56th day of waiting

56th day of waiting..sat
2day is sailou's big day..
once agn..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!
happy 2 be da 1st..
den my day is as usual..
din attend wushu cuz too tired..
den jux woke up for organ class..
kinda happy dat teac kinda praise me..
bt nid more effort..
haiz..
noe jor exam date..
now make me more anxious..
25th of aug..
so faz..
2 more weeks..

den was still happy..
went for bio~
sleepy..
den bek..
den chat v sailou..
saw da 'unopened' box..

den went for dinner..
bek home..
receive a msg full of bad words..
cheer up~

den my nite end with a lil mahjong..
jux 45 min..
cuz wnted to call him..
bt too noisy..
once agn..
plan ruined..
fine..

!!now nid plan for 0812!!

2geda v u at genting was rly fun..
both of us alone in da room..
went McD alone..
rly luv it..

rly hope til sep come..
wher i can go kuantan..

if i can bring u along den it wud b perfect..
we could stroll along da beach at night..
holding hands..
looking at da stars..
hear da sound of da waves..
bt all of dis wud be jux a fantasy..
u wun like me anyway..
all i can do is jux imagine..

haiz..
dunno y..
everytime im happy..
sure gt thing make me down..
1stly..
i still mind dat wad C did on friday..
hello?
dis is nt wad im in charge of..
den i ask u wnna go out anot..
u showed us da 'wadeva' look..
den din care jor..
WTF?!!
fine!
if dat's wad da way u wan den fine..

den..
chat v A..
ask A delete sumthin..
cuz i dun wan B sad..
(since A dunno)
luckily B nt around..
den chat chat xia..
da tone of A changed..
lik very bu shuang..
den suddenly off..
den i saw A's status..
say wad bes fren for bes fren isnt da bes..
sumthin else is bes for HIM..
even A din mention who..
bt i think is me..
if is rly me..
i rly dunno wad to say now..
is my fault agn??
wad did i do wrong agn..
since then..
my mood is kind down..

den..
C came n find me..
chat a while..
den talked abt cake..
at 1st i feel dat..
maybe u din hate me or wad..
den chat chat xia..
u told me..
u r jealous when we celebrate other ppl bday..
n din celebrate urs..
bt is my fault agn??
dey told me u said u dun wan cake for ur bday present..
u wan shirt n wadeva..
so i said dat to u..
u told me u 4gt u said dat..
u think nobody cared abt ur bday??
we've planned many things..
bt it jux din work out..
plus..
ur attitude has caused alot of trouble..
now u're saying dat we dun k??
if u wan us to celebrate so much..
y did u said u dun wan a cake on the 1st place??
u said dat..
den how we celebrate without a cake?
ish!!
im rly tired of ur attitude..
yea..
age gap..
wadeva..
if dat's wad u think..
den go on~
up to u..

ARGH!!
i've rly regret for da choice i've made..
i shud hav transferred skul laz year..
im tired of everything here..
maybe i rly belong to chong hwa..
to my primary skul frenz..

i rly wanna leave..
2 a place wher dere's ppl who care..
i'm rly rly rly tired..
fed up of everything!!