
den come out jor..
tell me he very nervous..
until hands wet wet..
den he left..
i oso dun rly hav da mood 2 say so much..
jux act happy..
bt oso happy for him..

den jux went bek for drama..
nt rly in da mood for it..
nvm..
since my character has to be serious..
so is ntg much..

bek home..
watched buzzlightyear..
==
den watched child's play..
lame..

den tuition..
sifu sit alone..
so went to acc him..
bt dat place very cold..

den bek..
ntg much..
whole nite very bored..
wasted my time doing ntg..

sms her..
bt no reply..


now..
im rly ntg..
i failed in everything..
im NTG!!
i lost everything!!
NTG I SAY!!
NTG!!!