50th day of waiting

50th day of waiting..Sun
@The End

2day..
woke up on 10..
den on9..
ntg much..
until 2 oclock..
went tuition..
i was alone..
cuz dey all went for add math class..
den i sat at a corner..
den sifu ask me go join dem..
i rejected..
den jux sit dere..
den i was rly touched..
he came n sat bside me..
den his fren all follow him..
i was rly touched..
n i felt guilty..
cuz of me..
dey hav to move here..
den i was nt alone anymore..
den mark saw wad i wrote..
since he gav a task..
den he say my penyampaian nt gud..
dunno how change a!!@@

den after dat w8 dem finiz..
den went sy hse..
discuss bout moral..
den in my mind..
ive thought of 'sumthin'..
bt jealousy is still in my heart..
u noe i love her..
bt y do u still hav to stick to her so close??
u oredi hav urs..
den y..
im rly confused..
den finiz discuss..
went for dinner..
den bek home..
intended to go airport fetch mom..
bt..
gt things to do..
so din go..
den jux type lo..

suddenly think dou pengawas de wan take pic..
so crazily i went n change my shirt..
go take pic..
lik crazy ppl..

den continue type..
while typing..
i called u..
i wanted to say..
bt u say u on9 jor..
so i said through on9..
as expected..
da answer is still da same..
u've once agn rejected me..
den my tears..
once agn drop at da edge of my eye..
dey were lik acid..
making my eyes hurt..
den i forced myself to stop..
cuz i nid to ask u question abt da moral..
so i called u..
i tried to calm my voice..
bt still gt some words i cant speak..
crying has made my voice bad..
bt i managed to finiz asking u question..
acting as if ntg happened..
after da call..
i cried once agn..
dis time longer..
den i found my sailou..
at 1st..
he still gt mood de..
den suddenly he no mood jor..
den suddenly his mood became normal..
i oso dunno wan how comfort him..
self oso cant help..
sry ya..
intend to bring u gud news..
bt..
all i gt is bad news..
nvr gud..
bt rly thx..
cuz u rly made me happier..
n u've tortured ur eyes..
jux to acc. me..
rly..
THX..

isit the end??
or will it be da 51st day of waiting??
i rly dunno..
i dun wanna noe..
can i jux 4gt everything??
ate a pill..
den i gt amnesia..
4gting everything..
jux noe da life basis..
dat's enuf..

i wanna live a new life..
can GOD jux giv me 1 more try..
to live my life from da beginning..
from 7-6-1994??